Point where you should ponder

All dead white boys say "God is good"

White tongues hang out "God is good"

-Sodom, South Georgia

Indeed, i believe so. He knows what is best for me and you, and thusfore, lay them down upon us. What happened, what is happening, and what will from now happen, i let Him decide.

And so, we are in the hands of God. (Shyheim)

Latuk Lee

hey hey, newsflash!

itu Latuk Lee Chong Wei sulah menang itu swiss open!! waaaa sangat gembira la ini macam!! hari itu saya sulah marah2 dia, kasi macam2 hal mencarut la, sekalang dia sulah redeem himself woo!! and also saved the nation's ass from what could be another humiliation!!

haha. hati saya ar sangat hepi!!

menang jugak nombor sangat ong!

set 1: 21-16
set2 : 21-16

points adalah sama untuk kedua-dua set!!

saya rasa latuk sulah faham tactic permainan lin dan. itu sangat mempuaskan! kerana ar, lin dan itu jenis olang yang main pantas. fast speed punya olang. typical chinaman la itu. jadi ar, ini latuk pulak jenis slow-mo la bak kata spielberg; jenis pemain yang main secara cool.

lantas ar, pada set pertama selepas point ke 10 lin dan macam itu, latuk cepat menangkap cara permainan latuk lin dan. eh eh bukan latuk lin dan la dia, silap la. hehe.

so ar, u boleh tengok la, selepas itu latuk bagi kaw-kaw sama dia guna tactic long rally la. dia bagi itu chinaman penat ar, hilang stamina; bagi smash banyak-banyak sama dia so tunggu dia hilang fokus dan make mistake.. sangat bijak la! mungkin misbun dan rashid sulah bagitahu sama dia la, sebab ar, masa itu all england saya nampak beliau ada tulis2 macam-macam atas kertas la masa match. haha. bagus2 ini macam.

moment paling digemari oleh saya, sulah tentulah pada point ke 15/16 set pertama dan point ke 14/15 set kedua. latuk ar sampai pusing 360 woo untuk backhand itu shuttle. gila ka apa ini latuk! sungguh kagum la! haiya, saya sangat hepi la. ini macam baru kali ke empat la dia bagi tewas itu lin dan dalam jangka 15match macam itu, accumulatively la. tapi harus pasti tingkatkan lagi la dia punya semangat fighter! jika tidak ar, sangat cepat la itu latuk putus asa, betul?

jadi ar, kasi tanam itu semangat waja dan patriotik bagi dia kerakyatan sedikit. wahahaha. ok la, hepi hepi ar lu latuk. saya juga mau tido la. latuk, lu nampak sangat leng loi la waktu lu minum air selepas match itu. wa sangat suka tengok!! hahaha. ok la, chowzz!



p/s: omg. aku dah jadi bimbo versi cina.

fantasi berakademi

went to watch AF (or akademi fantasia for those who are ignorant enough, or just couldn't care less, or havent been in malaysia for the past decade, or just deleted the memory of voting for it haha) last saturday at the futsal arena in bukit jalil. i was with my brother; we both despised the idea of having to go watch some amateur entertainers with awkward showmanship and stage skills AND having to go with our more-adult neighbour and her more-adult friends. yes, what more can be worse than having to watch funny people sing karaoke in a competition with elderly AF fanatics right? well, it was not so bad as it turned out. we actually had fun! and i kind of like one of the contestants (or two!). haha. gila menjilat ludah sendiri ;p i like Qhaud and Aril. got the potential baybeh!

definitely a season to watch out for!



p/s: ada orang kata tiara jacquelina sangat gedik sebagai seorang pengetua AF. apa kata anda? mari kita tunggu dan lihat!

goodbye

" i hope life treat you kind,

and i hope you have all you dreamed of.

and i wish you joy,

and happiness,

but above all these,

i wish you love.."

not something i do

sometimes you just dont know that it is happening. by the time you realize, it is already over. and you are left alone wondering what the hell just happened and why the hell were you so oblivious and was such a dumbass that such an eventful thing sept you in but you did not so much notice, let alone feel it.

yes, dear friends, there are people like that in this world. in fact, most of us probably has gone through this. you want it so much, but you deny it. but with the power of the universe, you get it, and then you didnt realize. so you couldnt appreciate it. and it goes away. and you blame yourself. and you missed a chance; could be the chance.

and you start to feel as if the world is crumbling down around you. and as painful as it is to swallow, you owe to yourself. the only person you could and would blame is you and no other.

and all that is left for you to do is to only hope.

to hope for a hope.

patience is virtue

you know that feeling when somebody took a portion of your heart, pull it out and keep it in a jar? yes, it will leave a hole in your heart. it hurts, it sucks, but it happens all the time. and they say time heals all wounds. but time is very, very abstract. some take longer time to heal, some in a blink of an eye.

but you heal, sooner or later. just need to be patient.

patience.

if only i had more of it.

being someone else may seem very tempting, but never ever give in to the temptations.

just be yourself, only better :)

corat-coret seorang perwira

went to watch Marley & Me the other night, amidst all the hectic-ness, BUT it was worth it. felt like i need a refresher course and last weekend has given me just that. i now feel relinquished, fresh and more creative than i was in previous weeks (last time i can come up with a thousand reasons why not to go to class, but now macam dah less kreatif utk berfikir. nway, skng dah improve sikit dah). HAHA. annndd, di samping itu juga, aku dah organize kan diri sket. dah ada calendar (ye, kali ini ADA and GUNA. selalu ada je), organizer, notebook..you name it, i got it. ceh. dah kata sexytary, kena la hidup tersusun. (ye, next time aku nak upah org lain pula jadi secratary aku. tak dan la kome nak buat semua). rasanya, Pak Lah pun tak busy macam ni. (yela, dia keja bercinta je. negara porak peranda pun peduli apa dia. haha. jgn marah pak lah. sindiran bermakna, sila ambil tindakan).

nway, marley and me was very sad. i think coz it's regarding unconditional love between the dog and its family/master. so, very touching. based on true story lagi. acad, moja, chip sampai beli buku dia buat koleksi sampai akhir hayat. cuti-cuti nanti nak pinjam boleh baca tambah ilmu. bagi yang belum tonton, hari selasa dan rabu murah. malah harga early bird memang tak masuk akal. silalah bergegas ke panggung bersama kad pelajar anda.

rentetan itu, minggu ni menjanjikan sebuah lagi minggu yang pasti mencabar kesabaran dan kecekalan ku dek kesibukan dan tuntutan kerja (cewah gitu!). lantas, masa itu semestinya emas. janganlah kita membuat kerja minit terakhir kerna sesungguhnya, hanya aku yang tahu bala bencana akibat melengahkan kerja. HAHA. tapi saya pasti anda semua hebat dalam bidang procrastinatism ini. memang, saya akui sendiri, ia adalah satu sindrom berbahaya! oleh itu, jika masih mahu membuat kerja last minute, jangan berseorang, biarlah berdua bertiga dan lagi ramai lagi bagus. supaya rakan-rakan anda bisa memberi anda satu jenis ego-boost yang anda pasti perlukan di saat genting. support system, bak kata orang barat dari segi demografinya lah. jika buat hanya seorang, anda pasti akan berasa guilty, lonely, dan low self-esteem. renung-renungkanlah coretan ini. semoga kapan kita ketemu lagi. iya bisa doank!

lesson of the day: ya apa saja bisa!! (adapted from Obama, 2009: Yes We Can!)

salam sayang dari perantauan.

captain cook sans the hook

yeap, i need ponstan for that. haha, can't believe such a minor accident can be so painful. it was swollen to double the real size. and now, i can only wear huge pants and long clothing that can disguise this bandage from the eyes of the public. wahahaha. if you must know, i am skinless (well, at that particular spot) and now have to wait till the skin regrow and my leg will look (almost) normal again. can't wait for brand-new skin. it surely would feel like i have been reborn (not!).

what a tragedy. can't reveal much, or you'll faint upon seeing it. LOL

atlit malaysia

ye, baru selesai menonton piala All England Open 2009 yang bagaikan kertas conteng dikeronyok lantas dibuang ke tong sampah. perasaan membuak-buak dengan kekecewaan dek kekalahan DATUK lee chong wei kepada lin dan dari china. nak katakan kalah tipis, memang jauh panggang dari api lah. memang diketahui bahawa dalam 15 kali pertemuan mereka berdua (tak kira tourney apa) Lin Dan meragut kemenangan sebanyak 12 kali dan lee c.w. hanya menang 3 kali dengannya. tapi seorang rakyat malaysia sejati tidak akan nafi mempunyai segelumit harapan yang lee akan menang. sekali tengok, first set dah lemah. second set lagi la. dapat satu mata, bagi satu mata. dapat satu, bagi satu - tu motto baru dia ke? sampai lah akhirnya masa point ke 15 macam tu, Lin Dan dah sangat selesa, dengan 4 mata di hadapan, and time tu aku sedar yang tak mungkin untuk lee mengejarnya. bukan pesimis, tapi realistik. orang tu dah nak match point; masa tu mata ke 20, tinggal satu je lagi. tak kan lah nak harap dia buat silap je? tak mungkin.

yang aku nampak kelemahan lee: bila dia jatuh, lambat bangun. and he's a late bloomer. so dia ambil masa agak lama nak warm up. by the time dia dah heat up, opponent telah pun bersorak gembira dengan kemenangan dalam tangan. bubur dah jadi sup. time waits for no man. ombak pergi meninggalkan kerang. hahaha.

not only that, yesterday DATUK nicole ann david, KALAH kepada Natalie Grainger, an american in the final CIMB KL Open. one thing i noticed is that, she has this 'habit' of losing when it comes to national championships. how funny. i have no clue if it has anything to do with the prize money, as money is still money, but seriously, she's the world no.1 squash player in the world and she lost on her own turf more than anywhere else in the world. very interesting, nicole. maybe it's just tough luck kot, although im starting to think you have something up your sweaty sleeves.

talking about malaysian athletes. they all claim that they were given too little incentives and rewards. the black sheep when it comes to that. now the allowances has been raised, more incentives are given, and there are other rewards in accordance to the their performance and achievement. i.e. datukship. and i.e. both the datuks mentioned above.

when they have been given all these nice things and special treatments - kompang at arrivals at the klia, all the menteri coming down to greet them, not 'punishing' them by taking back the incentives if they suck at their game - then all they do is relax. every game that comes after that will be taken not so seriously as they feel superior and already good enough at whatever they're doing.

please la people, wake up. one thing our athletes lack - and surpass any other aspect as it is the most essential - patriotism and resilience. (oh wait, thats two things. haha nway.) so better do something guys. the malaysian football team has long been a disgrace to us.

somebody's got to clean up this mess. and it ain't gonna be me.

penantian = penyeksaan

betul kata orang, penantian itu satu penyeksaan. dah lebih dua jam dah ni menunggu. tapi nasib baik menunggu di tempat selesa (yakni bilik) dan berinternet. haha.

aku sudah lambat untuk kerja. haih. nak salah kan orang tu, dia yang bagi aku kerja ni, tapi dia juga yang boleh menyebabkan aku kehilangan kerja. another irony of life ;p

pagi tadi hantar liyana, dia nak pegi on a trip to cameron highlands with some of our friends. something that i kind of need myself. but its ok. the time will come for me lah soon. hope they bring back some tea and strawberries for me ;p

today, i want to reward myself with something i've longed for for a very long time:

to curl up in a book before i fall into deep slumber.. hehe. economical, simple, yet very very rewarding :)

one and a half weeks in one post

mode: definitely busy.

highlights:

1. my sisters' sports day was fantabulous. was held at the bukit jalil sports complex. izrin was the flyer for her rumah sukan and i couldnt believe my eyes seeing her cheer like an expert, given that this is her first attempt. thinking of cheer comp, girl? ;p

2. the short film awards at KLCC CC was a refreshing event. got to meet some cool personalities (i.e. ehem ehem, bunkface), and we breathed the same air and took the same escalator! hahah, loser gila! omg. we even stalked them at the end of the event. i am such a groupie. but i dont give a sh*t. they're cute and i like them ;p

3. another week of post-poned quizzes and presentations. i just want to get them done and over with! please!

4. jason mraz was the highlight of the week! i believe he's one elligible bachelor but not ever up for grabs. coz he's every girl's man. full report soon :)

5. helped fa move out. just the two of us, we managed the can-fill-one-whole-warehouse load of stuff! to level 3!! fa, Angel Face satu! LOL.

6. chilled with gfs. definitely trying the New Age next :) im so loving this!

7. -ve: MAJOR injury on right thigh caused by the dumbass exhaust of a bike.flesh exposed. right before mraz's show! like hadi said..no pain, no gain! yea right, this is almost fatal la dude :)) hahahaha (exaggerate)

i hope more great things will come my way. repeat, only great things. got too much bad chi nowadays. shooh negative aura, shooh!

people make mistakes

Miss Norhashima my Methodology in Teaching Grammar lecturer asked us today, the difference of errors and mistakes. we were to come up with answers to that, in which i thought is pretty narrowed. however, i soon came to realize that there is a huge difference between them.

errors, you make without knowing how to do something right. and mistakes are errors that you make with prior knowledge. in this sense, when you err and someone explains to you the correct way, it will be the first time you are enlightened with such knowledge. and then you strive to do it right the next time.

and mistakes, well, they are simply the things you do whilst knowing exactly how it is supposed to be. but given under certain circumstances, a "twist of fate", or mere unconsciousness and carelessness, mistakes happen. this is why people keep making mistakes, to do and then to re-do over and over. the errors are patented with habits and principles and ego that it becomes fossilized. it happens, normally more than once, before we arrive at the state of actualization. when we realize our mistakes fully, we then learn from it.

we actually learn from both making errors and making mistakes; learning happens in both the processes. that is the good thing of getting something wrong.

to learn.

at the end of it all, we are only human. and to err is human. sometimes we make mistakes just to feel human; perfect is not human - it is God.

thus, this is a song i'd like to share with all of you, about making mistakes..in Love :)

it is sung by Joanna Wang, whom i reckon will be the next big hit soon. she has the voice of norah jones, lisa ono and the likes. although her face does not seem to match her voice (thats what i think), but listening to her whispy singing and immaculate US accent, one would straight away fall into deep love. definitely one of taiwan's best product. enjoy!

start learning from your mistakes and forgiving others when they make one :)

"useless passion"

terima kasih sartre atas kata-kata mendalam itu. hari ni tak ada isu. semua berjalan lancar dan tenang. hari yang cukup pleasant. oh, sebenarnya ada satu perkara lah. hahaha. pergi fakulti hari ni memang super awal. bangun-bangun pagi je, terus terfikir oh Lord, the day has finally arrived. hari untuk aku memakai baju yang telah dikirim oleh bonda. haha. baju oren berlengan puffy dengan motif bunga ditengah. bright orange ok, bukan calang-calang oren. dah kata my mom dulu kaki glamer memang la baju semua meletop ala-ala pearl harbour! so yang aku ni, baju kurung limited, so asyik pakai yang sama sampai koyak kat bahu la, hangus masa gosok la, berlubang, berbau loker dan sebagainya.

lantas mulut ini pantas mengusulkan pada mak suruh bagi baju kurung. haha. sah-sah la dia bagi semua hand-me-downs dia. yang warna kuning, merah, hijau, berbunga 3D dari bahu sampai pinggang, cutting rapat cutting jauh, ada pesak, xde pesak...semua ada kak! haaa, mai pilih pilih pilih! haha. aku pun hamparkan semua baju yang memang macam untuk dress rehearsal citrawarna tu, and "rambang mata". actually, bukan banyak sangat pilihan, tapi takde pilihan! semuanya tak taste la nok! hehe. semuanya yang stok fabric mahal; chiffon, kasa rubiah, english cotton..seganlah i nak amek! haha. dah tu, nak bawa pegi fakulti je. memang abes kena caci la aku nanti! hehehe.

contoh terdekat, tadi. belum pape dah kena gelak ngan kak aisyah (sampai hati u ;p) pastu si hafizuddin lelaki macho tunjuk-tunjuk dari jauh sambil cakap "hahaha, bahu..bahu.hahaha. bahu, bahu (terus bergelak)". tak ke mematahkan semangat? haha. mak, atep semua pun tegur dengan nada sinis dicincang halus. hehehe. xdela. komen membina.


dalam kelas shakespeare best gila. semua orang jadi watak macam-macam. hafriz jadi king lear, liyana jadi kent, aku jadi cornwall, nazri jadi edmund, firhan, aimi, niza semua ada watak la. and a few other people. yang kelaka sekali firhan dengan niza sebab suara masing2 tak sesuai dengan watak. hahahaha. haih, kelaka la.

akhirnya dapat juga lidah ini menjamah Meltz di KFC buat kesekian kalinya. pegi dengan liyana, tapi dia xbelanja pun. haha. (hint) pastu hantar brader macho seorang lagi (junior brader macho di atas) yang semangat sangat nak belajau french tuh. yang aku dengar dari first class sampai hari ni bonjour, bonjour, bonjour je. xpun cava, cava bien. haha. xpe, tengah berkobar tuh, kita pupuk jela.

pastu pegi makan kari kepala ikan paling sedap di shah alam. haha. dengan the royal scoopness yang aku dah lama xjumpa. ada kawan2 advertising dia sekali. turns out one of them sekolah VI. apa lagi, sorang CBN, sorang BBGS, sorang VI. bermula lah al-kisah sekolah-sekolah inggeris ber'secret pathways' dan ber'penghuni paderi' dan sebagainya. secara tak langsung, merindui zaman sekolah yang gemilang lagi terbilang.

tiba-tiba mendapat panggilan dari kawan yang akan pulang ke bumi kangaroo malam ni. ada sorang lagi balik esok, dan lusa. haih, aku pasti merindui mereka. and vice versa. haha. dan rindu jua akan bumi adelaide. tapi actually paling rindu ialah the Great Ocean Road. ohmaigod. the most amazing place on Earth i've been thus far. haha.

i remembered the words my dad uttered on the way back on murray bridge "bila lagi agaknya kita nak datang sini. ntah-ntah the next time you guys datang sini dengan family masing-masing pula..ibu ngan ayah dah takde..mesti korang nangis bila lalu balik jalan ni..cantik betul tempat ni. kalo mati kat sini aman je agaknya.."

T_T

the long, endless road in Victoria

berita terkini (kott)

kuah, kalau tak ke nasi, ke mana kuah akan tumpah?

- Samy Vellu

pandai-pandai je dia tukar susunan proverb tuh. takpe la, at least dia ada juga keberanian untuk menggunakannya. ha, harini ada beberapa perkara/aktiviti terkini yang nak di ketengah-pastu-ketepi-sikit-kan. seperti berikut, ladies and gentleman (gentle itu bukan literal):

1. aku akhirnya mewarisi jam tangan ayahku yang telah kuperhatikan sejak dari dulu lagi. jam tangan idamanku. tak perlu jam baru, jam ini sudah cukup untuk membuat hati seorang gadis gembira (waima bentuk ukir seperti sedikit kelelakian).

2. tgk PGL dengan abang photographer bertangan kaku. hahaha. haih lawak betul. gambar paklah kemain snap lagi, sampai jambang baru nak tumbuh pun amek gak, gambar Stephen Rahman? ZERO. hahaha. xpe bro, you are still the best :)

3. pemberontakkan dan kebobrokkan sikap sesetengah pihak. akan diulas lebih jelas dikemudian hari. clue: ada kaitan dengan fakulti, eh silap, majlis perbandaran.

4. pergi ice skate sampai sprain ankle. nasib baik minor injury. semua sebab tali xdiikat dengan serius. havoc sekejap skating rink dengan jeritan powerku. hahaha. sekarang tinggal kesan lebam sahaja. kalian jangan risau.

5. ada jemputan ke rumah nabil ahmad siri jemputan umrah, depa buat makan-makan. kalau ahli keluarga fa tahu, mesti mereka teruja. hahahaha.

6. insiden birthday party di Las Carretas. oh mengapa sebegitu?!

7. hidup ni banyak asam garam. aku ni banyak sangat makan benda bergula. harap di masa depan dapat kurangkan dan lebih reseptif terhadap kemasinan hidup.

sekian. itu sahaja buat masa ini. semoga hidup kita semua lebih diberkati dan lebih ceria!!

mengapak, mengapak? mengapa aku susah sangat nak manage time. hidup ni memang sebenarnya adil, semua orang dapat 24jam sehari. tapi aku rasa macam aku dapat 10jam je sehari. gila banyak benda nak dibuat, tapi sememangnya tak sempat. nak kata aku buat kerja lambat, tak juga. cepat gila (tahap xpeduli produk yang penting siap). tapi kenapa masih tak cukup masa?

aku nak topup masa. nak topup masa banyak banyak. ada jual x?

the better road, taken

today, i established a Thewperr Thunshine Mission 22 with a friend, Fa. this mission is to help us get by every day, in the best way possible. i believe i will be able to be a better person if i follow through with the plan.

may God assist me in every sense.

:)

my briefs

today i feel like writing about these tiny things in briefs:

1. most of the times, i prefer the traffic light than the traffic police - they dont always know what they're doing in the middle of the road. and bad traffic jams can get really jammed when they're around sometimes.

2. valentine's day celebration is overrated. it causes heavy traffic especially around the city centre, impacts people who dont want to be involved and encourages feeling of low self esteem to people who dont celebrate.

3. le tour de langkawi is not internationally recognized. only during the Tun's era. further information you can get it from our prime minister.

4. a lot of the chinese business style and tactics can be observed at the KL IT centre, Plaza Low Yatt. watch and learn.

5. immigrants, legal and otherwise, could one day overstep us by number. i go everywhere, and i feel like either im in india, vietnam, indonesia or bangladesh. please, i dont mind mamak, but i want to be in malaysia. i hope i wont lose a job to them someday.

6. the phrase "on the way" could mean anything in the whole wide world.

7. i love more people than i thought i do, and that, can bring me down sometimes.

8. extreme weather symbolizes the angst of the worldly spirits. do take good care of the environment and nature. start by doing things that are reacheable.

9. you always find helpful people at unexpected places and events, and at untimely times.

10. i think everyone realizes that whenever we do a list, it always ends at number 3, 5, 10, 15. mostly at #10.

biarkan. tak penting.

kita semua badut

kadang kadang terasa geli hati melihat gelagat orang..tak ubah macam pelawak kelas pertama. cuma mereka tak sedar yang mereka diperhatikan. orang yang suka 'berjenaka' ni selalunya orang yang suka menghibur. bila orang terhibur, maka dia pun secara tak langsung dihiburkan. selalunya mereka ini adalah orang-orang yang pada hakikatnya sedih.

mungkin terlalu sukar untuk mereka menerima realiti, atau mungkin memang mereka sengaja lari daripada realiti; tidak penting, apa yang penting, penghujungnya tetap sama.

tak ubah juga seperti badut yang menangis, tetapi terukir senyuman merah diwajahnya. walau sesedih mana sekali, tugas menghibur diteruskan.

maka berterusan lah cereka dan sengketa,
yang mana hanya dia yang rasa.