upon my arrival in Adelaide, Australia at approximately 5.30am in Saturday 12th July 2008, i was calm and relaxed like nothing happened. i didnt get any sleep in the flight and i didnt eat much. i was almost too nonchalant about everything.
when i get out of the arrival hall, i saw a lot of families, friends and whoever waiting for somebody for them to pick up. and then it hit me - nobody's going to pick me up. being a so-called "seasoned" traveller, i didnt panicked. well, not really, maybe a tad. i went thinking "geez, nothing to worry about. it's only Adelaide, the equivalent to Perlis maybe. or Perak. i'll get around safe. so i texted Mak, and ask her if she could pick me up. but she didnt reply so i thought maybe she's asleep coz it's still Subuh. then i decided if i call her, maybe she'd wake up.
so i went to find a phone booth. and heck, i aint got no coins. so i went back to the money exchange counter (with all my horridly huge and uglaaayyy suitcases) and asked for small change. the lady gave me some in return for my $10 that i have. so i tried to call. i was so darned stupid. i was confused, the number was confusing and i confused the phone that it went hay-wired. in the end, i just managed to vandalize a foreign country's public amenity and i still have nobody to fetch me. it's unbelievable how my klutziness followed me all the way from malaysia to australia.
by then, i already got frantic. my hair was all over the place, i didnt care about my belongings anymore, the only thing i held on to was my passport and my sometimes-useless creativity. my brain didnt stop working. my eyes scanned around, looking for handsome looking males that i could ask for help. then something caught my eyes - tudung. i saw somebody wearing tudung. i automatically assumed that person must be from Malaysia or Indonesia (coz of the type of tudung). yey, a friend! saudara seIslam! i dashed towards her, who is busy texting someone on her phone. i greeted her warmly and straight away told her about my predicament. she spoke Malay. her name is Saidatul.
to summarize, her friend (Anne) came to pick her up, i borrowed her friend's phone and finally got to talk to Mak, and she will come to pick me up with a senior. turns out that the senior was Saidatul and Anne's friend. it is a really small world after all, and i was saved.
when i stepped out of the Adelaide Airport, it was shit cold. colder than Cold Storage (that's where i practiced cold-endurance). i didnt wear any coats, just the tshirt and blazer i wore from KLIA. but heck, i was Superman and my teeth didnt really grittle. so i loaded my stuff in the boot, and we drove off to Abrar.
*to be continued
Monday, July 14, 2008
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
bring it on
geez bananas. holy shit. major crap. this is serious. adelaide is in two days - which summarily means really really really around the corner. and, lo and behold, i havent done packing.
packing is a JOB. i should get paid for packing, cause it takes so much time and energy and perseverance. but if i were to choose, i'd rather pack than unpack, that's double the task.
i can't wait to embark on this journey. it might not be that far from home, but a new place promises a whole new experience - and 'the unknown' is something i truly anticipate. i'll be going off alone to adelaide, as some of my friends have gone or will be going later. i dont mind the 'going off alone' part. used to it.
some of my friends promised to send me off at the airport, my family will be there too of course. i dont know what to expect. will it be deeply saddening? tearful maybe? merry and joyful? i reckon it will be a mixture of feelings and sensations. different people may feel differently about parting and goodbyes. but one thing's for sure, saying adieu is never easy. the impact will hit you sooner or later - even temporarily.
my progress for the packing part is quite pathetic. what i've done so far is dump everything i saw in the closet that can be used in that huge green suitcase. i'll fold it all tomorrow. some stuff is still in the stink laundry basket, havent washed it. quite a right timing for the murphy law to take action unto this humble creature (me), our washing machine is shit. it almost fall to pieces yesterday while spinning. it actually, and out-of-this-wordly jumped forward and the top cover sort of shut on top of my index finger. now i cant write or eat with my right hand injured, and i cant do laundry.
when the clock strikes midnight tonight, i'll be a modern day cinderella, doing laundry manually. geez. i hate alkali from the washing soaps. i prefer detergent, though made of the same substance. and i'll be an OKU cinderella. i'll have to hold the brush in a weird way since i cant really get my (injured) fingers wet. oh maybe i'll just use gloves.
im writing this and sighing sighs after sighs of laziness and disappointment at the situation im in - all simultaneously. thankfully, i can still type. but everything i do, my index will be sticking out oddly with the yellow cartoon plaster.
my granny is here in KL to send me off. she is really confused about where im really going. she kept telling me to take care of myself when im in GERMANY. im like, err, no. im actually going to Australia. and she'll go "ohh, Ostrolia. Ostrolia tu kat dalam German ke?". the ugly thing is, she told everyone about me going to GERMANY. so some of my extended families and her neighbours in johor who get the news from her thinks im going to germany and they (quite "efficiently") automatically presumed i'll be doing a degree in engineering there. geez people, stop believing the first thing you hear. i'll have to spend my last moments in Malaysia clearing my name and telling people the real story. nobody gets granny's obsession with germany.
well i guess that's that for now. the next post will be after my arrival in Adelaide, Australia, i think..cause im running out of time to blog after this, i havent done packing, remember?
so till the next one, dear readers!
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
on cloud 9
Being on a plane again after a few years was quite an experience. it resembles the sensation i had when i first got the wheels of a manual car after almost one and a half year not driving a stick. i feel jittery initially, then i start to feel religious (i.e. praying so i'll be home safe) and my adrenaline thrusts through every calm vessel i have. give five seconds grace, then i feel relaxed and almost out-of-this-world (i.e. hey, i can survive this!). the rest will be history.
i almost forgot what it felt like to be amongst the white cottony clouds. ahh subliminal. it was just like heaven - the closest you can get to it, at least. the higher it gets, the smaller and thinner the clouds become. they will almost lose their shapes and forms - all merging into one huge white cloth surrounding you. at its peak, the horizon formed an endless line - a borderless border.
i saw cruise ships breaking the stillness of the glass-like sea, all looking like miniature doll parts that gradully grew smaller till they finally lost from sight. as much as everything is in the system, anything can happen up here, and there's no way out. there are exits, but they lead to death. lol. getting to the destination safely everytime is already a miracle in itself.
i'll be going on another jet plane series in a few days time. bet i will be feeling a little different and maybe a tad smuggish. lol. i'll update you on how i whiz through it, alright?
*written after touchdown
i almost forgot what it felt like to be amongst the white cottony clouds. ahh subliminal. it was just like heaven - the closest you can get to it, at least. the higher it gets, the smaller and thinner the clouds become. they will almost lose their shapes and forms - all merging into one huge white cloth surrounding you. at its peak, the horizon formed an endless line - a borderless border.
i saw cruise ships breaking the stillness of the glass-like sea, all looking like miniature doll parts that gradully grew smaller till they finally lost from sight. as much as everything is in the system, anything can happen up here, and there's no way out. there are exits, but they lead to death. lol. getting to the destination safely everytime is already a miracle in itself.
i'll be going on another jet plane series in a few days time. bet i will be feeling a little different and maybe a tad smuggish. lol. i'll update you on how i whiz through it, alright?
*written after touchdown
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Her two cents
"Beneath the stain of time, what have I become?"
-Khairiah Tadin-
I can't help but notice, this string of words stampered on the profile page of her Friendster. geez bananas, what have i become? hmm, pretty much nothing. i mean, sure i've been myself all this while, but something to be proud of? not really. we are supposed to be relatively wiser with time - the older you get, the wiser you become. experience teach you everything you know.
and taking that into account (experience), i personally think im quite wise. haha. really, how can we even measure experience? we cant, and for that matter, i think im accountable to say im wise, enough to rough it all out, that is.
so to answer the question by Khai's shoutout, i think that beneath the stain of time, i have become.. wiser.
you can reach Khai here and ask her for something to ponder upon :)
Monday, June 30, 2008
red basket
there's a red basket next to me. full of laundry. here in this house, just me and the red basket. geez what a life. mom's out for aerobics, dad's in pahang and sisters' at school. i bet they're all having fun wherever they are.
i just finished half a dozen of j.co doughnuts, all by myself. they were good and unbelievably doughy and soft that it gets me to think there's something fishy beyond the addictive donuts.
anyways, things are going fine with me this few weeks. learned a lot, met a lot, ate a lot, and enjoyed a lot. im just overflowing with happiness and joy right now - for no apparent reason. who needs reason to be happy right? you can too if you try.
thank God i have you to talk to, or else, i'd die out of boredom at a very young age. and that would be ironic, since young people should have loads of things to do i.e. get laid. yes, it doesn't matter if you have nothing beneficial to do, just as long as you have something to do.
blogging helped me survived. without this simplistic hobby, i would be dead. physically i would be up and about and alive, but inside, im just dead. hahaha.
okay that was a joke. not a good one, i know. im just too lazy to do anything, even crack a joke (which is my second nature supposedly). but that doesn't mean that i've lost my sense of humour. i get a good dose of humour from mraz's blog. he's just born to be an entertainer. god bless him.
ok chow people.
i just finished half a dozen of j.co doughnuts, all by myself. they were good and unbelievably doughy and soft that it gets me to think there's something fishy beyond the addictive donuts.
anyways, things are going fine with me this few weeks. learned a lot, met a lot, ate a lot, and enjoyed a lot. im just overflowing with happiness and joy right now - for no apparent reason. who needs reason to be happy right? you can too if you try.
thank God i have you to talk to, or else, i'd die out of boredom at a very young age. and that would be ironic, since young people should have loads of things to do i.e. get laid. yes, it doesn't matter if you have nothing beneficial to do, just as long as you have something to do.
blogging helped me survived. without this simplistic hobby, i would be dead. physically i would be up and about and alive, but inside, im just dead. hahaha.
okay that was a joke. not a good one, i know. im just too lazy to do anything, even crack a joke (which is my second nature supposedly). but that doesn't mean that i've lost my sense of humour. i get a good dose of humour from mraz's blog. he's just born to be an entertainer. god bless him.
ok chow people.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
a birthday wish
on this beautiful, sunshiny day, i would like to forward a birthday wish especially for a friend who is as beautiful as the weather today (corny alert).
and she is...(oh, it's a she!), none other than Nurliyana Hanim!
she's turning 21 today, and it could be a big step for her, especially because she's still single despite the huge amount of love she spent on everyone. *giggles* (she's a Cancer, that's why i guess)
so to her the birthday girl, i wish you all the best in life, and that you will finally find the Guy you have been searching for for years! hey, it's not too late you know!
and to the birthday girl's mother, Mrs. Marina, i'd like to say, congratulations and thank you for bringing this wonderful individual to the world!
anyways, i have nothing more to say, but:
and li, i didn't forget okay? i just feel like wishing a birthday wish is cliched, thats all :p (but i did, huh?) hahaha
*clap clap clap*
p/s: those of you who want to wish her in conjunction with today, please feel free. this is her blog: liyana's blog , and this is her friendster page: liyana's friendster
and she is...(oh, it's a she!), none other than Nurliyana Hanim!
she's turning 21 today, and it could be a big step for her, especially because she's still single despite the huge amount of love she spent on everyone. *giggles* (she's a Cancer, that's why i guess)
so to her the birthday girl, i wish you all the best in life, and that you will finally find the Guy you have been searching for for years! hey, it's not too late you know!
and to the birthday girl's mother, Mrs. Marina, i'd like to say, congratulations and thank you for bringing this wonderful individual to the world!
anyways, i have nothing more to say, but:
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!
and li, i didn't forget okay? i just feel like wishing a birthday wish is cliched, thats all :p (but i did, huh?) hahaha
*clap clap clap*
p/s: those of you who want to wish her in conjunction with today, please feel free. this is her blog: liyana's blog , and this is her friendster page: liyana's friendster
Send her a message or birthday wish and make her day!
wedding bells
gedonggg! gedongg! <--sound effect of the bells not the gong-->
woohoo! everybody seems to be getting married these days. these few weekends have been filled with attending weddings and gaining weight (dont ask the amount of rendang and mutton consumption), but hey, who's complaining? im very much into weddings (not marriage though, not yet!) since i first heard of the word and grasped the concept of it.
geez. aren't brides the prettiest people? rosy cheeks (ignore the overly-done make-ups), kissable shimmy shimmy lip-glossy lips, and the aroma of flowery fragrant. oh and the grooms, fooh! they send goosebumps to me, even in their simply crisp and white baju melayu added to their charismatic confidence to go through, what would be men's greatest fear - commitment. what's more, they have the X-factor that we unmarried people dont have. yeah, that "knowing" smile they wear on their inner-shined faces, like they have a secret that others dont share. the secret, the recipe of their love that brought them to vow being with each other for the rest of time a.k.a. Sehidup Semati (not literally of course).
i always indulge myself in deep thought in between bites of Acar Buah or during the Menepung Tawar ceremony, thinking about the brides. about how they trust the man they're marrying with their life. marriage is a gianormous step, based on trust as the core fundamental. trust, huh? can i do that? well, time will tell. sure when the wrong person who seemed right to me comes along, i'll learn to do so. meantime, let's not trust anything but the purest and truest feeling we have been granted, and that is, my friends..love.
with love, comes sympathy, empathy, care, tolerance and trust. thus, learn to love and everything will fall in line. yes, yes, love everything and anything! love yourself, your family, your neighbours..even the smallest and grossiest things - like the pimple on your forehead (they're there for a reason!), the stray cats (i try to, though am not a big fan of cats), your friends' friends, your things. you can also love the things that you dont possess. like those kids in poverty-stricken third world nations, they dont have proper education in the system, but they love it, they love to learn. and people who love to help the poor, even if they dont have enough money for themselves.
*breaking into casual laugh*
when you have so much going on, so much problems to deal with, you tend to forget that you have God's greatest give, His love. i can talk so much about this, but why would i? everyone has felt this, everyone knows what it is. so let it be one unspoken and common thing that everyone in this world, regardless of who they are and where they are, will have sowed deep within their hearts. that's one equal thing we will all have.
in the meantime, i will keep attending wedding ceremonies, i will try my best to keep my open mind open (haha) and open my heart to just feel the love. yeah baby! love is the most beautiful truth, so believe in it! and yeah, i have five wedding invitations this weekend alone, of friends and relatives, and i promised to attend all of them. yippee! wait a sec, how the heck am i going to do that? seems like i need a plan...okayh, time to freak out!!!!!
toodles!
*dancing away in ballet-like manner with a smile plastered on face)
woohoo! everybody seems to be getting married these days. these few weekends have been filled with attending weddings and gaining weight (dont ask the amount of rendang and mutton consumption), but hey, who's complaining? im very much into weddings (not marriage though, not yet!) since i first heard of the word and grasped the concept of it.
geez. aren't brides the prettiest people? rosy cheeks (ignore the overly-done make-ups), kissable shimmy shimmy lip-glossy lips, and the aroma of flowery fragrant. oh and the grooms, fooh! they send goosebumps to me, even in their simply crisp and white baju melayu added to their charismatic confidence to go through, what would be men's greatest fear - commitment. what's more, they have the X-factor that we unmarried people dont have. yeah, that "knowing" smile they wear on their inner-shined faces, like they have a secret that others dont share. the secret, the recipe of their love that brought them to vow being with each other for the rest of time a.k.a. Sehidup Semati (not literally of course).
i always indulge myself in deep thought in between bites of Acar Buah or during the Menepung Tawar ceremony, thinking about the brides. about how they trust the man they're marrying with their life. marriage is a gianormous step, based on trust as the core fundamental. trust, huh? can i do that? well, time will tell. sure when the wrong person who seemed right to me comes along, i'll learn to do so. meantime, let's not trust anything but the purest and truest feeling we have been granted, and that is, my friends..love.
with love, comes sympathy, empathy, care, tolerance and trust. thus, learn to love and everything will fall in line. yes, yes, love everything and anything! love yourself, your family, your neighbours..even the smallest and grossiest things - like the pimple on your forehead (they're there for a reason!), the stray cats (i try to, though am not a big fan of cats), your friends' friends, your things. you can also love the things that you dont possess. like those kids in poverty-stricken third world nations, they dont have proper education in the system, but they love it, they love to learn. and people who love to help the poor, even if they dont have enough money for themselves.
*breaking into casual laugh*
when you have so much going on, so much problems to deal with, you tend to forget that you have God's greatest give, His love. i can talk so much about this, but why would i? everyone has felt this, everyone knows what it is. so let it be one unspoken and common thing that everyone in this world, regardless of who they are and where they are, will have sowed deep within their hearts. that's one equal thing we will all have.
in the meantime, i will keep attending wedding ceremonies, i will try my best to keep my open mind open (haha) and open my heart to just feel the love. yeah baby! love is the most beautiful truth, so believe in it! and yeah, i have five wedding invitations this weekend alone, of friends and relatives, and i promised to attend all of them. yippee! wait a sec, how the heck am i going to do that? seems like i need a plan...okayh, time to freak out!!!!!
toodles!
*dancing away in ballet-like manner with a smile plastered on face)
Friday, June 20, 2008
i wish i was a tree..not
this is a song that always remind me to be grateful for who i am and what i've got. a simple reminder when i sing it.
this song is titled Tree Hugger sung by antsy pants. love them pants. lol.
viva la vida!!
this song is titled Tree Hugger sung by antsy pants. love them pants. lol.
viva la vida!!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
no ONE but No. 1
it is fashionable for so-called thinking people to try to lose their ego. well, they should think a bit harder. presumably, we were given egos for a reason. great people have great egos; maybe that's what makes them great.
so let us put it to good use rather than try to deny it.
Life's all about 'me' anyway.
lolwe.
(laughing out loud with ego)
so let us put it to good use rather than try to deny it.
Life's all about 'me' anyway.
lolwe.
(laughing out loud with ego)
Liyana tagged me.
1) What is the most important thing in your life?
self expectations
2) What is the last thing that you bought with your own money?
sour tape candy (red and green)
3) Where do you wish to get married?
masjid or in the coziness of my home.
4) How old do you think you will be permanently owned by your love?
geez. i dont know, fortune-tellers told me my palms showed that im kind of a hopper. i have too many choices and im very curious to try all of them out. so i might not be permanent to anyone. but they might also be bullshitting me. but hopefully i can be permanent to someone. because i know I AM A LOYAL LOVER!
5) Are you in love?
always.
6) Where was the last restaurant you had dinner?
road house grill.
7) Name the latest book that you bought?
a passport. does that count? lol. truthfully, a black notebook.
8) What is your full name?
and the relevance of this question?
9) Do you prefer your mother or father?
this is a nasty question. well, my dad. and, my mom.
10) Name a person that you really wish to meet in real life for the first time.
Robert 'Bob' Nesta Marley. i believe he's a very intelligent and talented man. pure genius.
11) Christina or Britney?
which christina are you talking about? christina millian? christina yee wong? christina gopal? well, i'll have to go with Brits. she's a good girl, really. poor thing.
12) Do you do your own laundry?
yes. and the family's.
13) The most exciting place you want to go?
jamaica and northern britain (ireland, scotland)
14) Hugs or kisses?
hugs. and only certain kinds of kisses.
15) Point out 5 things about the person who tagged you.
Liyana
- talker
- reader
- care-taker
- cooker/chef
- laze-around-er
- pious. grahahahha. kiddin! (but she can be, who knows!)
16)8 things I am passionate about:
- things that affect my life
- the well-being of my people, the malays (ceh, MY people konon)
- keamanan dan kesejahteraan tanah airku
- history, cultures and traditions
- unique individuals and things
- learning new matters
- people
- love and peace
17)8 things I say too often:
- like
- thewperr! (super)
- amayzin' (amazing)
- oh, crapp!!
- geez
- kelam kelibut gila
- macam
- takdela, sebab lagipun...
8)8 books I've read recently:
wait, eight? mostly aren't books
- the economist (okayh..)
- newsweek (sounds a little better)
- why the earth is for us (an eye-opener)
- the LIFE compilation
- mid-life crisis and you (not on purpose)
- Gone. James' gone! (fatally funny)
- 13 Mei 1969
- whatever you think, think the opposite (very good)
19)8 songs I could listen to over and over again
- keep breathing (ingrid michaelson)
- canon in d (london symphonic orchestra)
- jangan tinggal daku (P.Ramlee)
- somewhere over the rainbow & wonderful world (remix by aselin debison)
- i will always love you (whitney houston)
- rainbow connection (jason mraz)
- grease soundtrack
- most AFI songs
20)8 things I learned last year:
- being at the top is dangerous
- the expectations you put on yourself is most of the times parallel to the potential that you really have
- never say never
- karma really works
- love is the closest thing to magic
- when an old man dies, it's like a huge library is burnt down
- a person can never understand, but they can try
- i would actually like to be a pirate
and, im tagging whoever reads this. im not a good tagger actually.
Friday, June 06, 2008
i saw a dead squirrel on the road twice
time sure flies. i never thought the moment of truth would come this quick. geez, the next thing i know, the results are out?! somebody told me it would be out like next week or the week after next. crap. now i can't sit still. im online, i have the uitm homepage on the other tab, but i cant bring myself to open it.
maybe if i dont open it yet, the results would be there and multiply itself like the money in your bank account. grahaha. okay, i'm going to check it out next month. or maybe i should just open it now. but i CAN'T! remember, the second PTE test where i fashionably left two essay questions? man. how great. ugh. why la thalasemia has to hit me that time. nice timing.
okay, okay. mind made. open next week - as (supposedly) scheculed. meantime, get my fingers crossed.
maybe if i dont open it yet, the results would be there and multiply itself like the money in your bank account. grahaha. okay, i'm going to check it out next month. or maybe i should just open it now. but i CAN'T! remember, the second PTE test where i fashionably left two essay questions? man. how great. ugh. why la thalasemia has to hit me that time. nice timing.
okay, okay. mind made. open next week - as (supposedly) scheculed. meantime, get my fingers crossed.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
the jawa people
there's a portion of jawa in me. my grandfather was one, but my grandmother wasnt, she was a penangite. anyway, i just came back from a wedding of one of my relatives - the brother of my grandpa's son. so that makes me..what ah? i dont know, like cousins lah basically.
it was very simple. no bersanding, no menepung tawar, no kompang, no tanjak, no keris, no silat. the groom is a very shy person. but the food, it was fantastico! they served like 7 dishes (more than the usual) and two types of rice. very generous people they are, the jawa.
what caught my attention was, the hospitality and the cooperation between the family members. gee wheez, they were very2 helpful. the siblings all handled the wedding. they serve, they wash dishes, they welcomed guests, and they smiled all the way. the groom's brothers before this when they got married, the weddings were all handled by their own family too. it was all the same; the same hospitality, the same merry and cheerful people, nothing changed - except that this wedding is without their mother. she passed away more than a year ago. but the rest is pretty much the same.
i even felt bad for not helping. i felt like a VIP just sitting there. even the neighbours (who came as guests) helped refill jugs and clean tables. so i helped. and that changed everything - as in, my feeling lah. i felt more like a part of the family instead of just as a guest now. laughters where thrown out in the air, voices of java-speaking aunts and Waks (or uncles). i loved it. i love the whole thing.
i wish i could stay longer to talk to the other neneks and atoks. i wish i could stay longer to teach the kids how to play hopscotch. but as they say, time flies. the last time i saw Ninot was like 2years ago. she's now grown really pretty and fairer (the magic of sunblock, she said). she's 22years old. the next wedding the family is ever going to throw would be for her, since she's the last unmarried person (apart from Abang Sham, the one born before Ninot, but he refused to get married).
i remembered Abang Sham forcing Ninot and me to shower together at the toilet outside. their bathroom is outside so we were very scared to take a bath at night when we were little girls. so we would shower, screaming and laughing, all while Abang Sham waited for us outside. He's now already 30-something.
Wak, my grandpa's brother, he got parkinson and alzheimer. so it wasn't easy trying to talk to him. i had to remind him who i was every (approx) 18 seconds. it was hard. but imagine his children, how they could take care of him. sad. but he's still with his style. fedora hat, and cigars which he rolled himself. coolness. Wak, Wak. i would miss him. he's 80-something and looking really old and he smokes. i hope i could meet him again in future. i forgot to take pictures of him.
man, am i proud to have them as my family. ORANG JAWA ROCK!!!
it was very simple. no bersanding, no menepung tawar, no kompang, no tanjak, no keris, no silat. the groom is a very shy person. but the food, it was fantastico! they served like 7 dishes (more than the usual) and two types of rice. very generous people they are, the jawa.
what caught my attention was, the hospitality and the cooperation between the family members. gee wheez, they were very2 helpful. the siblings all handled the wedding. they serve, they wash dishes, they welcomed guests, and they smiled all the way. the groom's brothers before this when they got married, the weddings were all handled by their own family too. it was all the same; the same hospitality, the same merry and cheerful people, nothing changed - except that this wedding is without their mother. she passed away more than a year ago. but the rest is pretty much the same.
i even felt bad for not helping. i felt like a VIP just sitting there. even the neighbours (who came as guests) helped refill jugs and clean tables. so i helped. and that changed everything - as in, my feeling lah. i felt more like a part of the family instead of just as a guest now. laughters where thrown out in the air, voices of java-speaking aunts and Waks (or uncles). i loved it. i love the whole thing.
i wish i could stay longer to talk to the other neneks and atoks. i wish i could stay longer to teach the kids how to play hopscotch. but as they say, time flies. the last time i saw Ninot was like 2years ago. she's now grown really pretty and fairer (the magic of sunblock, she said). she's 22years old. the next wedding the family is ever going to throw would be for her, since she's the last unmarried person (apart from Abang Sham, the one born before Ninot, but he refused to get married).
i remembered Abang Sham forcing Ninot and me to shower together at the toilet outside. their bathroom is outside so we were very scared to take a bath at night when we were little girls. so we would shower, screaming and laughing, all while Abang Sham waited for us outside. He's now already 30-something.
Wak, my grandpa's brother, he got parkinson and alzheimer. so it wasn't easy trying to talk to him. i had to remind him who i was every (approx) 18 seconds. it was hard. but imagine his children, how they could take care of him. sad. but he's still with his style. fedora hat, and cigars which he rolled himself. coolness. Wak, Wak. i would miss him. he's 80-something and looking really old and he smokes. i hope i could meet him again in future. i forgot to take pictures of him.
man, am i proud to have them as my family. ORANG JAWA ROCK!!!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
carpe diem
when i look at people around me, i can say that they all have loved someone, lost someone, and feared something.
each and every person that stepped into the train (cause i was in a train. lol), they all have what we call luggage. some small, some huge. some light and some heavy. depends.
my eyes were drawn unto a pair of wrinkled hands. the owner, was asleep - a long day at work perhaps. she had with her an umbrella, a big green basket with things in it, and a stack of old newspapers. she sat across me and she wore an old pair of 'rubber' shoes.
i studied her face. she looked really, really tired. not because of work for the day or because she didnt get enough sleep from last night, but because of her luggage - her yesteryears. she looked like she just had enough, like all she wanted to do is nothing.
some part of me wondered, when that particular moment - the moment when i just get tired - happened to me in future, how am i going to embrace it?
i kept on looking at her, i know if people saw me they would think im a stalker, but there's just a magnetic force that made me keep looking. maybe that's how i would look like when im old, i thought. and another young person would do the same to me like what im doing now. maybe.
all that, with the track 100years by five for fighting playing in my earpiece, i just feel lucky that im realizing this now than later when its already too late. for now, i should just seize the day. the magic of carpe diem. lol.
each and every person that stepped into the train (cause i was in a train. lol), they all have what we call luggage. some small, some huge. some light and some heavy. depends.
my eyes were drawn unto a pair of wrinkled hands. the owner, was asleep - a long day at work perhaps. she had with her an umbrella, a big green basket with things in it, and a stack of old newspapers. she sat across me and she wore an old pair of 'rubber' shoes.
i studied her face. she looked really, really tired. not because of work for the day or because she didnt get enough sleep from last night, but because of her luggage - her yesteryears. she looked like she just had enough, like all she wanted to do is nothing.
some part of me wondered, when that particular moment - the moment when i just get tired - happened to me in future, how am i going to embrace it?
i kept on looking at her, i know if people saw me they would think im a stalker, but there's just a magnetic force that made me keep looking. maybe that's how i would look like when im old, i thought. and another young person would do the same to me like what im doing now. maybe.
all that, with the track 100years by five for fighting playing in my earpiece, i just feel lucky that im realizing this now than later when its already too late. for now, i should just seize the day. the magic of carpe diem. lol.
what if cats grow horns?
ok amaran. ini blog post yang membazir masa. oleh kerana komen yang diberi oleh salah seorang peminat blog ini, namanya azzam (hahaha tepukan untuk violet gray!), yang telah mengatakan bahawa postpost saya semenjak dua menjak ini terlalu serious, jadi saya cuba untuk mempertenangkan keadaan di blog ini dengan mengalih ke aliran alternatif (bukan aliran pembangkang. eh dah masuk politik lak) iaitu untuk menulis benda tak serious.
jadi. apakah yang harus ditulis di sini. oh. mungkin beberapa hari yg dah aku lalui ni. sangat best jugak. aku berkawan dengan seorang penjaja di tepi putra lrt setiawangsa. beliau sangat baik hati. ketika hari panas, air tin yg dijual oleh beliau menjadi santapan jasmani. jika anda berada di situ, silalah ke gerai kecil beliau. beliau yang berbangsa india juga merupakan seorang OKU. tapi semua tu tak jadi penghalang. dia cerita kisah hidup dia yang sedih. tapi dia selalu senyum. tak penah nampak sedih. aku pelik. dia sangat berhabuk bila bertutur dalam English dan topik perbualan kitorang berkomposisikan global warming, lapisan ozone, homosexuals, politik dan sebagainya. beliau intelek, jadi mengapa hanya menjual air? dia kata orang macam dia (OKU) sangat susah nak dapat kerja. ish3. stereotaip masyarakat.
tanpa disedari, aku dah serious balik. gahahaha. ah tak best lah. roger and out
jadi. apakah yang harus ditulis di sini. oh. mungkin beberapa hari yg dah aku lalui ni. sangat best jugak. aku berkawan dengan seorang penjaja di tepi putra lrt setiawangsa. beliau sangat baik hati. ketika hari panas, air tin yg dijual oleh beliau menjadi santapan jasmani. jika anda berada di situ, silalah ke gerai kecil beliau. beliau yang berbangsa india juga merupakan seorang OKU. tapi semua tu tak jadi penghalang. dia cerita kisah hidup dia yang sedih. tapi dia selalu senyum. tak penah nampak sedih. aku pelik. dia sangat berhabuk bila bertutur dalam English dan topik perbualan kitorang berkomposisikan global warming, lapisan ozone, homosexuals, politik dan sebagainya. beliau intelek, jadi mengapa hanya menjual air? dia kata orang macam dia (OKU) sangat susah nak dapat kerja. ish3. stereotaip masyarakat.
tanpa disedari, aku dah serious balik. gahahaha. ah tak best lah. roger and out
Friday, May 23, 2008
white flag
i feel like opening up the dictionary and find all the curse words i could and say it out loud for the neighbouring countries to hear (hint).
ugh. sucks. big time.
we lost. we lost. we friggin lost. and people who lose are called LOSERS.
MALAYSIA VS SINGAPORE
the reward of the battle: PULAU BATU PUTIH
the winner: SINGAPORE
i know, if things were to be in a different pair of hands, we could have won. we could have won the rich-with-resources Pulau Batu Putih. the natural resources is abundant and nobody should have given it up so easily. it was worth fighting for, but the fighting..it was worthless. i swore we could have won. heck, we should!
but, whatever, i guess. nobody seemed to really listen to me especially these days. the politicians are busy cleaning up their mess and coming up with revenge strategies and hate letters. the readers, they cant really do anything but read. me? i can only write and express things here. if only i can take matters into my hands..well, i would suck. lol. but ah, its not my job. in my position as a citizen, what i could do is to point out things that fell in the blindspot zone and let them know..and be a good rakyat. that's all :)
ugh. sucks. big time.
we lost. we lost. we friggin lost. and people who lose are called LOSERS.
MALAYSIA VS SINGAPORE
the reward of the battle: PULAU BATU PUTIH
the winner: SINGAPORE
i know, if things were to be in a different pair of hands, we could have won. we could have won the rich-with-resources Pulau Batu Putih. the natural resources is abundant and nobody should have given it up so easily. it was worth fighting for, but the fighting..it was worthless. i swore we could have won. heck, we should!
but, whatever, i guess. nobody seemed to really listen to me especially these days. the politicians are busy cleaning up their mess and coming up with revenge strategies and hate letters. the readers, they cant really do anything but read. me? i can only write and express things here. if only i can take matters into my hands..well, i would suck. lol. but ah, its not my job. in my position as a citizen, what i could do is to point out things that fell in the blindspot zone and let them know..and be a good rakyat. that's all :)
Thursday, May 22, 2008
politikus mondok
yeahaha..the game is on! im liking this. kalau takde orang start cari pasal, mesti semua mangkuk hayun tu tak sedar. they are so full of themselves up there. sekarang baru dia tahu tinggi rendah langit ni. orang pilih pemimpin untuk memimpin (duh!) negara ni dan jaga kebajikan rakyat termasuk aku, kau dan dia. tak kisah la orang tu siapa, tapi semua orang bayar cukai! kitorang bukan pilih kau jadi pemimpin untuk buat renovation pecah dapur bagi besar ataupun untuk korang tukar kereta gempak2 beemer la merce la. so sekarang ni, kalau ko tanya aku apa komen aku, aku akan simply cakap "padan muka".
so, rakyat jelata macam aku ni, dah tersepit. kalau ikut islam, rakyat wajib ikut perintah dan menghormati ruler (bukan ruler pembaris la, pemimpin daa..). tapi kalau pemimpin dah macam %*&%@#, macam mana kitorang nak hormat, betul tak? kalau nak suruh kitorang be in your shoes, kitorang tau la, memang keja banyak sampai 20tahun akan datang pun tak siap. tapi cuba korang be in OUR shoes pulak. tak kan la kitorang nak support pemimpin yang tak memimpin mana, dahla kebajikan kitorang tak jaga. aku ni dah boleh di'label' bankrupt dah ni. orang kata biar papa, asal bergaya. tapi aku ni, dahla papa kedana, bergaya pun tak bergaya! tolonglah orang macam aku ni! turun kan la harga minyak, harga beras, harga gula, harga hargi hargu semua!! aku tidak dapat menampung penyeksaan ini lagi!!
ok, teremosi sekejap. *batukbatuk*. yang penting sekarang ni, apa yang korang as pemimpin boleh buat, is untuk muhasabah diri korang, apa motif korang jadi politician and pemimpin. kalau nawaitu korang betul, insyaallah rakyat semua akan terbuka hati untuk memberi sokongan yang tak putusputus untuk korang. tapi kalau nawaitu awalawal lagi dah terpesong (i.e. nak songlap duit rakyat untuk buat umah besar kat klang, nak guna kuasa untuk masukkan anak kat sekolah bagus etc), memang sah la kejahatan dan ke'evil'an terpancar di wajahwajah korang lantas tersebar cahaya hitam di poster yang ditampal merata tempat. nah, rentetan itu, rakyat pun macam caya tak caya je nak undi.
so secara asasnya (basically), apa yang aku nak cakap sekarang ni sebagai seorang rakyat yang super perihaten kat negara ni, aku just nak keadaan aman seperti dulu. bukan nak kata aku tak kesah pasal ekonomi whatevershit tuh, tapi you guys do la whatever you can to bring back the harmonious life we were all living before all this crap happened.
bottomline is, just do your job. do your job as honest and as sincere and as best as you can. we will all support you, but promise us harmony and productivity in return. do your thang baybee!
lastly, know that i have no hard feelings whatsoever, merajuk ke apa ke memang tak de la, cumo den ghaso kosian nengok nogaro den kacau bilau dek politik hancur punoh, itu jo jang oi!
so, kalau kita semua (terutama anda yang bergelar MELAYU) bersatu mesti kita boleh maju ke hadapan!!! jangan sampai kita dijajah di negara sendiri ye (maksud mendalam tu, sila ambil perhatian)!
akhir kata, bak kata pepatah, bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita kahwin lagi. eh ehh eh, ehehe. silap pulak. bersatu teguh, bercerai roboh. ha hok tu yang benar! me, signing out!
so, rakyat jelata macam aku ni, dah tersepit. kalau ikut islam, rakyat wajib ikut perintah dan menghormati ruler (bukan ruler pembaris la, pemimpin daa..). tapi kalau pemimpin dah macam %*&%@#, macam mana kitorang nak hormat, betul tak? kalau nak suruh kitorang be in your shoes, kitorang tau la, memang keja banyak sampai 20tahun akan datang pun tak siap. tapi cuba korang be in OUR shoes pulak. tak kan la kitorang nak support pemimpin yang tak memimpin mana, dahla kebajikan kitorang tak jaga. aku ni dah boleh di'label' bankrupt dah ni. orang kata biar papa, asal bergaya. tapi aku ni, dahla papa kedana, bergaya pun tak bergaya! tolonglah orang macam aku ni! turun kan la harga minyak, harga beras, harga gula, harga hargi hargu semua!! aku tidak dapat menampung penyeksaan ini lagi!!
ok, teremosi sekejap. *batukbatuk*. yang penting sekarang ni, apa yang korang as pemimpin boleh buat, is untuk muhasabah diri korang, apa motif korang jadi politician and pemimpin. kalau nawaitu korang betul, insyaallah rakyat semua akan terbuka hati untuk memberi sokongan yang tak putusputus untuk korang. tapi kalau nawaitu awalawal lagi dah terpesong (i.e. nak songlap duit rakyat untuk buat umah besar kat klang, nak guna kuasa untuk masukkan anak kat sekolah bagus etc), memang sah la kejahatan dan ke'evil'an terpancar di wajahwajah korang lantas tersebar cahaya hitam di poster yang ditampal merata tempat. nah, rentetan itu, rakyat pun macam caya tak caya je nak undi.
so secara asasnya (basically), apa yang aku nak cakap sekarang ni sebagai seorang rakyat yang super perihaten kat negara ni, aku just nak keadaan aman seperti dulu. bukan nak kata aku tak kesah pasal ekonomi whatevershit tuh, tapi you guys do la whatever you can to bring back the harmonious life we were all living before all this crap happened.
bottomline is, just do your job. do your job as honest and as sincere and as best as you can. we will all support you, but promise us harmony and productivity in return. do your thang baybee!
lastly, know that i have no hard feelings whatsoever, merajuk ke apa ke memang tak de la, cumo den ghaso kosian nengok nogaro den kacau bilau dek politik hancur punoh, itu jo jang oi!
so, kalau kita semua (terutama anda yang bergelar MELAYU) bersatu mesti kita boleh maju ke hadapan!!! jangan sampai kita dijajah di negara sendiri ye (maksud mendalam tu, sila ambil perhatian)!
akhir kata, bak kata pepatah, bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita kahwin lagi. eh ehh eh, ehehe. silap pulak. bersatu teguh, bercerai roboh. ha hok tu yang benar! me, signing out!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
what the hey?!
a die-hard-fan texted the other day, asking me to post a personal analysis on the political status with regards to the recent happenings around here. thank you so much to you (you know who you are) as you can see, a lot of things has passed, by i didnt really feel i want my voice and my thoughts to be heard, thus the lack of posts on politics in my blogs recently. but i warn you, just dont get me started!
1. [TUN'S STEPPING OUT OF UMNO]
the first question that popped in everyone's mind would be "WHY?!". exactly. he wants to trigger that attention so that everybody would sense something peculiar is going on that led him to step out of umno very abruptly. but really, why? from a very trustworthy source, it is said that something fishy is taking place in the PKR, particularly, Anwar. im not blogging this for the sake of doing justice to any political parties, but for the sake of justice itself. so let just say that im an objective third person, very neutral. all Tun wanted is for Pak Lah to step down. Thats why we see Tengku Razaleigh Hamzah decided not to follow suit, as he has his own different agenda - to be the UMNO president, and by convention, the Prime Minister. Tun has had enough of the family-oriented, best-friends-forever potrayal that our current PM exutes. taking into account what happened in the past, Tun is still taken aback by Pak Lah's decision to stop the bridge project with singapore. and now, after a series of abortion of potential projects, acts of disrespect for him who had served for more than 20years, i think that he's had enough. a man at his age now should really be vacationing or going on a honeymoon somewhere in costa rica, not spending his sleepless nights crying and thinking about the possibilitties of the future for his people. logically, we are not his people anymore, but we are as close to him as ever, especially the malays.
Tun is a very wise man. looking to his background, he's an engineering graduate, hence the meticulous and particular eyes for details. everything has to have a floor plan, back-up plan, black-and-white, evidence and things needed to be audited. he purposely and naturally looks out for details. when he hears a rumour, he checks, deliberate then he makes a decision. so, to say that his decision to step out of umno is plain stupidity and unprofessional, i think is wrong. as sudden as it may seem, i think he pretty much has sorted things out even before he made the call.
the news that he may have heard is that Pak Lah is planning to hand over his place to Anwar. as some of you might know, anwar is of good friends with a certain chinese and the president of israel who is a jew. what the hell is a muslim doing with a freaking jew? the jigsaw doesn't quite patch up, eh? i told you something really fishy is going on, and hell, we're not even in pasar borong selayang. gahahaha.
the chinese is said to have written an article in a foreign newspaper in the states that he is best friends with anwar and that anwar is the best possible prime minister of malaysia. the logic is that anwar is asking help from an outer party (yes, the israelis who want to see muslims down) especially in terms of financial resources. so there is a win-win situation between them both. and lets see, who else is good friends with anwar. oh yes, the infamous Khairy Jamaluddin, or KJ. he was the one who got Pak Lah to bail anwar out of prison. ok, by now you might have seen the big picture, but im just going to explain it a little briefly for those who dont.
we all (well, most of us) want Pak Lah to step down from that not-so-high pedestal. i think most of the umno people, they dont want to stop being umno members, but they just want Pak Lah to stop being the PM. so, what he would do, like he always does, is to make everyone happy, by going down himself (someday, dont know when. just my rough observations). anwar is a good friend of KJ, and KJ is the son-in-law of Pak Lah..see that? even if Pak Lah didn't get to be someone who has a say in the parliament, he has his 'trusted' son-in-law (who is now the naib pengerusi FAM..he's progressing). and this son-in-law has a dream of becoming the PM since he was a kid. who better to help him than his father-in-law and anwar.
why they can make a good team: KJ is a liberist. he doesnt believe in all the 'ketuanan Melayu' and hak istimewa orang melayu, but that's what umno is all about. thus, do you think he's a true umno member then? tepuk dada tanya selera. anwar on the other hand, is a companion of a chinese and a jew (phoooh! what a combo) and thus it's clear that he has no interest what-so-ever in the Malay issue and matters at stake. both of them dont care if Malays dont get special rights, both dont care if UITM will no longer be for MALAYS ONLY, both dont care whatever will happen to umno and the things they fight for, what else can prove?
they see the possibilities and the brightness of THEIR future if they team up and rule malaysia. KJ has friends all over the world, including Singapore. who knows, they (KJ and Anwar) might say yes to singapore if they want to join malaysia again. singapore being a very opportunist nation, sees a huge advantage if they join us. since the population of singapore now consists of 60% foreigners and malaysia has around 40% chinese (and they hold the economy of malaysia too), so then, you do the math.
by now you might think that everything is looking very dim and screwed up. and i say, yes. it is screwed up. but things can be done to overcome this, however on a few conditions - the malays stick together and unite themselves, pak lah admit his mistakes then step down and appoint muhyiddin (i like him gazillion times better than najib), tell the chinese, indians, and others that there is no equality here as the malays are the majority, reshape and firm up the government, and we're set to go.
whatever i said earlier in the post, they are all only personal analysis based on overall observations. i tried to be as fair and as sensible as possible, guarateed that there is no emotional reactions involved. these are all honest, no exaggerations, no science-fiction (haha), no cgi effects. all pure, honest information and thoughts that i'd like to share with you.
hit me back with any opinions or further information (if you have any).
cheers!
1. [TUN'S STEPPING OUT OF UMNO]
the first question that popped in everyone's mind would be "WHY?!". exactly. he wants to trigger that attention so that everybody would sense something peculiar is going on that led him to step out of umno very abruptly. but really, why? from a very trustworthy source, it is said that something fishy is taking place in the PKR, particularly, Anwar. im not blogging this for the sake of doing justice to any political parties, but for the sake of justice itself. so let just say that im an objective third person, very neutral. all Tun wanted is for Pak Lah to step down. Thats why we see Tengku Razaleigh Hamzah decided not to follow suit, as he has his own different agenda - to be the UMNO president, and by convention, the Prime Minister. Tun has had enough of the family-oriented, best-friends-forever potrayal that our current PM exutes. taking into account what happened in the past, Tun is still taken aback by Pak Lah's decision to stop the bridge project with singapore. and now, after a series of abortion of potential projects, acts of disrespect for him who had served for more than 20years, i think that he's had enough. a man at his age now should really be vacationing or going on a honeymoon somewhere in costa rica, not spending his sleepless nights crying and thinking about the possibilitties of the future for his people. logically, we are not his people anymore, but we are as close to him as ever, especially the malays.
Tun is a very wise man. looking to his background, he's an engineering graduate, hence the meticulous and particular eyes for details. everything has to have a floor plan, back-up plan, black-and-white, evidence and things needed to be audited. he purposely and naturally looks out for details. when he hears a rumour, he checks, deliberate then he makes a decision. so, to say that his decision to step out of umno is plain stupidity and unprofessional, i think is wrong. as sudden as it may seem, i think he pretty much has sorted things out even before he made the call.
the news that he may have heard is that Pak Lah is planning to hand over his place to Anwar. as some of you might know, anwar is of good friends with a certain chinese and the president of israel who is a jew. what the hell is a muslim doing with a freaking jew? the jigsaw doesn't quite patch up, eh? i told you something really fishy is going on, and hell, we're not even in pasar borong selayang. gahahaha.
the chinese is said to have written an article in a foreign newspaper in the states that he is best friends with anwar and that anwar is the best possible prime minister of malaysia. the logic is that anwar is asking help from an outer party (yes, the israelis who want to see muslims down) especially in terms of financial resources. so there is a win-win situation between them both. and lets see, who else is good friends with anwar. oh yes, the infamous Khairy Jamaluddin, or KJ. he was the one who got Pak Lah to bail anwar out of prison. ok, by now you might have seen the big picture, but im just going to explain it a little briefly for those who dont.
we all (well, most of us) want Pak Lah to step down from that not-so-high pedestal. i think most of the umno people, they dont want to stop being umno members, but they just want Pak Lah to stop being the PM. so, what he would do, like he always does, is to make everyone happy, by going down himself (someday, dont know when. just my rough observations). anwar is a good friend of KJ, and KJ is the son-in-law of Pak Lah..see that? even if Pak Lah didn't get to be someone who has a say in the parliament, he has his 'trusted' son-in-law (who is now the naib pengerusi FAM..he's progressing). and this son-in-law has a dream of becoming the PM since he was a kid. who better to help him than his father-in-law and anwar.
why they can make a good team: KJ is a liberist. he doesnt believe in all the 'ketuanan Melayu' and hak istimewa orang melayu, but that's what umno is all about. thus, do you think he's a true umno member then? tepuk dada tanya selera. anwar on the other hand, is a companion of a chinese and a jew (phoooh! what a combo) and thus it's clear that he has no interest what-so-ever in the Malay issue and matters at stake. both of them dont care if Malays dont get special rights, both dont care if UITM will no longer be for MALAYS ONLY, both dont care whatever will happen to umno and the things they fight for, what else can prove?
they see the possibilities and the brightness of THEIR future if they team up and rule malaysia. KJ has friends all over the world, including Singapore. who knows, they (KJ and Anwar) might say yes to singapore if they want to join malaysia again. singapore being a very opportunist nation, sees a huge advantage if they join us. since the population of singapore now consists of 60% foreigners and malaysia has around 40% chinese (and they hold the economy of malaysia too), so then, you do the math.
by now you might think that everything is looking very dim and screwed up. and i say, yes. it is screwed up. but things can be done to overcome this, however on a few conditions - the malays stick together and unite themselves, pak lah admit his mistakes then step down and appoint muhyiddin (i like him gazillion times better than najib), tell the chinese, indians, and others that there is no equality here as the malays are the majority, reshape and firm up the government, and we're set to go.
whatever i said earlier in the post, they are all only personal analysis based on overall observations. i tried to be as fair and as sensible as possible, guarateed that there is no emotional reactions involved. these are all honest, no exaggerations, no science-fiction (haha), no cgi effects. all pure, honest information and thoughts that i'd like to share with you.
hit me back with any opinions or further information (if you have any).
cheers!
hold the horse down!
geez, this coupla weeks have been really darned hectic for me (and my brain), like things are desperate to happen "now now now! make it happen now!!", you know? but yeah, am as cool as always (applause) and though i might seem like a blur-straight-out-of-a-washing-machine kid these days, important matters still get processed in my mind. matters regarding our beloved nation, the world, and things around me - i think about those things, every day.
to sum things up in one post (i might do an extension post for some of the below):
1. [MALAYSIA] Tun decided to dismember himself abruptly (not a surprise for me, i would do the same) from UMNO. why? this goes in an extension post later. Pak Lah was firm when he said he wont step down nor would he stop any member to step out of UMNO. Mukhriz won't step out too. Lingam's case is out of hand. transparency is a bullshit idea. a small fight over small land in Cheras got my attention. an earthquake in KL at a 6.5 ritcher scale. all these are going in extension.
2. [WORLD] Earthquake in China and Myanmar - related to the position of the moon, an astrologer said. i witnessed the disalignment of the sunset - almost 30 degrees east. obama at the fringe of nomination - reminds me of the political status in malaysia.
3. [ME] not myself lately, not Britney Spears too, so who am i? gahahaha. i found one or two odd jobs. day care centre, "pusat pemulihan minda", big bookfest @ KLCC, travel agency (KIV). found a whole different side of life. encountered an angel. experienced new kind of feeling. busy being a rascal.
so, that's the lowdown on everything, in the most minimal amount of words i could jumble up. hope you all are having a blast with your lives! <-- coz im still trying *wink*
to sum things up in one post (i might do an extension post for some of the below):
1. [MALAYSIA] Tun decided to dismember himself abruptly (not a surprise for me, i would do the same) from UMNO. why? this goes in an extension post later. Pak Lah was firm when he said he wont step down nor would he stop any member to step out of UMNO. Mukhriz won't step out too. Lingam's case is out of hand. transparency is a bullshit idea. a small fight over small land in Cheras got my attention. an earthquake in KL at a 6.5 ritcher scale. all these are going in extension.
2. [WORLD] Earthquake in China and Myanmar - related to the position of the moon, an astrologer said. i witnessed the disalignment of the sunset - almost 30 degrees east. obama at the fringe of nomination - reminds me of the political status in malaysia.
3. [ME] not myself lately, not Britney Spears too, so who am i? gahahaha. i found one or two odd jobs. day care centre, "pusat pemulihan minda", big bookfest @ KLCC, travel agency (KIV). found a whole different side of life. encountered an angel. experienced new kind of feeling. busy being a rascal.
so, that's the lowdown on everything, in the most minimal amount of words i could jumble up. hope you all are having a blast with your lives! <-- coz im still trying *wink*
Sunday, May 18, 2008
random rambles on random people
have you ever constantly think about someone really random that you barely know? we do think about famous people like anne frank and what she's been through or heath ledger about his tragic and sudden death.
but im not referring to those kind of people. im talking about people like the old lady you saw in the train on your way back, or the boy and his bicycle when you were walking to the shop.
im not sure about you, but i do.
i have this huge file in my mental RAM that holds all the random people i saw or met during the course of my life. weird and funny. and there are quite a number of them. maybe this is the effect of observing, i dont know. it could be anything. (hope it's not something psychotic or deathly. positively, it could be pictographic memory :p)
as for now, i'll keep on unconsciously picking up subjects to keep in memory.
*shakes head at self*
but im not referring to those kind of people. im talking about people like the old lady you saw in the train on your way back, or the boy and his bicycle when you were walking to the shop.
im not sure about you, but i do.
i have this huge file in my mental RAM that holds all the random people i saw or met during the course of my life. weird and funny. and there are quite a number of them. maybe this is the effect of observing, i dont know. it could be anything. (hope it's not something psychotic or deathly. positively, it could be pictographic memory :p)
as for now, i'll keep on unconsciously picking up subjects to keep in memory.
*shakes head at self*
Saturday, May 17, 2008
it's just life
when things dont go the way you planned it to, or when they actually went the way you have planned it but you later thought it was a wrong decision to plan it in the first place, let it be known that life is just doing it's job.
i know that and i hate it that i can do absolutely nothing about it but to just swallow it all in and scout for alternatives.
yes, alternatives is the wise people's way to get through with life. life may a bitch most of the times, but if you start bitching about how bitchy your life is, you will be starring as the ultimate bitch in this horrendous bitchy sitcom called - My Life.
crap. huge, major crap. now i feel like the bitch in my life. sure, i later realize (a few minutes ago actually) that life is not just a straight line of light that will lead you to the end of the journey of life. but instead, it is a multiple layer of lights, criss-crossing one over another (in the hopes of confusing you) and lets you pick the light you wish to follow that you think will lead you to the end. trial and error system applies here. and second chances are only for those who admits their mistakes, while risk-takers excels most of the times.
i dont really feel that good about the recent incident actually. i made a really huge mistake that i would probably remember my entire life. but lets make this a lesson for me. a lesson that i learnt through the hardest way possible (oh man, what have i done to deserve this?!) and i surely pray for history not to repeat itself. please dont.
gosh i feel like a tragic-mascara-smudging-under-eyes drama queen. some other people must have an even huger and majorer problem than mine. haih, i just wish..i just wish it didnt happen to me. but who am i to make the call?
i know that and i hate it that i can do absolutely nothing about it but to just swallow it all in and scout for alternatives.
yes, alternatives is the wise people's way to get through with life. life may a bitch most of the times, but if you start bitching about how bitchy your life is, you will be starring as the ultimate bitch in this horrendous bitchy sitcom called - My Life.
crap. huge, major crap. now i feel like the bitch in my life. sure, i later realize (a few minutes ago actually) that life is not just a straight line of light that will lead you to the end of the journey of life. but instead, it is a multiple layer of lights, criss-crossing one over another (in the hopes of confusing you) and lets you pick the light you wish to follow that you think will lead you to the end. trial and error system applies here. and second chances are only for those who admits their mistakes, while risk-takers excels most of the times.
i dont really feel that good about the recent incident actually. i made a really huge mistake that i would probably remember my entire life. but lets make this a lesson for me. a lesson that i learnt through the hardest way possible (oh man, what have i done to deserve this?!) and i surely pray for history not to repeat itself. please dont.
gosh i feel like a tragic-mascara-smudging-under-eyes drama queen. some other people must have an even huger and majorer problem than mine. haih, i just wish..i just wish it didnt happen to me. but who am i to make the call?
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