(4+5) x 4

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what do you do

with the star that you

kept away from time,

but has lost its shine?

.

the star, has fade away

and you, have gone astray..

realiti negara aku 2

kadang-kadang rasa macam nak jadi budak melayu typical. tak nak jadi out-of-the-box, tak nak tanya soalan dalam kelas, tak nak participate apa-apa. tak nak berusaha lebih, tak nak keluar dari negara ni, tak nak tukar mindset, tak nak perbetul mentaliti, tak nak buat apa-apa.

rasa macam nak duduk je tepi tangga tunggu orang suap nasi. tunggu orang hulur duit, tunggu orang pakaikan baju, mandikan, papah ke sekolah. nak tunggu kerajaan bagi insentif, tunggu universiti merayu masuk daftar diri dan belajar, tunggu pensyarah jerit maki hamun lepas tu rotan baru buat kerja, tunggu mak ayah marah baru tolong kat rumah.

tak nak usaha untuk masa depan sendiri, tak nak dengar cakap pemimpin, tak nak pegi mengundi, tak nak ambil pot pasal hal ehwal negara dan sekitar.

nak duduk je dekat rumah tengok tv sampai tv tengok kita. nak tidur je sampai waktu makan lepas tu tido balik. nak jadi orang yang tak ada pendirian, matlamat, prinsip dan sifat ketamadunan. orang yang tak ada patriotism, jati diri, semangat usaha dan dedikasi.

tapi kalo semua orang macam tu, sampai kiamat pun xmaju kaum aku ni! tolong lah sedar dan bertindak dengan conscious. siapa lagi yang nak ubah nasib kita, kalo bukan diri kita sendiri.

tuesday thoughts

began with a puddle of plead
ended with conscience unrulied.

that part clackered,
and flickered
and fluttered
and fidgeted.

it wants to swim
in the ocean of words;
those you threw up,
exited and flew like birds.

it is fragile, it is composed
but you took for granted,
i supposed.

three on three.

the mellow.





the noveu electro.




the hard and new.



between the postal service's and the iron and wine's version, i still am not sure which one is the original. word has it its the postal service. but i like iron and wine's version better.

skinny love

"..cut out all the ropes and let me fall.."

by bon iver.

the deal about life

here's the deal.

you want to be the best you can ever be.

but you dont know how.

so you ask your mom,

and your mom said:

Well dear, that's life. We spend all our time figuring out.

sunny sunday

went to the hot air balloon event today in putrajaya with my two sisters. met up with some campus friends there too. this is the second time they organized this event and i think they should do it annually. it is awesome. at least we malaysians will have more things to look forward to now. haha.

i also heard their doing some backpackers meet-up in putrajaya with music performances and all, where backpackers locally and internationally get together with their tents up and sleeping bags listening to live music. it's still under discussion, but the deal is it's going to be held in putrajaya. cool stuff.

i bought a kite today; it's colorful and cute. i almost bought the one with the octopus head but i thought i might as well get the more professional looking kite. haha. plus cheaper maa.

i dont really like the weather today. very very hot and i was burning. but tonight it rained, so it compensated and balanced out. i guess in life we must do the same, have checks and balances. well, what can i say, im not one to speak - my life sucked too. hahah. have a good week next week.

p/s: if i survive next week, i will reward myself to a bar of cadbury crunchie. next week is war, it is hell, and it is a battlefield of shitass assignments. who bloody created the concept of homeworks and assignments?! if you did, we need to talk!

hati jauh

pada kebiasaan
jarak yang memisah
juga masa
akan tapi
ada kala nya
masih terasa jauh
walau yang memisah
hanya hati
dan rasional kita
perasaan sendiri
perasaan sepi
tidak layak dirasai
tidak oleh siapa pun

how long now?

how many months has it been now?
how many years have passed;
how long did it last?

how do you feel this moment?
how do you want it to be;
how is the future you foresee?

how do you want it to end?
how i can crash and burn;
just watching you take that turn.

i wonder

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.


sometimes i question my own judgements.



..what if?

"here comes the sun"

the sun has always been a symbol of hope, and new beginnings. once the moon disappear through the dark suede sky, you can see a light emergin from the horizons; the sun.




metric is genius and this song is the most genius product by them. the song is full of cross-references and relatable issues that are subtle, though direct.

c'mon baby play me something..


p/s: first fell in love with metric when they covered elliot smith's behind bars.
pp/s: i like the vox's shades. she has a pair that she always wear.

who, me?

what is life without thinking about it? you came to the world from a place where you were alone, and you end your life the same manner. you make the decisions, you do the things you want to do, you have your likes and hates. at the end of the day, you are the only person you need to please.

give yourself some sympathy.

breathe me

the song is by Sia Furler. this is a live version.



raw and fragile; the song, the singing and the lyrics. like somethings gonna break anytime during the song.

thank you Taj.


alternatively, check out:

the official video

coca-cola olympic commercial featuring this song

life in list

this is a note for self:

please put your life back into perspective.


the things you need to get done in a short amount of time:

1. AE. dammit one-month plus minus more to go!
2. video for TARA.
3. all other assignments clogging/pending.
4. figure out life.

you must and you will get all four done!

tick tock, tick tock, your life is on the clock!

subliminal speed

from the hair and the snowflakes, and the fact that she had to shield her eyes,

i know that she's going at a fast speed.

but the look on her face, the calmness..

subliminal.

p/s: what a beauty!

p/ps: i need a bicycle. a velorbis cost me a friggin RM4k!

have what it takes? be my partner.

i've been dying to join this, but can never get around it. now that im almost graduating, i thought, why not? the application ends in 20days or so. but have i got the right partner? working towards that. would you like to be my partner?

some criteria that may help:

• rough at heart
• good at navigating (photographic memory of places hahahaha)
• rational thinker (coz im the impulsive one, i think quick. i need someone to rationalize for me. lol)
• can eat anything i.e. gooey icky stuff (except of course, those forbidden by religion)
• chemistry (sekepala, sama-sama masuk air la)
• camera-loving :D

and most importantly:

• loves to crack jokes in the midst of tense. haha

really, im into it for the experience, although i do want to win the USD$100,000 (siapa tak nak!). but more importantly than that is to learn about the different cultures in the world, to do something out of the norm, to challenge yourself (you live only once after all!), to be a teamplayer and to get to know more about your teammate and yourself.

so if you share the same desire, and have what it takes, what are you waiting for? give me a buzz, coz im totally in!

WE HAVE 20days MORE (before application ends)

check out more info here.

Maulidur Rasul and Me

As I'm typing this, I'm listening to Dr. Ary Ginanjar Agustian speak on tv (Astro Oasis, channel 106). He is narrating the story of the Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) in conjunction with the Maulidur Rasul tomorrow.

It's quite a surprise that anyone could actually tell the story in a way that i would actually enjoy listening to so much and be affected by it. The way Ary Ginanjar is telling it is so moving that it almost brought me to tears. This reminded me of the ESQ course he held few years back that i went to. the things he say connects so much to your heart that you truly feel them (as if you were there witnessing with your own eyes).

He's speaking without script, and this is a one-hour program. to add to the awe, the language he uses is very poetic..just superb. As he is speaking now, i can see his eyes glistening with tears and his face turning pink. i thinking he's restraining himself from crying. im going to go watch him now.



note for self from the show:

1. tahap pencarian (spiritualitas) - Nabi Muhammad mencari dirinya dengan mencari kebenaran hakiki.
2. pembangunan jiwa tauhid - dengan mencintai Allah, baru boleh mencintai diri sendiri.

3. Jangan jadikan alasan tidak mampu mencintai Rasul kerana kita tidak mengenalinya, kerana beliau bisa mencintai kita tanpa perlu mengenali kita (perkataan terakhir beliau sebelum menghembuskan nafas terakhir di sisi isterinya: "Umati, umati, umati") begitu sayang beliau terhadap umatnya, walau beliau tahu umatnya tidak berpeluang mengenalnya ketika beliau masih hidup.

4. kenali lah dirimu dengan mengenali Tuhan dan Rasul mu.
5. Rasulullah mengajar dua benda: al-Quran dan al-Hadith.
6. Beliau buta huruf, tetapi bisa membaca selepas turunnya surah Al-Alaq. (Malaikat Jibrail menyeru beliau: Iqra'!) betapa penting menimba ilmu dan membaca.

Mortal Kombat

ahahaha this is pretty funny. a parody of the famed mortal kombat. check it out.

sony world photography awards 2009/2010

last week, there was a photo exhibition and my friend and i went to see it. it was refreshing. the Sony World Photography Awards (Global Tour 2009/2010) was held at the Galeri Petronas klcc and it was free. there were lots of photographers, new and seasoned, amateur and professionals. our most favourite has to be dylan collard from uk. his photos are all superb! Here are some of the photos. Copyrights of Sony.

Dylan Collard (UK)

Commercial - Advertising, 3rd place 2009

Julian Abram Wainwright (Canada)

Photojournalism and Documentary - Sport, Winner 2009

 

David Watts (UK)

Amateur, Fine Art - Architecture, Winner 2009

sadly, there were no photographers from malaysia. there was one from singapore (who took a photo of an endangered species of bird in malaysia's rainforest) but none from malaysia. maybe next time there will be more participation in this kinds of competition from malaysian photographers. good stuff.


note: the exhibition is from 04/02-28/03 2010. it's still on, go check it out.

the remains

i empty myself of the names of others. i empty my pockets.
i leave my shoes and leave them beside the road.
at night i turn back the clocks;
i look at the family album and look at myself as a boy.

what good does it do? the hours have done their job.
i say my own name. i say goodbye.
the words follow each other downwind.
i love my wife but send her away.

my parents rise out of their thrones
into the milky rooms of clouds. how can i sing?
time tells me what i am. i change and i am the same.
i empty myself of my life and my life remains.



p/s: this poem was used for my contemporary literature test few days back. i thought it was brilliant.