simple people

Some people makes me drive my thoughts back to basics. the mere simplicity, the non chalance amidst the consciousness of everything else. the care-free, unbinded attitude and the liberated free-will thinking.

i thank these people. they provide me with the occasional breath of fresh air.

they dont deny consumerism, but they dont swear by it either.

they go with globalisation, but they put borders where there should be.

they read and talk to others, but dont necessarily believe all of it.

they are their own people, but they accept others as one of them.


these people;

one who sits on the pavement on the roadside.

one who only owns 7 pairs of tops and bottoms for each day of the week.

one who sits at home when people are out.

one who rides the old bike everywhere.

one who smiles, laughs, and cries when they should.

one who makes mistakes, and take it as a lesson.

one who doesnt do everything right, but doesnt disappoint.

one who is human, and is not afraid of the fact.


these are the people that have often given me new and useful insights on things i find complicated.
find these people around you, believe me, they are there.
the best thing is? they dont know who they are :)

susah la nak cakap

kenapa orang susah nak faham?

atau mereka faham tapi cuba nafikan apa yang diorang faham?

hish, aku pun tak faham.

tolonglah faham supaya aku tak payah fahamkan.

penat, pening, agitated dan keliru.

sila uruskan diri anda sendiri.

Here In My Home

I know that this is probably old juice. And i've used too many videos and music recently to cover up for my lack of commitment in writing a real post kan? HAHA. But it's not wrong to burn up that spirit of nationality over and over again lah i think. HAHA. And plus, this is a very good video. Just the right dose of values and humour lah.
Watched it with some friends during Micro-teaching Reading. Ngahaha. (Kantoi tak focus di kelas).

My favourite part is of Harith Iskandar. Dia buat moonwalk seyh!! And then, Awie's raspy voice and Ning's big notes. Ooohh man, perfecto. And also, the rap part. It's in four main languages used in Malaysia. Seriously cool. Seriously.

And oh, I LOVE MALAYSIA; and PROUD TO BE A MALAYSIAN.





p/s: do you think unity is far-fetched in Malaysia? I think it's achievable, but it does take time :)

"No matter where I roam, this is Home Sweet Home.."

Sakura Beat

Life has been hectic (still..). what more, the semester is coming to an end; everyone's trying to get their work done to be submitted before the study leave. even the lecturers look stressed out around the faculty.

i am coping pretty well. planning a trip, mentally. haha. and still manage to fool around and enjoy being this age amidst all the workload :) some unwanted distractions occur unexpectedly, but thats what makes life much thrilling!

so here's a song, to those of us who still hangs in there, and rocking wild despite all the pressures in our lives.
well, as they say, the way to live is to love! so love life [^ ^]v

Cheers!

[i love this video for its canvas look. very delicate and anime-ish, don't you think? :)]

"Time shall unfold what plaited cunning hides"

-Shakespeare, King Lear

a wise ass and an ass

note:

the wise ass: him
the (fabulous) ass: me

went on tea with my neighbour whom i've not seen for some years now at la bodega. he always has wise things to say whenever he speaks.

"Time equals gold. You can never replace time with gold and eitherwise;

no matter how valuable they are"

How very true. i think i've wasted too many hours on unimportant things. i bet he always thinks of great quotes while on auto-pilot. oh well, pilots are smart-asses. and they are paid ridiculously high amount of moolah just for pressing on buttons and reading meters. (i know, i know, it's more complex than that).

anyway, that is another thing i have yet to think about; my future. dammit how in the world am i supposed to assume what i want in the next few years? i am utterly popular with being unpredictable with myself, and i can never decide today for what's to be in the next two years; heck, not even tomorrow!

but let's put that aside, shall we? one day at a time.



p/s: listening to the velvet underground - im sticking with you.
(heart-- how ironic, im not stuck to anyone.)
(head -- well, so the insecurities and the denial speaks.)

kenapa tak mimpi bunkface??

mimpi yang best! 4 malam yang lalu, dalam kesibukan alam, dan kesuntukkan masa untuk tidur, aku telah pun bermimpi. uhhh sangat indah! (tapi decent la, jgn fikir bukan-bukan).

mimpi simple je: drummer gerard et les stars datang bilik aku and kitorang pillow talk. WAHAHA. tak ingat pula detail apa yg diborakkan, tapi dia puji senyuman aku lah. katanya (dalam bahasa perancis, tapi aku faham) "apa pendapat kamu tentang hidup ini?"

aku tak ingat apa aku jawab, tapi you can bet aku jawab something lame lah (and tak ingat juga bahasa apa). pastu at the end tuh, mak aku panggil dia. sambil cakap "wahhh, ni lah dia bakal menantu ibu ye?"

OMG. how i wish! tapi dah nama pun mimpi kannnn! tepaksa la mak control desire makk!! tak taste la gini nokk!

tapi pape pun, dia pakai baju shirt kotak2 kelabu dalam tu ada t-shirt putih, with fedora hat.

sangat weird, sebab jade puget yg aku minat bagai nak rak tu pun aku tak penah mimpi pillow talk dengan dia. ni kan pulak drummer kecil-kecilan kat lorong kat paris tuh.

but it was a great dream lah! tidur sejam je, tapi mimpi mcm cerita hindustan.



p/s: dalam seminggu ni, the sleeping hour i get has increased! (approx 15jam/minggu)

Point where you should ponder

All dead white boys say "God is good"

White tongues hang out "God is good"

-Sodom, South Georgia

Indeed, i believe so. He knows what is best for me and you, and thusfore, lay them down upon us. What happened, what is happening, and what will from now happen, i let Him decide.

And so, we are in the hands of God. (Shyheim)

Latuk Lee

hey hey, newsflash!

itu Latuk Lee Chong Wei sulah menang itu swiss open!! waaaa sangat gembira la ini macam!! hari itu saya sulah marah2 dia, kasi macam2 hal mencarut la, sekalang dia sulah redeem himself woo!! and also saved the nation's ass from what could be another humiliation!!

haha. hati saya ar sangat hepi!!

menang jugak nombor sangat ong!

set 1: 21-16
set2 : 21-16

points adalah sama untuk kedua-dua set!!

saya rasa latuk sulah faham tactic permainan lin dan. itu sangat mempuaskan! kerana ar, lin dan itu jenis olang yang main pantas. fast speed punya olang. typical chinaman la itu. jadi ar, ini latuk pulak jenis slow-mo la bak kata spielberg; jenis pemain yang main secara cool.

lantas ar, pada set pertama selepas point ke 10 lin dan macam itu, latuk cepat menangkap cara permainan latuk lin dan. eh eh bukan latuk lin dan la dia, silap la. hehe.

so ar, u boleh tengok la, selepas itu latuk bagi kaw-kaw sama dia guna tactic long rally la. dia bagi itu chinaman penat ar, hilang stamina; bagi smash banyak-banyak sama dia so tunggu dia hilang fokus dan make mistake.. sangat bijak la! mungkin misbun dan rashid sulah bagitahu sama dia la, sebab ar, masa itu all england saya nampak beliau ada tulis2 macam-macam atas kertas la masa match. haha. bagus2 ini macam.

moment paling digemari oleh saya, sulah tentulah pada point ke 15/16 set pertama dan point ke 14/15 set kedua. latuk ar sampai pusing 360 woo untuk backhand itu shuttle. gila ka apa ini latuk! sungguh kagum la! haiya, saya sangat hepi la. ini macam baru kali ke empat la dia bagi tewas itu lin dan dalam jangka 15match macam itu, accumulatively la. tapi harus pasti tingkatkan lagi la dia punya semangat fighter! jika tidak ar, sangat cepat la itu latuk putus asa, betul?

jadi ar, kasi tanam itu semangat waja dan patriotik bagi dia kerakyatan sedikit. wahahaha. ok la, hepi hepi ar lu latuk. saya juga mau tido la. latuk, lu nampak sangat leng loi la waktu lu minum air selepas match itu. wa sangat suka tengok!! hahaha. ok la, chowzz!



p/s: omg. aku dah jadi bimbo versi cina.

fantasi berakademi

went to watch AF (or akademi fantasia for those who are ignorant enough, or just couldn't care less, or havent been in malaysia for the past decade, or just deleted the memory of voting for it haha) last saturday at the futsal arena in bukit jalil. i was with my brother; we both despised the idea of having to go watch some amateur entertainers with awkward showmanship and stage skills AND having to go with our more-adult neighbour and her more-adult friends. yes, what more can be worse than having to watch funny people sing karaoke in a competition with elderly AF fanatics right? well, it was not so bad as it turned out. we actually had fun! and i kind of like one of the contestants (or two!). haha. gila menjilat ludah sendiri ;p i like Qhaud and Aril. got the potential baybeh!

definitely a season to watch out for!



p/s: ada orang kata tiara jacquelina sangat gedik sebagai seorang pengetua AF. apa kata anda? mari kita tunggu dan lihat!

goodbye

" i hope life treat you kind,

and i hope you have all you dreamed of.

and i wish you joy,

and happiness,

but above all these,

i wish you love.."

not something i do

sometimes you just dont know that it is happening. by the time you realize, it is already over. and you are left alone wondering what the hell just happened and why the hell were you so oblivious and was such a dumbass that such an eventful thing sept you in but you did not so much notice, let alone feel it.

yes, dear friends, there are people like that in this world. in fact, most of us probably has gone through this. you want it so much, but you deny it. but with the power of the universe, you get it, and then you didnt realize. so you couldnt appreciate it. and it goes away. and you blame yourself. and you missed a chance; could be the chance.

and you start to feel as if the world is crumbling down around you. and as painful as it is to swallow, you owe to yourself. the only person you could and would blame is you and no other.

and all that is left for you to do is to only hope.

to hope for a hope.

patience is virtue

you know that feeling when somebody took a portion of your heart, pull it out and keep it in a jar? yes, it will leave a hole in your heart. it hurts, it sucks, but it happens all the time. and they say time heals all wounds. but time is very, very abstract. some take longer time to heal, some in a blink of an eye.

but you heal, sooner or later. just need to be patient.

patience.

if only i had more of it.

being someone else may seem very tempting, but never ever give in to the temptations.

just be yourself, only better :)

corat-coret seorang perwira

went to watch Marley & Me the other night, amidst all the hectic-ness, BUT it was worth it. felt like i need a refresher course and last weekend has given me just that. i now feel relinquished, fresh and more creative than i was in previous weeks (last time i can come up with a thousand reasons why not to go to class, but now macam dah less kreatif utk berfikir. nway, skng dah improve sikit dah). HAHA. annndd, di samping itu juga, aku dah organize kan diri sket. dah ada calendar (ye, kali ini ADA and GUNA. selalu ada je), organizer, notebook..you name it, i got it. ceh. dah kata sexytary, kena la hidup tersusun. (ye, next time aku nak upah org lain pula jadi secratary aku. tak dan la kome nak buat semua). rasanya, Pak Lah pun tak busy macam ni. (yela, dia keja bercinta je. negara porak peranda pun peduli apa dia. haha. jgn marah pak lah. sindiran bermakna, sila ambil tindakan).

nway, marley and me was very sad. i think coz it's regarding unconditional love between the dog and its family/master. so, very touching. based on true story lagi. acad, moja, chip sampai beli buku dia buat koleksi sampai akhir hayat. cuti-cuti nanti nak pinjam boleh baca tambah ilmu. bagi yang belum tonton, hari selasa dan rabu murah. malah harga early bird memang tak masuk akal. silalah bergegas ke panggung bersama kad pelajar anda.

rentetan itu, minggu ni menjanjikan sebuah lagi minggu yang pasti mencabar kesabaran dan kecekalan ku dek kesibukan dan tuntutan kerja (cewah gitu!). lantas, masa itu semestinya emas. janganlah kita membuat kerja minit terakhir kerna sesungguhnya, hanya aku yang tahu bala bencana akibat melengahkan kerja. HAHA. tapi saya pasti anda semua hebat dalam bidang procrastinatism ini. memang, saya akui sendiri, ia adalah satu sindrom berbahaya! oleh itu, jika masih mahu membuat kerja last minute, jangan berseorang, biarlah berdua bertiga dan lagi ramai lagi bagus. supaya rakan-rakan anda bisa memberi anda satu jenis ego-boost yang anda pasti perlukan di saat genting. support system, bak kata orang barat dari segi demografinya lah. jika buat hanya seorang, anda pasti akan berasa guilty, lonely, dan low self-esteem. renung-renungkanlah coretan ini. semoga kapan kita ketemu lagi. iya bisa doank!

lesson of the day: ya apa saja bisa!! (adapted from Obama, 2009: Yes We Can!)

salam sayang dari perantauan.

captain cook sans the hook

yeap, i need ponstan for that. haha, can't believe such a minor accident can be so painful. it was swollen to double the real size. and now, i can only wear huge pants and long clothing that can disguise this bandage from the eyes of the public. wahahaha. if you must know, i am skinless (well, at that particular spot) and now have to wait till the skin regrow and my leg will look (almost) normal again. can't wait for brand-new skin. it surely would feel like i have been reborn (not!).

what a tragedy. can't reveal much, or you'll faint upon seeing it. LOL

atlit malaysia

ye, baru selesai menonton piala All England Open 2009 yang bagaikan kertas conteng dikeronyok lantas dibuang ke tong sampah. perasaan membuak-buak dengan kekecewaan dek kekalahan DATUK lee chong wei kepada lin dan dari china. nak katakan kalah tipis, memang jauh panggang dari api lah. memang diketahui bahawa dalam 15 kali pertemuan mereka berdua (tak kira tourney apa) Lin Dan meragut kemenangan sebanyak 12 kali dan lee c.w. hanya menang 3 kali dengannya. tapi seorang rakyat malaysia sejati tidak akan nafi mempunyai segelumit harapan yang lee akan menang. sekali tengok, first set dah lemah. second set lagi la. dapat satu mata, bagi satu mata. dapat satu, bagi satu - tu motto baru dia ke? sampai lah akhirnya masa point ke 15 macam tu, Lin Dan dah sangat selesa, dengan 4 mata di hadapan, and time tu aku sedar yang tak mungkin untuk lee mengejarnya. bukan pesimis, tapi realistik. orang tu dah nak match point; masa tu mata ke 20, tinggal satu je lagi. tak kan lah nak harap dia buat silap je? tak mungkin.

yang aku nampak kelemahan lee: bila dia jatuh, lambat bangun. and he's a late bloomer. so dia ambil masa agak lama nak warm up. by the time dia dah heat up, opponent telah pun bersorak gembira dengan kemenangan dalam tangan. bubur dah jadi sup. time waits for no man. ombak pergi meninggalkan kerang. hahaha.

not only that, yesterday DATUK nicole ann david, KALAH kepada Natalie Grainger, an american in the final CIMB KL Open. one thing i noticed is that, she has this 'habit' of losing when it comes to national championships. how funny. i have no clue if it has anything to do with the prize money, as money is still money, but seriously, she's the world no.1 squash player in the world and she lost on her own turf more than anywhere else in the world. very interesting, nicole. maybe it's just tough luck kot, although im starting to think you have something up your sweaty sleeves.

talking about malaysian athletes. they all claim that they were given too little incentives and rewards. the black sheep when it comes to that. now the allowances has been raised, more incentives are given, and there are other rewards in accordance to the their performance and achievement. i.e. datukship. and i.e. both the datuks mentioned above.

when they have been given all these nice things and special treatments - kompang at arrivals at the klia, all the menteri coming down to greet them, not 'punishing' them by taking back the incentives if they suck at their game - then all they do is relax. every game that comes after that will be taken not so seriously as they feel superior and already good enough at whatever they're doing.

please la people, wake up. one thing our athletes lack - and surpass any other aspect as it is the most essential - patriotism and resilience. (oh wait, thats two things. haha nway.) so better do something guys. the malaysian football team has long been a disgrace to us.

somebody's got to clean up this mess. and it ain't gonna be me.

penantian = penyeksaan

betul kata orang, penantian itu satu penyeksaan. dah lebih dua jam dah ni menunggu. tapi nasib baik menunggu di tempat selesa (yakni bilik) dan berinternet. haha.

aku sudah lambat untuk kerja. haih. nak salah kan orang tu, dia yang bagi aku kerja ni, tapi dia juga yang boleh menyebabkan aku kehilangan kerja. another irony of life ;p

pagi tadi hantar liyana, dia nak pegi on a trip to cameron highlands with some of our friends. something that i kind of need myself. but its ok. the time will come for me lah soon. hope they bring back some tea and strawberries for me ;p

today, i want to reward myself with something i've longed for for a very long time:

to curl up in a book before i fall into deep slumber.. hehe. economical, simple, yet very very rewarding :)

one and a half weeks in one post

mode: definitely busy.

highlights:

1. my sisters' sports day was fantabulous. was held at the bukit jalil sports complex. izrin was the flyer for her rumah sukan and i couldnt believe my eyes seeing her cheer like an expert, given that this is her first attempt. thinking of cheer comp, girl? ;p

2. the short film awards at KLCC CC was a refreshing event. got to meet some cool personalities (i.e. ehem ehem, bunkface), and we breathed the same air and took the same escalator! hahah, loser gila! omg. we even stalked them at the end of the event. i am such a groupie. but i dont give a sh*t. they're cute and i like them ;p

3. another week of post-poned quizzes and presentations. i just want to get them done and over with! please!

4. jason mraz was the highlight of the week! i believe he's one elligible bachelor but not ever up for grabs. coz he's every girl's man. full report soon :)

5. helped fa move out. just the two of us, we managed the can-fill-one-whole-warehouse load of stuff! to level 3!! fa, Angel Face satu! LOL.

6. chilled with gfs. definitely trying the New Age next :) im so loving this!

7. -ve: MAJOR injury on right thigh caused by the dumbass exhaust of a bike.flesh exposed. right before mraz's show! like hadi said..no pain, no gain! yea right, this is almost fatal la dude :)) hahahaha (exaggerate)

i hope more great things will come my way. repeat, only great things. got too much bad chi nowadays. shooh negative aura, shooh!