Sunday, September 28, 2008

puitis (wannabe) dari adelaide

hari ini terasa amazingly normal.
macam bukan nak raya.
maybe sebab kat tempat orang,
dan mereka tak sambut Eid Mubarak.
semua orang jalan macam biasa.
macam hari ini hari isnin.
hari isnin
yang supposedly membosankan.
oi!
semua orang!
lagi dua hari
hari raya lah!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

i'm gonna soak up the sun

it was fantastically sunny and beautiful today. i almost cant believe that i experienced a bodily, biological process, called perspiring. i didnt even remember how it felt to have your shirt moisten. man, sweat is cool! haha (to some extend, yes). there are heaps of people today. like a mass parade, walking towards the city.

they all love the sun you can tell. i do too, i just hate the uv ray and the cancer effect it can bring us. yeap, skin cancer is just a ray away.

i read recently somewhere in a health mag that skin cancer starts from your lips. coz apparently, that's where the skin is most thin and vulnerable and exposed. like, duh, you dont slop huge gunks of suntan lotion on your lips, right? so i guess basically now, all girls and gays and guys will have to go out into the sun with some balm on your smackers! the best is to wear lip balm or lipstick (guys, you've got very little option here. sorry!) and try your best to avoid lip gloss coz it absorbs the uv ray.

and skin cancer is like the 'thing' now, since global warming is slowly evolving into global hot-as-hell heating. free saunas everywhere for everyone! (trying to be optimistic. the glass is half full people)

yeah, i reckon, more money will be rolled into the pharmaceutical business, since a lot of people buying moisturising lotions coz of the dry weather, suntan lotions, balms, ointments etc. more Watsons and Guardians!

whatever it is, here in Adelaide (and Australia), more people are putting away their clothes. you can sort of hear them under their breaths when they walk next to you, "soak the sun. soak the sun. soak the sun.." like a mantra. seeing half naked bodies lying around wherever there is grass is a new thing for me man. (im not that innocent! -brit) can you say "culture shock siyot!!" haha. ah sod it. im used to my bro and sisters running around the house naked with things dangling and swaying all over.

just this morning, i have a girl come to me and ask if 'my tan' is original coz "it certainly looks real!!". gee honey, let me tell you something, being tanned is normal from where i come. and yeah, it's original! i was quite shocked by the stranger-coming-up-to-my-face-asking-unlikely-questions incident, that im not sure whether i should take it as a compliment or insult. like she's trying to say im coloured? holy crap. and for the record, im not tanned. im bloody burned! (serious shit, the sun is doing me no good, though i like it. remember, skin cancer)

anyways, things are turning up these days. hope more good things would come my way :)

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

i am muff, the discoverer

i found the best, most scenic and secluded place in Adelaide. its somewhere in Para Hills. take the 506 bus and get down at stop 52. its near the Para Hills Ovals. once you get down, be prepared to be blown away by the wonderful, surprisingly extravagant view just from where you are standing.

i didnt get to snap a picture as i was too absorbed in the tranquility and amazing breath-taking panorama upon my eyes (apart from the fact that i was rushing to catch another bus). i cant believe people took for granted of this place. vehicles drive pass it like nothing and people jog pass it, not to it. it's just sad.

from there you can see the whole view of the airport, houses, highways and roads. just go and see for yourselves. it's worthwhile.

orang-orang kejam

sila kasihani whales kerana mereka tidak berdosa. ada ke patut menyalahkan mereka untuk perkara yang tak sepatutnya.

ni idola azzam. dia yang bagi link nih. wahahaha:

http://www.thebestpageintheuniverse.net/c.cgi?u=whales_suck

kekejaman berleluasa di arena marin! sila tangani segera!

*lari-lari sambil freak out*

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

kebosanan menggamit diriku

orang yang asyik cakap dia bosan serious shit tak menghargai hidup. rilek ar bro, wa tak cakap lu. the thing is, aku pun buat benda yang sama. ha ha. bosan ar weh. tadi pegi Woolies, beli sebotol air sprite. ntah kenapa. padahal bulan puasa, kalo tak puasa pun, aku tak minum sprite. baik beli ice lemon tea. nampak sangat hari ni hari pelik.

oh iya, kenapa ada orang suka bunuh whales. kenapa? kenapa? diorang stok comel tahap gaban masih ada orang yang sanggup melakukan mass murder terhadap mereka. aku tak nak la pinpoint sape-sape, nor menuduh sape-sape, tapi sebenarnya aku bengang dengan negara jepun! mereka terlalu keterlaluan dan rakus memamah daging whales yang tidak berdosa itu!!

*termenung sejenak*

haish, manusia. ini lah manusia. sentiasa mahukan yang lebih. (jap, tak faham point). ok tukar topik.

deyyyyy, aku rindu mahu makan itu roti planta sama itu teh tarik. dan juga mi goreng mamak. harapanku agar persatuan mamak malaysia akan meneruskan usaha mereka dalam bidang perniagaan ini terus prosperous kerana major consumer (aku la tu) sudah tidak lagi meng'consume' buat masa ini. jejak je kaki kat malaysia, bergegas pegi mamak dulu. haha. hish, mamak-culturized betul aku. (dan juga beribu-ribu orang lagi rakyat malaysia).

ok la, nak pegi kacau orang sebelah (farhana aka mak). nak tengok komen yang dia tengah tulis kat friendster nak bagi kat boyfriend dia. aku suka jadi annoying terutama sekali ketika aku tak diperlukan. hahaha. i rock la bebeh. chow.

BORING IS THE NEW BLACK.

HA HA HA

Friday, September 19, 2008

they are party poopers

last night was shaheeza's birthday. we all enjoyed some spaghetti, roasted chicken and cake. it was done at faris' house. everything was going well, until the mak guard came and pooped the party. you can straight away tell that she's a newbie, so a bit like poyo lah. she said we were too noisy. and she freaking came like 4 times! and sitting nearby the house in between the times she actually knocked the door telling us to keep quiet. i know it was a bitchy thing for shaheeza, poor her, and she had that sad look on her face last night. it was heart-wrenching. there were more than 10pax in the house (of course, its a party for goodness sake) and the mak guard was all about sending out half of the people in the house. it was like a mini holocaust. haha. nahh.

anyways, that incident intstantly reminded me of another similar tragic that happened while i was staying in kolej cemara. we were celebrating atep's birthday, and as usual, we went overboard; making ridiculous noise and all that jazz. throwing flour at each other was like pulling the trigger on the gun for the pak guard. hahaha. he was pissed like never and called us "monyet". im like, wtf. haha yeah, but that was a cool one. i missed all that - making the guards pissed. and last night was a remake of the history. hahaha

btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAHEEZA (if by any chance you're reading this. haha)

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

new movie

O sweet Lord. have u guys heard of the new movie? the one with takeshi kaneshiro? its Accuracy of Death aka Sweet Rain. takeshi is the grim ripper. huh. gotta love it man, gotta love it! im watching out for that! he's one hellov a jap! the best product from japan!

check it out: http://www.yowazzup.com/

do butterflies ever cry?

today's the last day of class before spring break. i have no plans whatsoever, and im pissed. just purely pissed over the fact that im short of two _____ tutorials!! hah. self-regretion is something i cant live without now, it's all splattered over me. it followed me around. man. ah. fuh-get it! i still have the email. yes, thank god for the internet, the cyber world, the email and everything else! thank you, O Lord!

made a new friend today, while waiting for the (damn) bus. she was crying, quite loudly and expressively. and i was the only one there, and i just could not ignore the weeping and all that and so i had to go and ask her what was wrong.

to cut the story short, she had guy problems, and as it turned out we go to the same uni. so we talked some more on the bus, and exchanged numbers. she was from macau. i like macau. not that i've been there. but i'd like to someday. all in all, she pulled herself together with my help (ehem, ehem), and i was equally happy to help.

by the end of today, as in before this moment now, the smile i got on my face turned upside down. and then it turned up again. and then down again. (wth? i need caffeine man) but whatever. all im trying to say is that today is a series of unwanted and unexpected things. geez. that image of that cathedral, is going to stick in my mind like a supernova effect man. it's permanent memory. im gonna miss it :(

gee wheez. geez bananaz. hoolla goronggo. gotta chow peeps. need to go get some chocolate before i go nuts with depression and self-guilt. hahahahahaha (yeah. u can laugh) oh btw, im fasting okayy. (who says im not? u bloody bastards!) so i cant really go get chocs. gotta wait for..erm..yeah an hour and a half. i can survive till then. wookayh, buhbye.

yeap, call me vulnerable

talk about vulnerability.
that's what im made of, now
i realized.
ugh. bugger.
that look; just that one look,
it got me hooked.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

last lecture

today's the last day of lecture for constructing curriculum. michael started off by saying that today is a sad day - well, i have to agree, despite the fact that my mind nearly drifted off one too many times; heck, i love the lectures. they were available online, but it's different when you go and attend them.

judy's presentation was the cherry on top. she's my tutor and i love her. she has this low-key confidence oozing out of her everytime i listen to her speak - it's almost like listening to a bed-time story but when you listen to it really closely, they're full of critical analysis, judged opinions and all that. im gonna miss her.

people in my class are going for their practicum beginning after the spring break i think, and it's really going to be heaps of longing on my part. they will be teaching in schools and we will all be meeting each other again only on week 9, when our multimedia presentation is going to be held. but we still have a tutorial this thursday, which is going to be the last before their prac.

geez. this view in front of me is just amazingly tear-jerking. this is the first time i've used a computer in this part of the library - the one facing the GP block and the fountain and lake outside. mawson lakes campus is simply the most state-of-the-art campus and it's so beautiful that you just have to love to come to class everytime!

ah, what else can i say? i just dont want to leave this place. i want to study and keep on studying here. i would if i could, man. sigh, i'll try and make full use of this week and swallow it all in - the sight and smell.

next week is spring break for two weeks. hope our plan to go to kangaroo island would not be intervened. maybe i'll save melbourne for end of the year break. huh.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

bugger. bugger. bugger.

i was lost for words. haha. i got back my first assignment for literature, and guess what? i got a bloody freaking C. yeap, that moon crescent look on my feedback form - a C.

i freaked out when i saw that, and was dumbfounded. well, there's a first time for everything, i thought. but i dont want to ever have a first time for this! ugh. i was quiet the whole time in class.

at the end of class, i went to see the tutor. i said, i got a C. and she nodded, not understanding the basis of my statement. i dont know what to say, so i repeated, erm, i got a C. now she looked super confused. like i just told her i'm not a woman. she said yesss... hmm do you need justification?. i bloody well do! but instead i replied but i got a C. almost in a weepy tone. she chuckled. well, yes, you got a C as far as i can see. and C is for credit. that's not bad at all! you just have to work on your referencing (as she flips my paper). wait, two things. C is a credit? oh. ok. so in malaysia...hmm. it's a B. haha. well, thats alright by me. hahah. can you say over-reaction? LOL. but still, C is not a good sight. why cant she just write full spelling? Credit, that would seem a lot better. geez. second, i dont do referencing back in uitm. all i did was copy and paste the website url. this type of referencing, is new to me man. course, i've heard of that harvard-style referencing and all that bull, but as if i apply it.

"Do add embedded referencing in your essays".

wtf? i have to reference? and i have to embed it in the essay? man, really. what have you got me doing oh academicians. crucify them! crucify them!

*deep breaths*

for the sake of education. for the sake of a degree, for the sake of high distinction! i will REFERENCE! if that's what it takes! i will practice referencing in my daily life!

haha. on a lighter note, i got okay for the other three subjects. *sigh*. hope i will be flying back with flying colours. i need to make my mom proud man. she was sceptical of me going to OZ for this program. she thought i partied all night here. i mean come on. me? party? nahh. hahah. whatchu lookin at bro? nway, i just wished she wouldnt be so "untrusting" towards me. i'm a big girl man. (in a big world. haha. that song). well yeah, gotta go get that effing high distinct for that literature assignment. geez. i dont want to be a nerd! i dont want to be a nerd! who started off that label should go suicide.


bye y'all. have a great day.


p/s: how would i look like if i were blonde? hmm..point to ponder. LOL

Sunday, September 07, 2008

i need a cuppa!

ah, this funny little thing called humanity. never liked the idea of it. you acknowledged, and you will find the need to abid to it. let me tell you, it's a whole bucket full of bull. really. and there's the other thing by the name of stigma. the feeling, the action of labelling, just the notion of it - is automatic. you can't help it. you can't help giving people categories, calling them names; those which frequently emerge during first encounters. it's all in your mind. well, have the comfort of knowing that..i do it too.

first thing i do when i meet people is to put them in their astrological categories. ha ha weird. i read the symptoms - their body language, the way they do something, they way they speak, they way they listen to you speak - you know, signs. then i presume a group for them - the initial stage, i shall say.

the next phase is quite an interesting one. this usually takes me by surprise. this is the moment when the truth reveals itself - whether or not my presumption is correct (or otherwise). truth be told, i normally have a 50-50 chance, so i'm not really an expert at categorizing people, but i sure can be a professional gambler. *sniffs* *coughs*

if my hypothesis was proven wrong, i normally feel a little down. more or less like a failure. like i had done the person a measurement of injustice. i've interpreted him/her wrongly. yada yada yada - along the lines of mild disappointment.

if i was right, i feel a jolt of joy. i feel like i have a talent (of categorizing..sheesh) - to read what lies beneath. sometimes i find myself smiling or grinning (this is most embarassing cause it exposes the teeth). but whichever side of the coin it is, i always feel a sense of enthusiasm to dig deeper and to know more about that person - which is, obviously, a good thing.

beyond this point, i normally become neutral and uninhibited to any sort of notions and pre-judgements. this is the part i like most. this is the part where i got the most information on the person. just opened up to a glass window with a view of the endless horizon. haha cool stuff.

gotta chow peeps! (before i get really deep. hehe)

Monday, September 01, 2008

dont fall on your feet

hey people. how have you all been doing? hope things are fine with the Ramadhan on the radar, just try to be good people right. haha.

class were good just now. we discussed about the multi-culturalism that some people seem to tag to themselves - and that pretty much reminds me of where i come from. Malaysia. i believe we are multi-cultured, on the basis that everybody practices their culture and traditions freely. however, the fact that some of these people actually disacknowledged others who possess different cultures than those that they have, really sucks.

and i dont feel like giving a whole lecture on that now, since my brain is fizzed out from the discussion just now that all i need now is just a mango juice. thing is, its fasting month. mannn. i need to juice my brain!

guess i'll go make myself useful for a while. go check out some good books. really into children's book now. they're pretty damn good i tell ya! embedded messages and the illustrations are wicked! wish i have the talent to draw. life sucks. haha.

gotta bounce y'all.



p/s: the title is spur of the moment

Sunday, August 31, 2008

post-party report

OMG. fo shizzle ma nizzle! gee wheez hoolla banana! the party was D.O.P.E.!! it was intense, we got a whole crowd come knocking on the door (some just barged in. oh well, the door was open anyway). and more than 100pax came to our supposedly-humble-and-small-and-random party. there were heaps of heads in the house, that some even had to eat in the bedroom (MY bedroom). coz apparently, they all came at the very same time, though we had allocated 11am-4pm, they all came at 1pm anyway. safa brought many of his guy friends to the house, like it was his party, haha. nah, it was good of him. good guy. he tried to match make us at every chance he got. geez, thanks but no thanks man. hehe. hani and fatin came too. they got a bit lost. one of the guys jokingly wondered if our house is already in the borders of melbourne. haha. funny.

the food was great, so says the guests, and everybody enjoyed themselves. the crowd started coming at 1pm with empty tummies, and the food was gone in a split second. so i had a teeny weeny bit of trouble, as i was in charge of the bread pudding (and i had to attend to guests, mingle smingle), and i had to restock the pudding as it was finished earlier than i thought it would be. these people sure have massive sweet teeth! and it takes almost 1hour and a half for a bread pudding, so u guessed it. it was pretty messed up. i mean, the planning and organizing of my desserts. sheesh.

the rest of it, fun fun fun. we met a lot of people. they all come from different places and backgrounds. friends from everywhere got together and just eat and got to know each other. it was pure awesome. i'll put up some pictures some time soon, coz i have some trouble with my banddrive at the moment. it was lost last week, and a hell lot of things were in there. but i'll work on that later.

and, we got a TV! Sam brought it with him on sunday, and it was quite a huge one. we used a coat hanger for the aeriel, but the it's pretty much working beautifully. last night we watched Thank God You're Here and Australian Idol, and we were just dumbstrucked by the fact that we actually have a freakin' tellie! we had dinner in front of the tellie, we did our assignments with the tellie on, we decorated it with flowers we took from the backyard; it was just amazing. like having a newborn baby. very gut wrenching moment there for a little while. haha.

my housemates are fine. we're bonding. farhana and safa are doing good too. things are cruising for now. am looking forward to the grates' gig. hah. can't wait. there's also the OZ festival. we might catch the moon lantern festival, sounds great. the rpesentation just now started with a whole technology racketty wreck but it ended well. angela was very supportive.

guess that would be all for now. thank you again, for those who came all the way to our house from the city, mile end, east and west. it was really amazing having you guys. do come by some day; our doors are always open :)

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

diari sebiji perut

Hari ini hari khamis.

Dah nak masuk tengahari.

Tak breakfast pagi tadi.

Kejar bas pulak tuh.

Rentetan itu,

AKU LAPAR.

gila nak mamps punya lapar.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

perihal mingguan yang menarik tahap gaban

it's the 27th. a few days left for Ramadhan, the fasting month. i reckon it's not going to be that tough, since sunset is pretty early here. yippee. there are plans made to go for buka puasa and tarawih together with the other muslim friends. hope everything will turn out okay. coz we ain't got a car and we need a ride bebeh!!

other things.

this saturday, we're throwing a party at our house. gahaha. bajet gila siot. dah la pendatang baru/newcomer, pastu bajet2 la nak buat jamuan makan2. nak ajak sape deyy?!? ha, jangan tak tau. ramai jugak la yang akan hadir. tapi semua orang random la, sebab kita orang kenal diorang semua kat tempat2 yang random, lantas, random la party ni nanti.

menu. hmm. random jugak. maybe nak buat simple2 je. mi rebus, spaghetti (bolognese?), ayam bakar (eh ke panggang? xsure lagi. bbq set pun xde kott) and some pencuci mulut yang pasti akan meng'air liur'kan mulut. aku in charge dessert (of course, what do you expect?). LOL. tapi tolong gak la orang lain masak. haaa satu lagi, booze xdak naa. nak booze gi party lain. yg ada kat umah kitorang tu ka-booze je eh. hahaha memang berkabus pun. sebab atas bukit.

pastu khamis kena gotong-royong menebas lawn yang dah macam hutan belantara kat belakang ngan depan umah tu. tu la, soh sewa unit tak nak, nak gak banglo. gahaha. xde la banglo sgt tapi kira banglo la kalo rumah camtu kat msia. tandas nak disental (tolong la jangan aku lagi sekali), dapur di'shine', dan perabot disusun rapi. nasib baik umah tak banyak barang. kalo tak, naya.

time start, probably pagi kot. kul 11. abes dalam kul 3 kot. tengok weather forecast cam ada morning shower that day. harap2 la sekejap dan xlebat.

hari sabtu ni jugak la, menandakan hari gembira kami. sebab...kitorang akan dapat TV!!! gahahaha. Sam budak kelas aku tu baik gila. dah la bagi free, siap nak hantar sampai umah tu. dia automatic di invite ke party itu! hmm, dia ada benda lain tak nak give-away agaknya. keh3. gila cheapskate. bagi betis nak peha. bagi peha nak..? (fill in the blank)

sebenarnya, (jangan bagitau sape2), aku malas nak wat benda jamuan ni. leceh. pastu ramai lak tu yang diajak nye. approx 100org. nanti keje2 kotor dan jijik hamis keji semua aku gak yang kena. maggots dan kulat menjadi sahabat taulan ku nanti. ah benci! xpe2, orang datang umah rezeki. alaa tapi malas dowh! gahaha. point is, tak kesah orang datang umah, tak kesah masak, tapi kesah gila masa nak kemas nanti. dah la ahad tu nak tungkus lumus wat assignment. isnin dah kena submit dua. kelas lak kul 9am. adushhh. kancah kebinasaan siyot.

ok ar. wa chow dulu.

peace no war. kem salam kat anuar. (rhyme tak? hehe)

Monday, August 25, 2008

random


when you are not needed, that's when you realize the world does not evolve around you.

observe your surroundings.

malam merdeka '08

i went to the malam merdeka 08 last night at dom polski's. it was fun. my housemates were there, some new friends were there, new faces, familiar faces, all the exchange students were there too. everyone dressed up, made up, and smelt nice. i wore baju kurung, a simple one. most people wore dresses and something to cover on top (it was cold). guys looked nice in jackets and blazers and sweaters.

the food, was okay. i dont like the fish. it tasted like tupperware. the rest was good.

the performances were so-so. but they all did very well. i know some of them practiced like mad, and they should get credit for that. i especially love the merdeka advertisements in between performances. they were awesome. certainly brought memories of home and the past. good stuff.

the lucky draw was fantastic. the prizes were superb. they had a $200 dicksmith voucher, printer, digicam, bus tix, etc. i wasn't lucky i guess, coz i didnt win any.

the picture-taking moments were the best. people snapped away and smiled like they never did. it seemed that everyone was comfortable being with fellow malaysians after a while. been really busy with assignments and classes. it was fun.

a friend sent me home, coz i cant possibly take a bus, it was late. very nice. thanks a lot man.

the whole night was great. i had fun; and a hang over (sort of, too much soda). but i got to the lecture on time today. so all is good. cool stuff.


p/s: something quite weird happened at the lecture today. hmm

Sunday, August 24, 2008

some Malouf

if you're bored, and you have no life, go and read An Imaginary Life by David Malouf. he's a genius. he is always spot-on in his writings about you and your life. i stumbled upon his novels when i had to search a reading for one of my classes. but alas, i got the wrong malouf. we were supposed to be reading things by Amin Malouf not David Malouf. but who cares. they were both great writers. both meticulous in choosing words and accurate with feelings. go on and read 'em. they're good people with no life, but writing.

random blabber

funny how people tend to be who they think they have to be to fit in. when most of the times, who you think you have to be is not at all what people expected you to be and who you yourself would actually be.

it takes a lot to realize who you really are. it takes time, for sure. and sometimes, it will all be too late when you finally realize who you are. it takes courage and belief, to acknowledge yourself. it needs support from your surroundings. it takes you to want to be who you already are.

we evolve. change is inevitable. time goes by. and because of the change that everyone goes through, we change along. and that's not something to be scared of, or shun over, or despised. it's just another fact of life. it happens - all the time, every single second, in every teeny tine decision you make; you are not only changing yourself, but you are, in fact, changing the world with you.