a new me??

ugh..it's already friday. and i'm still the old, unchanged me. i've thought about starting a new life, as in, really start a new life. but then, after i slept on it a few nights, i thought that maybe it's a scary idea and maybe i'll just stay the way i am. actually, what triggers me into this idea is when i recently saw pictures of my old friends. they all looked..well, i would say changed. i recalled how nerdy and geeky they looked before. and now, they were totally different!! i felt really mixed up. i'm amazed, and also a bit hurt. i felt hurt that everything's evolving around me while i'm standing in the middle of nowhere and staring into space..what the heck? anyway, i tried to figure out what could be missing in me. i asked a few friends, and they say that i already have my own character. they said that i unconsciously changed. i've been more mature than i was before, but at the same time, i still have the traits i have before. somehow, i felt a little bit better after talking to them. only after having a talk with another friend did i realized that some people don't change. well,they just.. don't. like this friend of mine, when i asked her wether i have give myself a change, she said i already did. in fact, she said she was there all the time seeing me turn from a caterpillar into a butterfly. she felt happy for me, but at the same time, she also felt left behind. she said she didn't ever change physically or the way she thinks, the way she talks, practically every thing! at that moment, i felt a little twinge of pity. i pity her because she felt left behind. but i told her that she doesn't need any changes becaus eshe already is a fine young lady. she thanked me and reminded me that changes aren't usually the best. people change to find their true character. hmm, i really have to give this issue a deep thinking..so give me some time to come up with something. i'll let you know if i ever change in the future. till then..good nite.

newbie in campus!!

yey~!! finally i can now officially call myself a freshmen in the university. cool huh? hmm but being in a university made me think..i now have a really huge responsibility ( i knowlah that marriage is even tougher, but give me a break,ok?) well, i have to really struggle to get good grades, to get a piece of certificate namely, the degree (or masters or PhD)..with that piece of paper i will get a better job, a higher pay and hopefully a better future. of course nobody wants to end up being a garbage collector or even just a salesgirl for the rest of their lives..well, i'm included.although the typical sayings of my aunts is that just stop studying and marry someone rich. but what if you never get to marry that Mr.Rich?? so, after doing some thinking alone, and doing some observations, finally i found the bottomline. if you don't further your studies in higher education, it is likely to be tough for you to "meet" someone with a really good education. i'm not saying guys who don't go to universities are likely to have bad future (some university students also flunked in their studies, duh~) it's just that most of the good guys are actually in college @ university. therefore, another bottomline is that whatever happens, you have to further your studies.not only will you get a piece(or more) of certificates, you'll get to meet more people, make new friends,get good education,make your family and yourself proud, and...meet your Mr.Right.