Antidote

In a few months' time, it will be a year since you-know-what.

I can't say that things have changed, or neither have they not.

I am still waiting.. for certainty.

On a different note, I feel extremely happy this weekend, despite the fact that I have to work, and in the wee hours. Listened to 22 important songs that put me to sleep last night.

Bumpy roads ahead, but I know I have nothing to fear.

Come on whatever challenge you may be, I'll take you by the horns you b-tch!

Matters of a Heart

Saw a real heart with my eyes today.

I also saw it stop beating.

It made me think: it's just an organ.

But an organ so powerful, that people can't live without.

Magic Eraser

I want a Magic Eraser, or rather I need one.

This eraser is made especially to erase every single memory that you wouldn't want to ever recall again.

It is angular in shape which makes it easy for you to pick a particular point in your life, a moment, whatever, and erase just that.

I probably need to do a lot of erasing, and it's not easy when I am such a sentimentalist. I hoard memories, keepsakes. I hold on to things (too much, sometimes).

I hate the past. As of this moment.


p/s: I like making mistakes http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/vaster-emptiness-achieved/

Brighter Days

In My Way

It rained, out of the blue.

We all thought it was going to be sunny all day; as the morning sun looked promising.

So we hung endless row of clothes, socks, underwear on pegs; dusted all the shoes, carpets.. whatever that is in need of a greeting sun.

And then it rained, and I was left alone to bring all of that in. By the end, I was soaked.

I thought, Why must it rain? Why?

And then I thought again:

Why not?


So I ran into the heavy rain that was pounding on my skin and just stood there. It's just water anyway.

I haven't played in the rain since I was a kid and have mucus hanging from my nose. This should be good.

And I stood there for God-knows how long; with eyes closed and letting the stinging coldness of possible acid rain simmer in to my flesh.

I loved it. Refreshing.

While the beat of millions by millions of raindrops stomping on surface entertain my ears, I recalled the overtly famous Malay proverb:

Kusangka panas hingga ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengahari.


Like life, things happen unexpectedly. Things happen unplanned. And like that Carly Rae Jepsen song "Call Me Maybe".. all I did was throw a wish in the well, and now you're in my way.

In This Moment

Just sitting in a neighbourhood cafe; flirting with this sexy whipcream they put atop of my mocha.

Looking around at the amount of strangers who are apparently not at work, and listening to music.

Can this be the life?

What? Isn't this what people do when they're alone and bored? Hehe.

Ok, currently, this very moment, soundtrack of my life would be: 

Cigarette Burns by Flunk

Funky tune, and a girl with a dimple. What's not to love?

One Morning

Una Mattina by Ludovico Einaudi

Saw a French film recently, Intouchables - it was amazing. Not so much of the technicalities or visual aesthetics (although yes, the background is Paris), but it was just the simple, clean-cut story line.



I think somehow, what made it a good film was the fact that it has the resonance of "realness". Intouchables was based on a true story, and I will not spoil it here, but do watch if you can.

Throughout the entire film, I remembered listening to only two kinds of background music:
1) Songs by Earth, Wind and Fire 
2) Songs by Ludovico Einaudi


I instantly fell in love with the piano solo by Ludovico Einaudi. Repeated the end credit over and over just to listen to Una Mattina.


Una Mattina is translated as One Morning.

Mermaid

Mermaid by Yuna

Someone Out of Town

Someone Out of Town by Yuna

It Will Happen

What I've learned through time:

It doesn't matter what people say or think, you'll only believe the things you want to believe.

I don't have everything; the success package. But I have relentless courage, and endless optimism.

And I believe, it will happen. It will happen.

Amin.