oh God, everytime i look at that painting of his, my knees go weak. all i am able to do is ask myself why. the painting of pain lives up to its name, and striked right through my beating heart. i cant stop questioning myself, as if searching for a justification. i know it's partly my fault, but dont people get second chances. too quick to judge.
and the trail ends there. i didnt bring it back with me. i want to, but i just cant and wont. i dont want it to haunt me. but that painting, i underestimated. it gives me goosebumps and wells up my tearduct.
it is more difficult than i thought.
p/s: ok maybe i miss him just a tad. ugh.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
two things
two significant things happened in the duration of last night, specifically while i was doing my research proposal due today (yes, it was last minute, hehe):
One. my laptop crashed while i was typing away. the screen just went blank, but the blue light was blinking. kira punya kira, i have only left it off for about 10hours (?) in the course of five days! no wonder it's throwing a tantrum at me. i have not been looking after it well. maybe it needs a much deserved rest. (eh tapi jangan mati terus selama-lamanya! journal tak siap lagi due nex week nih!). so i had to borrow my housemate's laptop. may God bless her, my dear life-saver :)
Two. I found this great quote in A Comprehensive Guide to Writing a Research Proposal textbook (of all the places, haha).
Words spoken by Antoine de Saint Exupery. Yep, one helluva name! "Exupery". very cool. like you go to a party and people ask you "Hey beautiful, what's your name?" and you smile and answer sexily "Oh, I'm Exupery. Call me Exu", in that deep french accent that you fake. woohoo. haha. i bet she's long dead. nobody i know has that name anymore. (as if i have any french pen-pals or CouchSurf buddies). haha anyway my point was, the quote is very meaningful.
on another note, life's far from great, but im close to happiness :D (at least i try to think so)
i hope everything (better be!) will go well. it has to.
the truth hurts, but it is the remedy in the long run.
see you guys soon.
One. my laptop crashed while i was typing away. the screen just went blank, but the blue light was blinking. kira punya kira, i have only left it off for about 10hours (?) in the course of five days! no wonder it's throwing a tantrum at me. i have not been looking after it well. maybe it needs a much deserved rest. (eh tapi jangan mati terus selama-lamanya! journal tak siap lagi due nex week nih!). so i had to borrow my housemate's laptop. may God bless her, my dear life-saver :)
Two. I found this great quote in A Comprehensive Guide to Writing a Research Proposal textbook (of all the places, haha).
" Perfection is achieved, not when there is nothing more to add, but when there is nothing left to take away."
Words spoken by Antoine de Saint Exupery. Yep, one helluva name! "Exupery". very cool. like you go to a party and people ask you "Hey beautiful, what's your name?" and you smile and answer sexily "Oh, I'm Exupery. Call me Exu", in that deep french accent that you fake. woohoo. haha. i bet she's long dead. nobody i know has that name anymore. (as if i have any french pen-pals or CouchSurf buddies). haha anyway my point was, the quote is very meaningful.
on another note, life's far from great, but im close to happiness :D (at least i try to think so)
i hope everything (better be!) will go well. it has to.
the truth hurts, but it is the remedy in the long run.
see you guys soon.
Monday, April 13, 2009
chasing Time
what is "busy" in today's world? there is no surprise nor is it gobsmacking if you hear someone is busy. everyone seems to be very busy these days. "oh, i have a lot to do", "im soooooo busy!", "i cant do this now, im busy".
nobody knows what anyone busy is really doing. they are just...busy. you can try throwing in a reason that it's just a matter of time management, but really, it doesnt change the fact that they will still be busy. it's not that they have less to do, it's just that they managed the things they have to do.
sometimes i wondered if the root word for business is busy. it could be. that's probably why people with business to do are always busy. haha. like you become too caught up in the 'business' (busyness) of life that you forget trivial things.
you forget how the sky looks like at night, you forget the taste of rain, you forget the people around you; and you put everything else on hold, while you go chasing time .
i am always busy too. sometimes to the point where i dont even know the hell im doing. which saddens me, because i always believe that i need to do my best in everything i do. right now, it just seems as if im doing things for the sake of doing, like the malay saying: "melepaskan batuk di tangga". because im chasing time, i need everything to be done at instant.
but you know what i realize? i will always be left behind no matter how quickly i chase it. thats just it. you always think that time is not enough, and therefore it will be your loss to think such.
p/s: i have one week to get 10 things done before i can finally be a free man. have no idea if i can pull off this feat. we'll see!
nobody knows what anyone busy is really doing. they are just...busy. you can try throwing in a reason that it's just a matter of time management, but really, it doesnt change the fact that they will still be busy. it's not that they have less to do, it's just that they managed the things they have to do.
sometimes i wondered if the root word for business is busy. it could be. that's probably why people with business to do are always busy. haha. like you become too caught up in the 'business' (busyness) of life that you forget trivial things.
you forget how the sky looks like at night, you forget the taste of rain, you forget the people around you; and you put everything else on hold, while you go chasing time .
i am always busy too. sometimes to the point where i dont even know the hell im doing. which saddens me, because i always believe that i need to do my best in everything i do. right now, it just seems as if im doing things for the sake of doing, like the malay saying: "melepaskan batuk di tangga". because im chasing time, i need everything to be done at instant.
but you know what i realize? i will always be left behind no matter how quickly i chase it. thats just it. you always think that time is not enough, and therefore it will be your loss to think such.
p/s: i have one week to get 10 things done before i can finally be a free man. have no idea if i can pull off this feat. we'll see!
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Intention and Implementation
These two things are different. they complement each other in a process, but differ in their own rights.
Intention. This is the root. this is where a jurisdiction takes place, i always believe. what you intent to do is very much different from what you really do. plan and action. two units that works together. intention always justifies for everything.
Implementation. This is one thing that confuses people. implementation always acts as a traitor to your intentions. most of the times, you dont really do what you intent to do. you have a major plan laid out upon you, but you didnt follow through. many factors affect the implementation of your intention. society, personal values, impulsiveness, ego, rationale, and other factors. sometimes you betray your own intentions. only because you refuse to show it i.e you want to appear as if you have other purposes. this act is commonly called deceit. but in my opinion, that is not necessarily the case.
personally, i can tell a person's intention. i know when a person meant well, but couldnt express it in actions that are straight-forward. a good example is how different people show their loved ones they care. some will give caring text messages like "How r u 2day?" or some goes through the hustle of asking someone else rather than the person him or herself. some may just give a meaningful look from afar...the way you implement you intentions vary. one plan can be put into action in countless ways.
however, it is dangerous if others fail to see your intention because of the way you express it. this is where miscommunications take place, and drama happens. also, on your part, you may also take a persons actions as something else, although that person meant something else. make sure you try to understand the roots before making any judgements or decisions.
most of the times, i have problems with this: people who didnt apply their intentions well, but i understood what they actually want to do and they dont get that i actually do understand them. in other words, i can read deception and dishonesty, but people who practice them dont usually think i can decode their intentions.
that's why i always believe in second chances; some people cant do it right the first time, therefore, they might work on it, and actually implement their intentions the second time around :)
Intention. This is the root. this is where a jurisdiction takes place, i always believe. what you intent to do is very much different from what you really do. plan and action. two units that works together. intention always justifies for everything.
Implementation. This is one thing that confuses people. implementation always acts as a traitor to your intentions. most of the times, you dont really do what you intent to do. you have a major plan laid out upon you, but you didnt follow through. many factors affect the implementation of your intention. society, personal values, impulsiveness, ego, rationale, and other factors. sometimes you betray your own intentions. only because you refuse to show it i.e you want to appear as if you have other purposes. this act is commonly called deceit. but in my opinion, that is not necessarily the case.
personally, i can tell a person's intention. i know when a person meant well, but couldnt express it in actions that are straight-forward. a good example is how different people show their loved ones they care. some will give caring text messages like "How r u 2day?" or some goes through the hustle of asking someone else rather than the person him or herself. some may just give a meaningful look from afar...the way you implement you intentions vary. one plan can be put into action in countless ways.
however, it is dangerous if others fail to see your intention because of the way you express it. this is where miscommunications take place, and drama happens. also, on your part, you may also take a persons actions as something else, although that person meant something else. make sure you try to understand the roots before making any judgements or decisions.
most of the times, i have problems with this: people who didnt apply their intentions well, but i understood what they actually want to do and they dont get that i actually do understand them. in other words, i can read deception and dishonesty, but people who practice them dont usually think i can decode their intentions.
that's why i always believe in second chances; some people cant do it right the first time, therefore, they might work on it, and actually implement their intentions the second time around :)
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
role-play
the other day, i had nothing better to do; or rather refuse to do. and i did role-play on solo and imagined myself being a 60 year-old grandma. it was not the best time i had. it felt depressing and got heaps of negative sensations that i am unable to describe by words. highlights:
first of, i felt envious. of the young people - whose innocence shone in their faces. they have one privilege i ever wanted more and more - time. it is a luxury they possess that i know they might and could waste at their dispense. they take risks - they know time is on their side. they rebel, and people dont blame them, they blame their hormones.
secondly, i also envy the 'surprise' element that they hold on to, as they know not of what the future may bring them. they are as excited as they are scared. very thrilling.
then i sympathize. i pity them. for the things they are unable to foresee, for the problems they are unable to control, for the lessons they have to learn. there is no such thing as the easy way - condom for the heart, helmet for the mind, bullet-proof suit for the soul.
then i realize i am one of them. so i snapped out of the granny role, and came back to reality. suddenly i felt relieved. thank god i still have ample opportunities to do what i want. i know it's still not too late.
but at the same time, i also feel like shit. the things i want, i dont always get it. close to never. i do get things i need, but not so much of those that i want. (i know everybody faces the same thing) i seriously do feel like shit when i know that things are a-changing. shit, in this sense, is in the same category of melancholic. guess one can only move on. get on the wagon and ride along.
first of, i felt envious. of the young people - whose innocence shone in their faces. they have one privilege i ever wanted more and more - time. it is a luxury they possess that i know they might and could waste at their dispense. they take risks - they know time is on their side. they rebel, and people dont blame them, they blame their hormones.
secondly, i also envy the 'surprise' element that they hold on to, as they know not of what the future may bring them. they are as excited as they are scared. very thrilling.
then i sympathize. i pity them. for the things they are unable to foresee, for the problems they are unable to control, for the lessons they have to learn. there is no such thing as the easy way - condom for the heart, helmet for the mind, bullet-proof suit for the soul.
then i realize i am one of them. so i snapped out of the granny role, and came back to reality. suddenly i felt relieved. thank god i still have ample opportunities to do what i want. i know it's still not too late.
but at the same time, i also feel like shit. the things i want, i dont always get it. close to never. i do get things i need, but not so much of those that i want. (i know everybody faces the same thing) i seriously do feel like shit when i know that things are a-changing. shit, in this sense, is in the same category of melancholic. guess one can only move on. get on the wagon and ride along.
Monday, April 06, 2009
the rite of passage
the rain is currently falling like it has been doing for the past few weeks. eyebags are agrown and lethargic abound.
what do we write about in our blogs? we complain, we whine.
some write great things that happened in their lives. our blogs bear witness to the things we want the world to know (unless your blog is private).
i see great progress in myself throughout these past five years through my blog archive alone. my first entry was about me being a freshman in college (2005). how lame. but how true. it reflects me at that time. when i read back all the ancient posts i wrote, all the memories rushed in to mind like black and white film flashed on projector. those were amazing years. amazing things have happened. sometimes i regret the things i did, or the clothes i wear. i.e cargo pants and polo tee?! wtf. but yeah, when i give it a second thought, it wasnt so bad after all. in fact, i regret ever feeling regret. haha.
now in the speed of light, i have almost come to the peak of my study: practicum. after that, i will do my last semester and than thats it. it will be over. so in simple calculation, this semester will be the last semester for me and my friends (those in different batches and the same) to hang around the faculty together. tesl square. shitt i am going to miss that spot.
friends from senior years are soon going away, moving on with the next phase of their lives: masters or work. friends from the link program are going too, continuing their practicum at their respective training colleges (KB and Gaya), friends from junior years, well, when i get back from prac, they'll be going for it and it'll be very hard to meet up.
geez. how time really flies! it used to be just a figure of speech. but now it is really happening. doing practicum, finishing studies, graduating, continuing with studies, finding Mr.Right-For-Me, watching friends getting married, getting married myself, having children, and etc etc etc.
the rite of passage. thats what we all do. we move on, all the time. im looking forward to see what the future has in store for me. but in the meantime, i just cant wait to spend my time with those i have and love with all my heart, while i still can :)
what do we write about in our blogs? we complain, we whine.
some write great things that happened in their lives. our blogs bear witness to the things we want the world to know (unless your blog is private).
i see great progress in myself throughout these past five years through my blog archive alone. my first entry was about me being a freshman in college (2005). how lame. but how true. it reflects me at that time. when i read back all the ancient posts i wrote, all the memories rushed in to mind like black and white film flashed on projector. those were amazing years. amazing things have happened. sometimes i regret the things i did, or the clothes i wear. i.e cargo pants and polo tee?! wtf. but yeah, when i give it a second thought, it wasnt so bad after all. in fact, i regret ever feeling regret. haha.
now in the speed of light, i have almost come to the peak of my study: practicum. after that, i will do my last semester and than thats it. it will be over. so in simple calculation, this semester will be the last semester for me and my friends (those in different batches and the same) to hang around the faculty together. tesl square. shitt i am going to miss that spot.
friends from senior years are soon going away, moving on with the next phase of their lives: masters or work. friends from the link program are going too, continuing their practicum at their respective training colleges (KB and Gaya), friends from junior years, well, when i get back from prac, they'll be going for it and it'll be very hard to meet up.
geez. how time really flies! it used to be just a figure of speech. but now it is really happening. doing practicum, finishing studies, graduating, continuing with studies, finding Mr.Right-For-Me, watching friends getting married, getting married myself, having children, and etc etc etc.
the rite of passage. thats what we all do. we move on, all the time. im looking forward to see what the future has in store for me. but in the meantime, i just cant wait to spend my time with those i have and love with all my heart, while i still can :)
Monday, March 30, 2009
simple people
Some people makes me drive my thoughts back to basics. the mere simplicity, the non chalance amidst the consciousness of everything else. the care-free, unbinded attitude and the liberated free-will thinking.
i thank these people. they provide me with the occasional breath of fresh air.
they dont deny consumerism, but they dont swear by it either.
they go with globalisation, but they put borders where there should be.
they read and talk to others, but dont necessarily believe all of it.
they are their own people, but they accept others as one of them.
these people;
one who sits on the pavement on the roadside.
one who only owns 7 pairs of tops and bottoms for each day of the week.
one who sits at home when people are out.
one who rides the old bike everywhere.
one who smiles, laughs, and cries when they should.
one who makes mistakes, and take it as a lesson.
one who doesnt do everything right, but doesnt disappoint.
one who is human, and is not afraid of the fact.
these are the people that have often given me new and useful insights on things i find complicated.
find these people around you, believe me, they are there.
the best thing is? they dont know who they are :)
i thank these people. they provide me with the occasional breath of fresh air.
they dont deny consumerism, but they dont swear by it either.
they go with globalisation, but they put borders where there should be.
they read and talk to others, but dont necessarily believe all of it.
they are their own people, but they accept others as one of them.
these people;
one who sits on the pavement on the roadside.
one who only owns 7 pairs of tops and bottoms for each day of the week.
one who sits at home when people are out.
one who rides the old bike everywhere.
one who smiles, laughs, and cries when they should.
one who makes mistakes, and take it as a lesson.
one who doesnt do everything right, but doesnt disappoint.
one who is human, and is not afraid of the fact.
these are the people that have often given me new and useful insights on things i find complicated.
find these people around you, believe me, they are there.
the best thing is? they dont know who they are :)
susah la nak cakap
kenapa orang susah nak faham?
atau mereka faham tapi cuba nafikan apa yang diorang faham?
hish, aku pun tak faham.
tolonglah faham supaya aku tak payah fahamkan.
penat, pening, agitated dan keliru.
sila uruskan diri anda sendiri.
atau mereka faham tapi cuba nafikan apa yang diorang faham?
hish, aku pun tak faham.
tolonglah faham supaya aku tak payah fahamkan.
penat, pening, agitated dan keliru.
sila uruskan diri anda sendiri.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Here In My Home
I know that this is probably old juice. And i've used too many videos and music recently to cover up for my lack of commitment in writing a real post kan? HAHA. But it's not wrong to burn up that spirit of nationality over and over again lah i think. HAHA. And plus, this is a very good video. Just the right dose of values and humour lah.
Watched it with some friends during Micro-teaching Reading. Ngahaha. (Kantoi tak focus di kelas).
My favourite part is of Harith Iskandar. Dia buat moonwalk seyh!! And then, Awie's raspy voice and Ning's big notes. Ooohh man, perfecto. And also, the rap part. It's in four main languages used in Malaysia. Seriously cool. Seriously.
And oh, I LOVE MALAYSIA; and PROUD TO BE A MALAYSIAN.
p/s: do you think unity is far-fetched in Malaysia? I think it's achievable, but it does take time :)
Watched it with some friends during Micro-teaching Reading. Ngahaha. (Kantoi tak focus di kelas).
My favourite part is of Harith Iskandar. Dia buat moonwalk seyh!! And then, Awie's raspy voice and Ning's big notes. Ooohh man, perfecto. And also, the rap part. It's in four main languages used in Malaysia. Seriously cool. Seriously.
And oh, I LOVE MALAYSIA; and PROUD TO BE A MALAYSIAN.
p/s: do you think unity is far-fetched in Malaysia? I think it's achievable, but it does take time :)
"No matter where I roam, this is Home Sweet Home.."
Sakura Beat
Life has been hectic (still..). what more, the semester is coming to an end; everyone's trying to get their work done to be submitted before the study leave. even the lecturers look stressed out around the faculty.
i am coping pretty well. planning a trip, mentally. haha. and still manage to fool around and enjoy being this age amidst all the workload :) some unwanted distractions occur unexpectedly, but thats what makes life much thrilling!
so here's a song, to those of us who still hangs in there, and rocking wild despite all the pressures in our lives.
well, as they say, the way to live is to love! so love life [^ ^]v
Cheers!
[i love this video for its canvas look. very delicate and anime-ish, don't you think? :)]
i am coping pretty well. planning a trip, mentally. haha. and still manage to fool around and enjoy being this age amidst all the workload :) some unwanted distractions occur unexpectedly, but thats what makes life much thrilling!
so here's a song, to those of us who still hangs in there, and rocking wild despite all the pressures in our lives.
well, as they say, the way to live is to love! so love life [^ ^]v
Cheers!
[i love this video for its canvas look. very delicate and anime-ish, don't you think? :)]
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
a wise ass and an ass
note:
the wise ass: him
the (fabulous) ass: me
went on tea with my neighbour whom i've not seen for some years now at la bodega. he always has wise things to say whenever he speaks.
anyway, that is another thing i have yet to think about; my future. dammit how in the world am i supposed to assume what i want in the next few years? i am utterly popular with being unpredictable with myself, and i can never decide today for what's to be in the next two years; heck, not even tomorrow!
but let's put that aside, shall we? one day at a time.
p/s: listening to the velvet underground - im sticking with you.
(heart-- how ironic, im not stuck to anyone.)
(head -- well, so the insecurities and the denial speaks.)
the wise ass: him
the (fabulous) ass: me
went on tea with my neighbour whom i've not seen for some years now at la bodega. he always has wise things to say whenever he speaks.
"Time equals gold. You can never replace time with gold and eitherwise;
no matter how valuable they are"
How very true. i think i've wasted too many hours on unimportant things. i bet he always thinks of great quotes while on auto-pilot. oh well, pilots are smart-asses. and they are paid ridiculously high amount of moolah just for pressing on buttons and reading meters. (i know, i know, it's more complex than that).
anyway, that is another thing i have yet to think about; my future. dammit how in the world am i supposed to assume what i want in the next few years? i am utterly popular with being unpredictable with myself, and i can never decide today for what's to be in the next two years; heck, not even tomorrow!
but let's put that aside, shall we? one day at a time.
p/s: listening to the velvet underground - im sticking with you.
(heart-- how ironic, im not stuck to anyone.)
(head -- well, so the insecurities and the denial speaks.)
kenapa tak mimpi bunkface??
mimpi yang best! 4 malam yang lalu, dalam kesibukan alam, dan kesuntukkan masa untuk tidur, aku telah pun bermimpi. uhhh sangat indah! (tapi decent la, jgn fikir bukan-bukan).
mimpi simple je: drummer gerard et les stars datang bilik aku and kitorang pillow talk. WAHAHA. tak ingat pula detail apa yg diborakkan, tapi dia puji senyuman aku lah. katanya (dalam bahasa perancis, tapi aku faham) "apa pendapat kamu tentang hidup ini?"
aku tak ingat apa aku jawab, tapi you can bet aku jawab something lame lah (and tak ingat juga bahasa apa). pastu at the end tuh, mak aku panggil dia. sambil cakap "wahhh, ni lah dia bakal menantu ibu ye?"
OMG. how i wish! tapi dah nama pun mimpi kannnn! tepaksa la mak control desire makk!! tak taste la gini nokk!
tapi pape pun, dia pakai baju shirt kotak2 kelabu dalam tu ada t-shirt putih, with fedora hat.
sangat weird, sebab jade puget yg aku minat bagai nak rak tu pun aku tak penah mimpi pillow talk dengan dia. ni kan pulak drummer kecil-kecilan kat lorong kat paris tuh.
but it was a great dream lah! tidur sejam je, tapi mimpi mcm cerita hindustan.
p/s: dalam seminggu ni, the sleeping hour i get has increased! (approx 15jam/minggu)
mimpi simple je: drummer gerard et les stars datang bilik aku and kitorang pillow talk. WAHAHA. tak ingat pula detail apa yg diborakkan, tapi dia puji senyuman aku lah. katanya (dalam bahasa perancis, tapi aku faham) "apa pendapat kamu tentang hidup ini?"
aku tak ingat apa aku jawab, tapi you can bet aku jawab something lame lah (and tak ingat juga bahasa apa). pastu at the end tuh, mak aku panggil dia. sambil cakap "wahhh, ni lah dia bakal menantu ibu ye?"
OMG. how i wish! tapi dah nama pun mimpi kannnn! tepaksa la mak control desire makk!! tak taste la gini nokk!
tapi pape pun, dia pakai baju shirt kotak2 kelabu dalam tu ada t-shirt putih, with fedora hat.
sangat weird, sebab jade puget yg aku minat bagai nak rak tu pun aku tak penah mimpi pillow talk dengan dia. ni kan pulak drummer kecil-kecilan kat lorong kat paris tuh.
but it was a great dream lah! tidur sejam je, tapi mimpi mcm cerita hindustan.
p/s: dalam seminggu ni, the sleeping hour i get has increased! (approx 15jam/minggu)
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Point where you should ponder
All dead white boys say "God is good"
White tongues hang out "God is good"
-Sodom, South Georgia
Indeed, i believe so. He knows what is best for me and you, and thusfore, lay them down upon us. What happened, what is happening, and what will from now happen, i let Him decide.
And so, we are in the hands of God. (Shyheim)
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Latuk Lee
hey hey, newsflash!
itu Latuk Lee Chong Wei sulah menang itu swiss open!! waaaa sangat gembira la ini macam!! hari itu saya sulah marah2 dia, kasi macam2 hal mencarut la, sekalang dia sulah redeem himself woo!! and also saved the nation's ass from what could be another humiliation!!
haha. hati saya ar sangat hepi!!
menang jugak nombor sangat ong!
set 1: 21-16
set2 : 21-16
points adalah sama untuk kedua-dua set!!
saya rasa latuk sulah faham tactic permainan lin dan. itu sangat mempuaskan! kerana ar, lin dan itu jenis olang yang main pantas. fast speed punya olang. typical chinaman la itu. jadi ar, ini latuk pulak jenis slow-mo la bak kata spielberg; jenis pemain yang main secara cool.
lantas ar, pada set pertama selepas point ke 10 lin dan macam itu, latuk cepat menangkap cara permainan latuk lin dan. eh eh bukan latuk lin dan la dia, silap la. hehe.
so ar, u boleh tengok la, selepas itu latuk bagi kaw-kaw sama dia guna tactic long rally la. dia bagi itu chinaman penat ar, hilang stamina; bagi smash banyak-banyak sama dia so tunggu dia hilang fokus dan make mistake.. sangat bijak la! mungkin misbun dan rashid sulah bagitahu sama dia la, sebab ar, masa itu all england saya nampak beliau ada tulis2 macam-macam atas kertas la masa match. haha. bagus2 ini macam.
moment paling digemari oleh saya, sulah tentulah pada point ke 15/16 set pertama dan point ke 14/15 set kedua. latuk ar sampai pusing 360 woo untuk backhand itu shuttle. gila ka apa ini latuk! sungguh kagum la! haiya, saya sangat hepi la. ini macam baru kali ke empat la dia bagi tewas itu lin dan dalam jangka 15match macam itu, accumulatively la. tapi harus pasti tingkatkan lagi la dia punya semangat fighter! jika tidak ar, sangat cepat la itu latuk putus asa, betul?
jadi ar, kasi tanam itu semangat waja dan patriotik bagi dia kerakyatan sedikit. wahahaha. ok la, hepi hepi ar lu latuk. saya juga mau tido la. latuk, lu nampak sangat leng loi la waktu lu minum air selepas match itu. wa sangat suka tengok!! hahaha. ok la, chowzz!
p/s: omg. aku dah jadi bimbo versi cina.
itu Latuk Lee Chong Wei sulah menang itu swiss open!! waaaa sangat gembira la ini macam!! hari itu saya sulah marah2 dia, kasi macam2 hal mencarut la, sekalang dia sulah redeem himself woo!! and also saved the nation's ass from what could be another humiliation!!
haha. hati saya ar sangat hepi!!
menang jugak nombor sangat ong!
set 1: 21-16
set2 : 21-16
points adalah sama untuk kedua-dua set!!
saya rasa latuk sulah faham tactic permainan lin dan. itu sangat mempuaskan! kerana ar, lin dan itu jenis olang yang main pantas. fast speed punya olang. typical chinaman la itu. jadi ar, ini latuk pulak jenis slow-mo la bak kata spielberg; jenis pemain yang main secara cool.
lantas ar, pada set pertama selepas point ke 10 lin dan macam itu, latuk cepat menangkap cara permainan latuk lin dan. eh eh bukan latuk lin dan la dia, silap la. hehe.
so ar, u boleh tengok la, selepas itu latuk bagi kaw-kaw sama dia guna tactic long rally la. dia bagi itu chinaman penat ar, hilang stamina; bagi smash banyak-banyak sama dia so tunggu dia hilang fokus dan make mistake.. sangat bijak la! mungkin misbun dan rashid sulah bagitahu sama dia la, sebab ar, masa itu all england saya nampak beliau ada tulis2 macam-macam atas kertas la masa match. haha. bagus2 ini macam.
moment paling digemari oleh saya, sulah tentulah pada point ke 15/16 set pertama dan point ke 14/15 set kedua. latuk ar sampai pusing 360 woo untuk backhand itu shuttle. gila ka apa ini latuk! sungguh kagum la! haiya, saya sangat hepi la. ini macam baru kali ke empat la dia bagi tewas itu lin dan dalam jangka 15match macam itu, accumulatively la. tapi harus pasti tingkatkan lagi la dia punya semangat fighter! jika tidak ar, sangat cepat la itu latuk putus asa, betul?
jadi ar, kasi tanam itu semangat waja dan patriotik bagi dia kerakyatan sedikit. wahahaha. ok la, hepi hepi ar lu latuk. saya juga mau tido la. latuk, lu nampak sangat leng loi la waktu lu minum air selepas match itu. wa sangat suka tengok!! hahaha. ok la, chowzz!
p/s: omg. aku dah jadi bimbo versi cina.
fantasi berakademi
went to watch AF (or akademi fantasia for those who are ignorant enough, or just couldn't care less, or havent been in malaysia for the past decade, or just deleted the memory of voting for it haha) last saturday at the futsal arena in bukit jalil. i was with my brother; we both despised the idea of having to go watch some amateur entertainers with awkward showmanship and stage skills AND having to go with our more-adult neighbour and her more-adult friends. yes, what more can be worse than having to watch funny people sing karaoke in a competition with elderly AF fanatics right? well, it was not so bad as it turned out. we actually had fun! and i kind of like one of the contestants (or two!). haha. gila menjilat ludah sendiri ;p i like Qhaud and Aril. got the potential baybeh!
definitely a season to watch out for!
p/s: ada orang kata tiara jacquelina sangat gedik sebagai seorang pengetua AF. apa kata anda? mari kita tunggu dan lihat!
definitely a season to watch out for!
p/s: ada orang kata tiara jacquelina sangat gedik sebagai seorang pengetua AF. apa kata anda? mari kita tunggu dan lihat!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
goodbye
" i hope life treat you kind,
and i hope you have all you dreamed of.
and i wish you joy,
and happiness,
but above all these,
i wish you love.."
not something i do
sometimes you just dont know that it is happening. by the time you realize, it is already over. and you are left alone wondering what the hell just happened and why the hell were you so oblivious and was such a dumbass that such an eventful thing sept you in but you did not so much notice, let alone feel it.
yes, dear friends, there are people like that in this world. in fact, most of us probably has gone through this. you want it so much, but you deny it. but with the power of the universe, you get it, and then you didnt realize. so you couldnt appreciate it. and it goes away. and you blame yourself. and you missed a chance; could be the chance.
and you start to feel as if the world is crumbling down around you. and as painful as it is to swallow, you owe to yourself. the only person you could and would blame is you and no other.
and all that is left for you to do is to only hope.
to hope for a hope.
yes, dear friends, there are people like that in this world. in fact, most of us probably has gone through this. you want it so much, but you deny it. but with the power of the universe, you get it, and then you didnt realize. so you couldnt appreciate it. and it goes away. and you blame yourself. and you missed a chance; could be the chance.
and you start to feel as if the world is crumbling down around you. and as painful as it is to swallow, you owe to yourself. the only person you could and would blame is you and no other.
and all that is left for you to do is to only hope.
to hope for a hope.
patience is virtue
you know that feeling when somebody took a portion of your heart, pull it out and keep it in a jar? yes, it will leave a hole in your heart. it hurts, it sucks, but it happens all the time. and they say time heals all wounds. but time is very, very abstract. some take longer time to heal, some in a blink of an eye.
but you heal, sooner or later. just need to be patient.
patience.
if only i had more of it.
but you heal, sooner or later. just need to be patient.
patience.
if only i had more of it.
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