butoh

pictures are taken from here

i was stunned. it is not something simple to do. it needs a lot of concentration and strength (mental and physical). widely known as Butoh, or the dance of darkness in japanese. you can try to google it for more information on the history yada yada yada.

there will be a Butoh Jam at the Annexe this coming August 8th and you can bet i will be going! you can watch a video of the best butoh group ( in my opinion), Sankai Juku, on YouTube. click here. i was just hooked on it.

definitely:

ART IS LIFE IS ART

:)

tasteless words

im not very expressive lately. i cant believe how love can make one so subdued. like swimming underwater at the depth just before i can crack the surface. i prefer to tell it in circles.

how far have we gone? it's like countless numbered days. i sometimes missed the taste of the wind (notice how i always refer back to the wind? running out of perfect symbolism) from the southern hemisphere. thats a clue.

i noticed i've channeled almost all of my energy and passion towards only certain things that i have none left for other things that i really want to do. and i realize that life is too short to do the things that you dont like. but these are the things that i have to do. so there's the ultimatum.

im again, bound by fated crossroads. why are you always doing this to me. gee, pick someone else to bully.

killed

hair tied up
lips are sealed
blood in cup
saw it killed

it's a sphere
blew and burst
plain and clear
it's a curse

reached for it
turned the cards
fell and slipped
thats the start

i'm a miner for hearts of gold

"Love lost, such a cost
Give me things
that dont get lost,
Like a coin
that wont get tossed,
Rolling home to you.."

I like his songs from the 60's and 70's not so much of the latest ones. Dig the 60's (woohoo). Those are my favourite lines from his song Old Man. But my favourite song of his is Heart of Gold. Heavy duty on the Mouthharp; here, take a listen:




or if you can't play it (YT have been throwing tantrums these days), click here.


first heard of it in the car with my dad on the way to school when i was 11. another genius the world can't make do without.

spot me if you can

taken from here

topless with a ciggie and a typewriter

Photo by Gary Bridgman

"this room has a resonance".

oh i would die (metaphorically) to have this Underwood typewriter in my room. this is one of the many typewriters used by american novelist William Faulkner (the photo is his office/study); the last one he used before he died. thus, it is more famously called the Faulkner portable. the Underwood Universal Portable Typewriter is famous in the mid-1930's among its other compatriots: Champion, Noiseless Portable, and Junior.

I just have to have this. It would give so much mood and feeltouch to my project.

anyone knows how i can get my hands on one?

pelajar dan cikgu

pelajar A: teacher, teacher banyak baju-baju klasik eh..

cikgu: tu pujian ke apa?

pelajar A: entah lah..

cikgu: entah? ish.

pelajar A: *bershuffle*

this is the future generation. the generation that i have to mould into becoming leaders.


pelajar B: teacher berapa tahun teacher?

cikgu: rasanya?

pelajar B: tak taulah, tapi mesti anak dara.

cikgu: .....

pelajar B: yang penting teacher jangan dengar sangat cakap kitorang teacher. kena tetap pendirian.

cikgu: (eh dahla statement contradict, pastu siapa cikgu ni?)


the generation that is oriented towards their own needs and beliefs. although, given the fact that most children are like that.


pelajar C: teacher kita tak yah belajar nak harini?

cikgu: habis tu?

pelajar C: kita merempitttttt.

cikgu: ok. rempitlah sekarang.

pelajar C: terrrrrrrrbaekkkkkkkk!!!

cikgu: ha nak pegi mana tuh? merempit dalam kelas je.

pelajar C: ak enen..kecowh ar! cakap x serupa bikin ar. camne jadi cikgu ih? bodoh pan*ek sial!!
buat lawak ak dia.

a generation that creates a divide in the language and thus the lifestyle they adopt.

pelajar D: cikgu, besok saya ponteng auw. nak lepak sunway.

cikgu: (wtf? gila jujur) kamu nak tukar sekolah SMK Sunway Pyramid ke? lagi senang.

pelajar D: ek eh, emo lak dia. takde la kalo cikgu lain cari tolong bagitau diorang eh.

honest, comes clean and has no care in the world.

cikgu: everybody listen!

pelajar: liseng tu apa?

cikgu: dengar! (patutla selama ni aku suruh listen diorang xdengar-dengar)

pelajar: oh. lerh cakap melayu sudeyh..

cikgu: (ni waktu BI kott. ish) ...

*masih bising*

pelajar: WOIH babi kat belakang tu senyap ar bodoh! awek aku dah marah ni!! ok, hehe, sori cikgu diorang memang tak paham bahasa..


definitely without a doubt, i am going to miss their antics :)


cikgu: kamu minat band apa?

pelajar 1: kerispateh!

pelajar 2: lady gaga.

pelajar 3: weh harun betul la ko ni. tu bukan band bodo. tu solo la bangek.

pelajar 1: lah, mampus dia ar ko nk cari gado apsal?!

pelajar 3: ko xcaya ko tanya cikgu.

cikgu: ye, tu solo.

pelajar 3: ha kan betul. aku cakap xcaya babi betul. cikgu, saya pulak minat michael jackson.

pelajar 1: weh mangkok sial ko ni. tu pun solo ar!

pelajar 3: eh bukan band ke? sorang putih sorang hitam kan?

pelajar 4: bapak ar ko ni hidup zaman bila. ko menyewa kat dalam keranda ke apa xbaca suratkhabar!

pelajar 3: aku menyewa kat lobang hidong bapak ko!! banyak songeh lak. mampos ar babiiiiii!! nah keranda ko! *menolak pelajar 4 jatuh dari kerusi*

cikgu: (semuanya berlalu dengan begitu pantas)

pending the pendulum

the leaves run
chasing the wind

but i wait
zephyr pushing me

the signs stop
rain begin falling

i searched shelter
we found us

ticks become louder
never does before

the clashing breeze
made us disappear

and time runs
chasing the memories

but i wait
stones hitting me

will it stop
all of it

i still wait
waiting to begin

sunshine highway

i just can't get enough of this. the wimp sound of the accordion and bagpipe in the background is just so superb! only until towards the end did the sound become prominent. hey, who said you have to have only one person on vocals? this is such a roadtrip song!

voices

"how much is enough
if enough is enough for you
i promise i'll start to stop
sounding like the voices that
haunt you.."


performed and written by tharishni arumugam at an environmental awareness gig, That Green Thing.


p/s: that is only part of the lyrics. my favourite part :)

the word distant

yellow
grass my back is on
tickling
skin my feet is against
gentle
wind my cheeks brush
sweet
sun my tongue sips

close
lids my eyes shut
hollow
heart my soul yearns
one
bird flies away
distant
hills from the shore

till death do we bore

ah, that feeling came around again. that tinge of uncertainty, just at the brim between what is within and/or against.










yes, i do waste my time thinking about nothingness, worrying about things beyond my powers and crave for questions and wisdoms and explanations ever so endlessly. always searching for that little gap that everyone misses. that's my job; and i love it ;)

through hardships, gems are found

you do learn a lot of things from your students. as much as they learn from you, if not more. i realized they are not to be underestimated. their interests can be unworldly, but they sure are very passionate about the things they like or do not like. they can give you a gazillion reasons if you ask them to justify that.

i grow to respect them as individuals, despite their shortcomings; and more importantly, i realized this early. therefore i still have time to be the best i can to them :)

as one of my students wrote in his journal today:

Per Aspera Ad Astra

(through hardship, to reach the stars)

it has been such a long time since i saw this phrase. the first time i got across it was when i read about Apollo 13, second time was when i heard a song by that title (sang by Haggard) and the third time, in a 16 year old's journal, five years later. though i read about it when i was about his age (17), trust me, i am still impressed.

very impressed.

just enjoy the show

when the going gets tough
when the sun seems to hide
when the stars dont shine
when the zits multiply
when the thinking isnt straight
when the ride is wild,

you...CHILL.

life further unfolds

new discoveries made. when it almost feels like the end. this is the Crystal Frog. You can see its organs. scientifically known as Hyalinobatrachium.

put me in and let me out

put me in a box
i dont ever want
to see
to feel
to be

put me in a circle
just me and me
and nothing
and think
and sink

put me on a string
one that is ever
so stable
so able
so probable

and then let me out
up out away
but where
just there
- anywhere

i am walking away because i can

all there's left to do is see where it takes me.

she bangs

these are some of the tutorial videos by Hahn that i think is pretty cool and informational. this would benefit much to those who lack styling knowledge, like me, and feels that the set of hair called the bangs doesn't need styling and is a waste of time.

post-watching videos: cant believe how easy and quick it is!










she also does make-up. and i think this video in particular is just so funny, cause she made up the name of the look on the spot. haha. this girl is natural you can bet!



check her on youtube: ahahnbarbie34 for more simple/accessible tutorials.

p/s: my fringe is flat and just a mere patch on the forehead, combed sideways. need volume!

i would date these guys

especially the one playing the taylor swift/coldplay song on the piano. if only he also plays the cello. send him to my doorstep please.



i specifically love the fact that he has his daughter in mind whilst arranging this. and also the part in the slight second during the transition from Love Story to Viva La Vida. and also the way he plays it.

and this guy is not bad either. he could pass as a cool roommate. he can play the guitar and we can sing together all night looong.

check his video out here.

sometimes, dreams remain as dreams; nothing more.

tall order

i envy those who have the privilege of height. if i could, i would prefer to be tall; just a little taller than everybody else.

what is it about being tall that made me scowl in frustration of this average height i have? just one thing: the point of view.

being taller than the rest of the crowd provide you a different view of everything. sort of an added extra. you see things higher and further than anyone else. the radius stretches.

i guess you can say that i am pretty bored with the view i have to date. it is so normal. i see the things that pretty much everyone sees. maybe that is why i am not acrophobia. i am not afraid of heights. i crave for it. i want to climb mountains, i did skydiving and paragliding, and i have yet to experience the sensation of submitting to gravity from a certain altitude, and i want to break the 'height' of the depth of the ocean.

if i have the means/height, i would.


p/s: also if i have the height, i can pull off a lot of styles! sheesh.. LOL

6th - 12th of June 2009

i am currently undergoing my practicum - the school orientation program for a week. next week im going to be in classes; teaching. i have no idea if i have what it takes to be a teacher. more pressure when the GPK KoKu briefed us just now, asking us a bunch of questions on application of the theories we actually learned - the things we would do in class, and also a whole lotta other things about the height of Batu Caves, how to cook rice on wet logs, and the Holland personality tests. i got nil right for all the questions. it got to me that general knowledge is too very important to be a teacher. geez, and i thought i had read a lot. clearly not enough. never enough.

i have got three hectic days to prep myself mentally and physically (also emotionally) for whats worst to come. i am friggin scared to the bones, anxious, but i am also very enthusiastic, excited and on my toes to get started with this career. its a beginning!

everyone seasoned in this field would suggest us to have one thing in common: sincerity.

u gotta be ikhlas to be an educator, a great one. and things will fall in to place.

i am wishing the best for myself now :)

"if i dont try then i dont hope"

days of haze

i walk around in blurred vision nowadays. no thanks to the haze caused by the sumatran open burning. maybe i need a bigger and thicker pair of glasses. geez.





Video by Silent Prayer. An artistic sarcastic form of expression to those concerned.

love at first sight

I used to like this song; i still like it (amidst all the angst-driven numbers i listen to in school, we all do). haha. heard it again after such a long time on mix.fm today. miss those carefree days when love is all that matters. some things never change, dont you think? :)

faith and belief

Demi matahari, dan cahayanya di pagi hari,

Demi bulan bila ia mengiringi,

Demi siang bila ia menampakkannya.

Demi malam bila ia menutupinya.

Demi langit serta pembinaannya.

Demi bumi serta penghamparannya.

Demi sukma dan penyempurnaannya,

maka Allah Mengilhamkan kepada jiwa itu jalan kefasikan dan ketakwaannya,

sesungguhnya beruntunglah orang yang menyucikan jiwa itu,

dan sesungguhnya merugilah orang yang mengotorinya.

- QS Asy Syams (Matahari) 91:1-15

Let me ask you a personal question. How many times do you pray each day? How many times, each day do you really, really pray? How many times do you pray with all your heart, at the most sincerest, and sense of submission in a day? How many times?

I will use myself as the subject of victimisation. I honestly only pray occasionally. In times when life is too hard too handle, when only I have time, when somebody invited me to pray together, when my mom or dad asked whether or not i have prayed, then i will pray. I lack discipline, responsibility and gratitude. I was not aware of the fact that I too often ignore or put Him on the sidetrack, and not as the main purpose of my life. I always forget the little detail that He is always, always, all the time, every single nanosecond with me and taking care of me and being not just by my side, but within me. He essentializes me. I forgot. Being human, that's what we all are - forgetful.

I have gone through many 'realization' phases concurrently. I recently came about a thorough expose of the ESQ program in the April 2009 edition of 'Majalah I' whereby Dr. Ary Ginanjar was interviewed and the ESQ program was reviewed. I know a lot of people who would die to participate in the program, and i was truly lucky to be able to join although for the short course (cheaper!). The articles in the magazine of Dr. Ary Ginanjar definitely moved me to reread the books that i got from the program and those that my dad bought: The Islamic Guide to Developing ESQ: Emotional Spiritual Quotient, Rahasia Sukses Membangun Kecerdasan Emosi dan Spiritual and other related books. Quoting from Allah's Manual (the Holy Quran), the books definitely affected me in a whole new level.

I felt very far. It's unexplainable, but i feel very far, from wherever I am supposed to be. I know I am not going to be donning the hijab any time soon, but who knows, with his Hidayah, i might. they say never say never. but what is clear, i will try my best to right all the wrongs and try to be the better version of me everytime i have the choice.

A second 'realization' incident. my dad recently brought home the script for a soon-to-be released drama series for this Ramadhan, titled Fitrah (but may be changed to Cinta Sempurna). So i read the script to give a review to my dad about the series. and i have to say, it is one moving tale! definitely one to watch out for in Ramadhan (August)! It is based on a true story of a brother and a sister who is 'far' from the truth of Islam and trying to find their way back through a young Ustaz who uses not Sunnahs and Hadiths, but Facebook, blogs and YouTube to explain the meaning of human life in the eyes of Allah. Very, very interesting, huh? And so from there, i learned a lot myself, and imagined myself in the shoes of the siblings. the line-up of casts is interesting too: Ashraf Muslim, Tungku Tiara, Fizow, Siti Fazurina, Ellie Suriaty, Akhil Hayy, Akbar Azmi, Maria Farida, Jalil Hamid and etc. The most interesting part of the story is of course, there will be love. But will the love between humans defy the love of the Almighty? We'll have to wait and see! (note: even the scriptwriter hasleft the ending hanging as it is based on true story, so they still dont know whats about to happen). It will be aired on Astro Oasis channel 106.

I have yet to read a book called 'Mother of the Believers: A novel of the birth of Islam' by Kamran Pasha which i will have to borrow from a friend, Baiti, as it is not released yet in Malaysia. We saw it at the Singapore Kinokuniya and i had to save some money, so I couldnt buy it. but not to fret, I will get my hands on those! :) I have to say, the book caught my eye from the very first page. The first sentence of the prologue is this:

What is faith?

How cool. the words Kamran Pasha uses definitely pulled the strings of my heart, comparing memories to the wind and etc. of course, he is a well-known cowriter for NBC's Bionic Woman amongst many others. You can check him out at his website.

So again, i would say that this past few weeks have been very very testing and i am glad that i have great support from all these books and resources to keep me strong ang going. But one that is constantly there to help is definitely Him :) I wish that the days to come will be better for me and for you.

Take care everyone.

we're not on the same page

today feels like a just-broke-up day. everything went either wrong, or monotonous. the last straw was the incident tonight. this mouth, didnt do what it's supposed to do - speak up! really, im not very good at talking about this kind of feeling; i rarely talk about it. or if i do, i do it in circles.

some things are better felt, than said.

this swept me off my feet

if a person asks me what the perfect moment for me to find my significant other would be, i can explain in detail. i can get down to even naming the perfect tone of the colour of the dress i would be wearing. i can name the year/era/age that the incident would take place. but hell, we all know things like that dont come true in the real world. you agree?

but recently, i found the 'perfect moment' in the form of a film. Becoming Jane (starring Anne Hathaway). there is this slight second in the film that really caught my attention. i was too happy beyond explanation.

then i was in a cyber cafe in singapore, doing some work on the internet. youtube in the background. i was listening to one of my all-time fave bands, Iron and Wine, and came this song, My Lady's House, which is dear to my heart. normally i would listen to it on iTunes and just daze off to space. but this time, someone (an angel for sure. lol) has made a video for this song. so i checked it out. i was gobsmacked, ecstatic and all the emotions along that line; the person used scenes from Becoming Jane for this video of My Lady's House!! how convenient! so i can watch my fave scene with my fave music!!

the scene of the 'perfect moment' is also included. hehe. here's the video:




ok check out the dancing scene, (1:16 - 1:60 min). that's the best part of it all. and the 'moment', is from 1:53 to 1:58. OMG. perfect.

that was how (young) people in the old age get to know each other and search for their long-life partners. i definitely want to be in that time. notice how hathaway's face was first very grim and sad in the beginning of the dance? as if she couldnt find anyone that she likes. and then, BOOM!, the 1:56 minute, the right guy danced along, giving a knowing smile. and the dance fits perfectly with the music (or the other way around). i think i might die just watching it over and over again. haha.

oh lord, save me from over-romanticizing a simple video, and aggravating over the fact that this would never happen to me. can dreams ever come true? :)

kudos to Jake Slavik!

Slumdog star returns to the slums

I watched this and questioned the future of the human kind; not the pre-determined, but more of the choices made by us for our own sake.




watch this video and read the comments on youtube. this is the link to it. how do you feel reading the selfish American bastards saying that this homeless boy (amongst thousands others with the same fate) is just begging to America and using his fame from Slumdog Millionaire for his benefits? he's just a kid with no powers in his hands. and the States cant even save their own economic ass for crying out loud! so stop being so ignorant and selfish as i think this is a lesson for you to learn and take more notice to others for once. here's a piece of my mind:

"the end is near, and yet we are growing further"

Temasek

Currently in Singapore; hostile humid austere Singapore. yet, trying to find what is so special about this place. been here a couple of times; came here again with some friends. more developments for sure. but the people, nothing's changed at all.

i am here in physical. my mind, my heart is somewhere else. i wish i was there. or the other way around.

Malaysian's kind of jokes. "Haha"

jokes of the century: (for malaysians, at least)

1. DUN Perak - macroscopically

wth? omg, i was too embarassed to even talk about it. i saw the video from Malaysiakini (thanks to Shukri!) last week and at the end of it i just had to laugh. i mean, how worse can it get? gila catfight. i get that v. sivakumar is probably in denial that he had just been (finally) dropped off his position, and as most veterans would react due to biologically old age (i.e. a.samad said. explained later), he refuse to 'move from his seat'. as if that would make any difference. then later on the opposition bench was outraged of this i think and they soon all indulged in a "Kabammm!!" session. these are the people whom we call leaders, that supposedly represents us. leaders who should abid to the judiciary system and laws..how do you expect the citizens to act mature when you are not being good examples yourself?? very, very childish for a nation that claims to practice a mature democracy. what a shame. very very skanky.

2. It invloves the King

dalam mata pelajaran sejarah yang kita belajar dulu, siapa orang paling tinggi dalam negara ni? (bukan gabenor. ni pasca-kolonisasi lahh) RAJA. ni apa hal sampai tak hormat Raja ni? Pemangku Raja Perak (Raja Dr. Nazrin Shah) terpaksa tunggu selama 5jam sebelum dia boleh masuk. apa ni?!? saya tahu ramai orang cina, india dan melayu liberal di luar sana (ni lah fungsi aku speaking malay ni. lol. kiddin) yang asyik mengatakan bahawa kita patut bubar institusi ke'raja'an, raja semua tak ada fungsi. ada PM seorang cukup lah. tp aku still percaya yang raja tu ada fungsi. salah satunya? ha, patutnya kes-kes macam ni lah dia kena jatuhkan titah. arahkan je si v.sivakumar tu pergi. kalau dia tak nak ganjak juga dari kerusi, suruh security angkat dia dengan kerusi sekali letak kat luar. ni satu penghinaan kepada raja dan rakyat yang menghormatinya!

3. the Opposition

para pembangkang pula, dah jadikan 'emotional outrage' ni macam trademark mereka pula. sesuka hati nak jerit pekik, gaduh-gaduh, tunjuk perasaan, hantar MEMO (bukan petition atau surat. kurang ajar kan namanya tu) dan sebagainya within the lines of laws and bureucracy. kenapa perlu sampai macam ni? nak sangat berkuasa, kita bagi dia tengok sikit. tak payah tengok jauh-jauh, ni dekat selangor/shah alam ni dah cukup. nampak tak billboard yang selalu ada kat roundabout tuh? apa dia tulis? "Kembalikan Hak Air Kepada Rakyat" kan? ha, mana janji -janji yang tak terlaksana lagi tuh? daripada dok gaduh sana sini, apa kata fokus keje-keje anda yg tak siap lagi ni. ni yang buat aku membebel ni. naik angin.

4. PPSMI

sekarang ni, i want to know why these people despise so much the idea of teaching S&M in english. yea, i read the six arguments here the other day (and some hidden for wth purposes) but whats the worst that can happen? yes, some UK institution did a research that BM bole berkembang sebagai one of the top 4 languages used in the world. do u think i give a shit? last time they say the year 2010 will have flying cars and mobile houses on clouds. look now, we're in the 2009 and the only thing thats flying is your zipper. give your fantasies a break. speaking as a malay, i want my race to be one of the top 10% breeds in the world. and other races in our country has the privilege of being fluent in at least 2 languages, do you still want our people to be left behind? when else do we start if not now?! of course, we cant see the implications right away, it may take years to show any signs of negativity or positive impacts; so why jump? i love what muhyiddin is doing. he said that the people opposing this are arguing based on emotions and sentimentals, but what we should really do now is study the affects that may take place in an objective manner. hence, the extension of the time for research of PPSMI. we dont want things to 'flip flop' as muhyiddin put it. dah banyak sangat dah yang flip dan kemudian flop semenjak dua menjak ni. this time around, we have to make a decision, and make it work. no more having to always go back to square one.


ok bye, jari jemari dah kena osteoporosis. will continue later

My friend makes the headline

Kanak-kanak maut kereta jatuh gaung

KUANTAN 11 Mei - Seorang kanak-kanak maut manakala kakaknya koma selepas kenderaan yang dinaiki bersama keluarga mereka terbabas lalu terjunam ke dalam gaung di Kilometer 40, Jalan Kuantan-Segamat dekat sini semalam.

Dalam kejadian kira-kira pukul 3.30 petang itu, mangsa, Mohd. Suria Hidayat Mohd. Nasir, 7, dari Sungai Isap Damai di sini meninggal dunia di tempat kejadian akibat kecederaan parah di kepala manakala kakaknya, Maimunah, 9, koma dan dirawat di Hospital Tengku Ampuan Afzan (HTAA) di sini.

Ketika kejadian, kedua-dua mangsa bersama dua ahli keluarga mereka dalam perjalanan dari arah Muadzam Shah ke Kuantan dengan menaiki sebuah kereta yang dipandu abang mangsa, Zulhelmi, 22.

Ketua Polis Daerah Pekan, Supritendan Yahaya Othman berkata, semasa kejadian, abang mangsa yang memandu kereta dipercayai gagal mengawal kenderaannya sebelum terbabas ke sebelah kiri jalan.

"Kereta itu kemudian melanggar sebatang tiang papan tanda amaran di bahu jalan menyebabkan ia berpusing beberapa kali sebelum terjunam ke dalam gaung," katanya ketika dihubungi di sini hari ini.

Berikutan kejadian itu, Yahaya memberitahu, Zulhelmi patah kaki kanan dan ibu mangsa, Norazizon Saiman, 45, yang duduk di bahagian penumpang depan cedera parah pada bahagian kepala.

Menurutnya, Mohd. Suria Hidayat dan Maimunah duduk di bahagian belakang kereta itu.

Sementara itu, beliau berkata, kesemua yang cedera dikejarkan ke HTAA untuk menerima rawatan dan dilaporkan stabil.

p/s: Zulhelmi is my friend. Let's put our palms together and recite the al-fatihah to his family members who perished, and those who are injured and still waiting to be healed. He is the one in white shirt (obviously.huhu)

news article taken from here. picture taken from here.

no easy feat

nobody said it was easy. well easy to say, but not when you have to do it.

letting go is even harder than having to hold on to something.

oh, can we not let go, but still move on?

red roses

i received a bouquet on the doorstep,
the other day.

along with a card.

it was sent to the wrong house,
but then returned to me.

such a bold move,
i thought.
red roses, and 25 of them.

a very bold move,
for something that is not his..


p/s: thank you for the flowers. they are beautiful.

the problem with this world is that women worry too much about their age,

and men don't act their age.

haha.

sometimes i seriously believe that men and women ARE from different planets.

why, oh why?

*laughs*

to impress

we go a long way to impress people. i've witnessed a lot people doing the things that are against their values and principles just to impress.

most people try to make their marks in this world, not excluding me. we find ways on how we can be noticed and appreciated and be deemed as those who have 'helped' the world in one way or the other. but this is not the same with having to impress. these people are often called the 'wannabes'. nobody should blame them/us for being so.

the need to impress others, comes naturally to human beings. we love to be appreciated and praised. but i think, it is only necessary and fitting if we deserve it.

a painting of black and red

oh God, everytime i look at that painting of his, my knees go weak. all i am able to do is ask myself why. the painting of pain lives up to its name, and striked right through my beating heart. i cant stop questioning myself, as if searching for a justification. i know it's partly my fault, but dont people get second chances. too quick to judge.

and the trail ends there. i didnt bring it back with me. i want to, but i just cant and wont. i dont want it to haunt me. but that painting, i underestimated. it gives me goosebumps and wells up my tearduct.

it is more difficult than i thought.



p/s: ok maybe i miss him just a tad. ugh.

two things

two significant things happened in the duration of last night, specifically while i was doing my research proposal due today (yes, it was last minute, hehe):

One. my laptop crashed while i was typing away. the screen just went blank, but the blue light was blinking. kira punya kira, i have only left it off for about 10hours (?) in the course of five days! no wonder it's throwing a tantrum at me. i have not been looking after it well. maybe it needs a much deserved rest. (eh tapi jangan mati terus selama-lamanya! journal tak siap lagi due nex week nih!). so i had to borrow my housemate's laptop. may God bless her, my dear life-saver :)

Two. I found this great quote in A Comprehensive Guide to Writing a Research Proposal textbook (of all the places, haha).

" Perfection is achieved, not when there is nothing more to add, but when there is nothing left to take away."

Words spoken by Antoine de Saint Exupery. Yep, one helluva name! "Exupery". very cool. like you go to a party and people ask you "Hey beautiful, what's your name?" and you smile and answer sexily "Oh, I'm Exupery. Call me Exu", in that deep french accent that you fake. woohoo. haha. i bet she's long dead. nobody i know has that name anymore. (as if i have any french pen-pals or CouchSurf buddies). haha anyway my point was, the quote is very meaningful.

on another note, life's far from great, but im close to happiness :D (at least i try to think so)

i hope everything (better be!) will go well. it has to.

the truth hurts, but it is the remedy in the long run.

see you guys soon.

chasing Time

what is "busy" in today's world? there is no surprise nor is it gobsmacking if you hear someone is busy. everyone seems to be very busy these days. "oh, i have a lot to do", "im soooooo busy!", "i cant do this now, im busy".

nobody knows what anyone busy is really doing. they are just...busy. you can try throwing in a reason that it's just a matter of time management, but really, it doesnt change the fact that they will still be busy. it's not that they have less to do, it's just that they managed the things they have to do.

sometimes i wondered if the root word for business is busy. it could be. that's probably why people with business to do are always busy. haha. like you become too caught up in the 'business' (busyness) of life that you forget trivial things.

you forget how the sky looks like at night, you forget the taste of rain, you forget the people around you; and you put everything else on hold, while you go chasing time .

i am always busy too. sometimes to the point where i dont even know the hell im doing. which saddens me, because i always believe that i need to do my best in everything i do. right now, it just seems as if im doing things for the sake of doing, like the malay saying: "melepaskan batuk di tangga". because im chasing time, i need everything to be done at instant.

but you know what i realize? i will always be left behind no matter how quickly i chase it. thats just it. you always think that time is not enough, and therefore it will be your loss to think such.


p/s: i have one week to get 10 things done before i can finally be a free man. have no idea if i can pull off this feat. we'll see!

Intention and Implementation

These two things are different. they complement each other in a process, but differ in their own rights.

Intention. This is the root. this is where a jurisdiction takes place, i always believe. what you intent to do is very much different from what you really do. plan and action. two units that works together. intention always justifies for everything.

Implementation. This is one thing that confuses people. implementation always acts as a traitor to your intentions. most of the times, you dont really do what you intent to do. you have a major plan laid out upon you, but you didnt follow through. many factors affect the implementation of your intention. society, personal values, impulsiveness, ego, rationale, and other factors. sometimes you betray your own intentions. only because you refuse to show it i.e you want to appear as if you have other purposes. this act is commonly called deceit. but in my opinion, that is not necessarily the case.

personally, i can tell a person's intention. i know when a person meant well, but couldnt express it in actions that are straight-forward. a good example is how different people show their loved ones they care. some will give caring text messages like "How r u 2day?" or some goes through the hustle of asking someone else rather than the person him or herself. some may just give a meaningful look from afar...the way you implement you intentions vary. one plan can be put into action in countless ways.

however, it is dangerous if others fail to see your intention because of the way you express it. this is where miscommunications take place, and drama happens. also, on your part, you may also take a persons actions as something else, although that person meant something else. make sure you try to understand the roots before making any judgements or decisions.

most of the times, i have problems with this: people who didnt apply their intentions well, but i understood what they actually want to do and they dont get that i actually do understand them. in other words, i can read deception and dishonesty, but people who practice them dont usually think i can decode their intentions.

that's why i always believe in second chances; some people cant do it right the first time, therefore, they might work on it, and actually implement their intentions the second time around :)

role-play

the other day, i had nothing better to do; or rather refuse to do. and i did role-play on solo and imagined myself being a 60 year-old grandma. it was not the best time i had. it felt depressing and got heaps of negative sensations that i am unable to describe by words. highlights:

first of, i felt envious. of the young people - whose innocence shone in their faces. they have one privilege i ever wanted more and more - time. it is a luxury they possess that i know they might and could waste at their dispense. they take risks - they know time is on their side. they rebel, and people dont blame them, they blame their hormones.

secondly, i also envy the 'surprise' element that they hold on to, as they know not of what the future may bring them. they are as excited as they are scared. very thrilling.

then i sympathize. i pity them. for the things they are unable to foresee, for the problems they are unable to control, for the lessons they have to learn. there is no such thing as the easy way - condom for the heart, helmet for the mind, bullet-proof suit for the soul.

then i realize i am one of them. so i snapped out of the granny role, and came back to reality. suddenly i felt relieved. thank god i still have ample opportunities to do what i want. i know it's still not too late.

but at the same time, i also feel like shit. the things i want, i dont always get it. close to never. i do get things i need, but not so much of those that i want. (i know everybody faces the same thing) i seriously do feel like shit when i know that things are a-changing. shit, in this sense, is in the same category of melancholic. guess one can only move on. get on the wagon and ride along.

the rite of passage

the rain is currently falling like it has been doing for the past few weeks. eyebags are agrown and lethargic abound.

what do we write about in our blogs? we complain, we whine.

some write great things that happened in their lives. our blogs bear witness to the things we want the world to know (unless your blog is private).

i see great progress in myself throughout these past five years through my blog archive alone. my first entry was about me being a freshman in college (2005). how lame. but how true. it reflects me at that time. when i read back all the ancient posts i wrote, all the memories rushed in to mind like black and white film flashed on projector. those were amazing years. amazing things have happened. sometimes i regret the things i did, or the clothes i wear. i.e cargo pants and polo tee?! wtf. but yeah, when i give it a second thought, it wasnt so bad after all. in fact, i regret ever feeling regret. haha.

now in the speed of light, i have almost come to the peak of my study: practicum. after that, i will do my last semester and than thats it. it will be over. so in simple calculation, this semester will be the last semester for me and my friends (those in different batches and the same) to hang around the faculty together. tesl square. shitt i am going to miss that spot.

friends from senior years are soon going away, moving on with the next phase of their lives: masters or work. friends from the link program are going too, continuing their practicum at their respective training colleges (KB and Gaya), friends from junior years, well, when i get back from prac, they'll be going for it and it'll be very hard to meet up.

geez. how time really flies! it used to be just a figure of speech. but now it is really happening. doing practicum, finishing studies, graduating, continuing with studies, finding Mr.Right-For-Me, watching friends getting married, getting married myself, having children, and etc etc etc.

the rite of passage. thats what we all do. we move on, all the time. im looking forward to see what the future has in store for me. but in the meantime, i just cant wait to spend my time with those i have and love with all my heart, while i still can :)

simple people

Some people makes me drive my thoughts back to basics. the mere simplicity, the non chalance amidst the consciousness of everything else. the care-free, unbinded attitude and the liberated free-will thinking.

i thank these people. they provide me with the occasional breath of fresh air.

they dont deny consumerism, but they dont swear by it either.

they go with globalisation, but they put borders where there should be.

they read and talk to others, but dont necessarily believe all of it.

they are their own people, but they accept others as one of them.


these people;

one who sits on the pavement on the roadside.

one who only owns 7 pairs of tops and bottoms for each day of the week.

one who sits at home when people are out.

one who rides the old bike everywhere.

one who smiles, laughs, and cries when they should.

one who makes mistakes, and take it as a lesson.

one who doesnt do everything right, but doesnt disappoint.

one who is human, and is not afraid of the fact.


these are the people that have often given me new and useful insights on things i find complicated.
find these people around you, believe me, they are there.
the best thing is? they dont know who they are :)

susah la nak cakap

kenapa orang susah nak faham?

atau mereka faham tapi cuba nafikan apa yang diorang faham?

hish, aku pun tak faham.

tolonglah faham supaya aku tak payah fahamkan.

penat, pening, agitated dan keliru.

sila uruskan diri anda sendiri.

Here In My Home

I know that this is probably old juice. And i've used too many videos and music recently to cover up for my lack of commitment in writing a real post kan? HAHA. But it's not wrong to burn up that spirit of nationality over and over again lah i think. HAHA. And plus, this is a very good video. Just the right dose of values and humour lah.
Watched it with some friends during Micro-teaching Reading. Ngahaha. (Kantoi tak focus di kelas).

My favourite part is of Harith Iskandar. Dia buat moonwalk seyh!! And then, Awie's raspy voice and Ning's big notes. Ooohh man, perfecto. And also, the rap part. It's in four main languages used in Malaysia. Seriously cool. Seriously.

And oh, I LOVE MALAYSIA; and PROUD TO BE A MALAYSIAN.





p/s: do you think unity is far-fetched in Malaysia? I think it's achievable, but it does take time :)

"No matter where I roam, this is Home Sweet Home.."

Sakura Beat

Life has been hectic (still..). what more, the semester is coming to an end; everyone's trying to get their work done to be submitted before the study leave. even the lecturers look stressed out around the faculty.

i am coping pretty well. planning a trip, mentally. haha. and still manage to fool around and enjoy being this age amidst all the workload :) some unwanted distractions occur unexpectedly, but thats what makes life much thrilling!

so here's a song, to those of us who still hangs in there, and rocking wild despite all the pressures in our lives.
well, as they say, the way to live is to love! so love life [^ ^]v

Cheers!

[i love this video for its canvas look. very delicate and anime-ish, don't you think? :)]

"Time shall unfold what plaited cunning hides"

-Shakespeare, King Lear

a wise ass and an ass

note:

the wise ass: him
the (fabulous) ass: me

went on tea with my neighbour whom i've not seen for some years now at la bodega. he always has wise things to say whenever he speaks.

"Time equals gold. You can never replace time with gold and eitherwise;

no matter how valuable they are"

How very true. i think i've wasted too many hours on unimportant things. i bet he always thinks of great quotes while on auto-pilot. oh well, pilots are smart-asses. and they are paid ridiculously high amount of moolah just for pressing on buttons and reading meters. (i know, i know, it's more complex than that).

anyway, that is another thing i have yet to think about; my future. dammit how in the world am i supposed to assume what i want in the next few years? i am utterly popular with being unpredictable with myself, and i can never decide today for what's to be in the next two years; heck, not even tomorrow!

but let's put that aside, shall we? one day at a time.



p/s: listening to the velvet underground - im sticking with you.
(heart-- how ironic, im not stuck to anyone.)
(head -- well, so the insecurities and the denial speaks.)

kenapa tak mimpi bunkface??

mimpi yang best! 4 malam yang lalu, dalam kesibukan alam, dan kesuntukkan masa untuk tidur, aku telah pun bermimpi. uhhh sangat indah! (tapi decent la, jgn fikir bukan-bukan).

mimpi simple je: drummer gerard et les stars datang bilik aku and kitorang pillow talk. WAHAHA. tak ingat pula detail apa yg diborakkan, tapi dia puji senyuman aku lah. katanya (dalam bahasa perancis, tapi aku faham) "apa pendapat kamu tentang hidup ini?"

aku tak ingat apa aku jawab, tapi you can bet aku jawab something lame lah (and tak ingat juga bahasa apa). pastu at the end tuh, mak aku panggil dia. sambil cakap "wahhh, ni lah dia bakal menantu ibu ye?"

OMG. how i wish! tapi dah nama pun mimpi kannnn! tepaksa la mak control desire makk!! tak taste la gini nokk!

tapi pape pun, dia pakai baju shirt kotak2 kelabu dalam tu ada t-shirt putih, with fedora hat.

sangat weird, sebab jade puget yg aku minat bagai nak rak tu pun aku tak penah mimpi pillow talk dengan dia. ni kan pulak drummer kecil-kecilan kat lorong kat paris tuh.

but it was a great dream lah! tidur sejam je, tapi mimpi mcm cerita hindustan.



p/s: dalam seminggu ni, the sleeping hour i get has increased! (approx 15jam/minggu)

Point where you should ponder

All dead white boys say "God is good"

White tongues hang out "God is good"

-Sodom, South Georgia

Indeed, i believe so. He knows what is best for me and you, and thusfore, lay them down upon us. What happened, what is happening, and what will from now happen, i let Him decide.

And so, we are in the hands of God. (Shyheim)

Latuk Lee

hey hey, newsflash!

itu Latuk Lee Chong Wei sulah menang itu swiss open!! waaaa sangat gembira la ini macam!! hari itu saya sulah marah2 dia, kasi macam2 hal mencarut la, sekalang dia sulah redeem himself woo!! and also saved the nation's ass from what could be another humiliation!!

haha. hati saya ar sangat hepi!!

menang jugak nombor sangat ong!

set 1: 21-16
set2 : 21-16

points adalah sama untuk kedua-dua set!!

saya rasa latuk sulah faham tactic permainan lin dan. itu sangat mempuaskan! kerana ar, lin dan itu jenis olang yang main pantas. fast speed punya olang. typical chinaman la itu. jadi ar, ini latuk pulak jenis slow-mo la bak kata spielberg; jenis pemain yang main secara cool.

lantas ar, pada set pertama selepas point ke 10 lin dan macam itu, latuk cepat menangkap cara permainan latuk lin dan. eh eh bukan latuk lin dan la dia, silap la. hehe.

so ar, u boleh tengok la, selepas itu latuk bagi kaw-kaw sama dia guna tactic long rally la. dia bagi itu chinaman penat ar, hilang stamina; bagi smash banyak-banyak sama dia so tunggu dia hilang fokus dan make mistake.. sangat bijak la! mungkin misbun dan rashid sulah bagitahu sama dia la, sebab ar, masa itu all england saya nampak beliau ada tulis2 macam-macam atas kertas la masa match. haha. bagus2 ini macam.

moment paling digemari oleh saya, sulah tentulah pada point ke 15/16 set pertama dan point ke 14/15 set kedua. latuk ar sampai pusing 360 woo untuk backhand itu shuttle. gila ka apa ini latuk! sungguh kagum la! haiya, saya sangat hepi la. ini macam baru kali ke empat la dia bagi tewas itu lin dan dalam jangka 15match macam itu, accumulatively la. tapi harus pasti tingkatkan lagi la dia punya semangat fighter! jika tidak ar, sangat cepat la itu latuk putus asa, betul?

jadi ar, kasi tanam itu semangat waja dan patriotik bagi dia kerakyatan sedikit. wahahaha. ok la, hepi hepi ar lu latuk. saya juga mau tido la. latuk, lu nampak sangat leng loi la waktu lu minum air selepas match itu. wa sangat suka tengok!! hahaha. ok la, chowzz!



p/s: omg. aku dah jadi bimbo versi cina.

fantasi berakademi

went to watch AF (or akademi fantasia for those who are ignorant enough, or just couldn't care less, or havent been in malaysia for the past decade, or just deleted the memory of voting for it haha) last saturday at the futsal arena in bukit jalil. i was with my brother; we both despised the idea of having to go watch some amateur entertainers with awkward showmanship and stage skills AND having to go with our more-adult neighbour and her more-adult friends. yes, what more can be worse than having to watch funny people sing karaoke in a competition with elderly AF fanatics right? well, it was not so bad as it turned out. we actually had fun! and i kind of like one of the contestants (or two!). haha. gila menjilat ludah sendiri ;p i like Qhaud and Aril. got the potential baybeh!

definitely a season to watch out for!



p/s: ada orang kata tiara jacquelina sangat gedik sebagai seorang pengetua AF. apa kata anda? mari kita tunggu dan lihat!

goodbye

" i hope life treat you kind,

and i hope you have all you dreamed of.

and i wish you joy,

and happiness,

but above all these,

i wish you love.."

not something i do

sometimes you just dont know that it is happening. by the time you realize, it is already over. and you are left alone wondering what the hell just happened and why the hell were you so oblivious and was such a dumbass that such an eventful thing sept you in but you did not so much notice, let alone feel it.

yes, dear friends, there are people like that in this world. in fact, most of us probably has gone through this. you want it so much, but you deny it. but with the power of the universe, you get it, and then you didnt realize. so you couldnt appreciate it. and it goes away. and you blame yourself. and you missed a chance; could be the chance.

and you start to feel as if the world is crumbling down around you. and as painful as it is to swallow, you owe to yourself. the only person you could and would blame is you and no other.

and all that is left for you to do is to only hope.

to hope for a hope.

patience is virtue

you know that feeling when somebody took a portion of your heart, pull it out and keep it in a jar? yes, it will leave a hole in your heart. it hurts, it sucks, but it happens all the time. and they say time heals all wounds. but time is very, very abstract. some take longer time to heal, some in a blink of an eye.

but you heal, sooner or later. just need to be patient.

patience.

if only i had more of it.

being someone else may seem very tempting, but never ever give in to the temptations.

just be yourself, only better :)

corat-coret seorang perwira

went to watch Marley & Me the other night, amidst all the hectic-ness, BUT it was worth it. felt like i need a refresher course and last weekend has given me just that. i now feel relinquished, fresh and more creative than i was in previous weeks (last time i can come up with a thousand reasons why not to go to class, but now macam dah less kreatif utk berfikir. nway, skng dah improve sikit dah). HAHA. annndd, di samping itu juga, aku dah organize kan diri sket. dah ada calendar (ye, kali ini ADA and GUNA. selalu ada je), organizer, notebook..you name it, i got it. ceh. dah kata sexytary, kena la hidup tersusun. (ye, next time aku nak upah org lain pula jadi secratary aku. tak dan la kome nak buat semua). rasanya, Pak Lah pun tak busy macam ni. (yela, dia keja bercinta je. negara porak peranda pun peduli apa dia. haha. jgn marah pak lah. sindiran bermakna, sila ambil tindakan).

nway, marley and me was very sad. i think coz it's regarding unconditional love between the dog and its family/master. so, very touching. based on true story lagi. acad, moja, chip sampai beli buku dia buat koleksi sampai akhir hayat. cuti-cuti nanti nak pinjam boleh baca tambah ilmu. bagi yang belum tonton, hari selasa dan rabu murah. malah harga early bird memang tak masuk akal. silalah bergegas ke panggung bersama kad pelajar anda.

rentetan itu, minggu ni menjanjikan sebuah lagi minggu yang pasti mencabar kesabaran dan kecekalan ku dek kesibukan dan tuntutan kerja (cewah gitu!). lantas, masa itu semestinya emas. janganlah kita membuat kerja minit terakhir kerna sesungguhnya, hanya aku yang tahu bala bencana akibat melengahkan kerja. HAHA. tapi saya pasti anda semua hebat dalam bidang procrastinatism ini. memang, saya akui sendiri, ia adalah satu sindrom berbahaya! oleh itu, jika masih mahu membuat kerja last minute, jangan berseorang, biarlah berdua bertiga dan lagi ramai lagi bagus. supaya rakan-rakan anda bisa memberi anda satu jenis ego-boost yang anda pasti perlukan di saat genting. support system, bak kata orang barat dari segi demografinya lah. jika buat hanya seorang, anda pasti akan berasa guilty, lonely, dan low self-esteem. renung-renungkanlah coretan ini. semoga kapan kita ketemu lagi. iya bisa doank!

lesson of the day: ya apa saja bisa!! (adapted from Obama, 2009: Yes We Can!)

salam sayang dari perantauan.

captain cook sans the hook

yeap, i need ponstan for that. haha, can't believe such a minor accident can be so painful. it was swollen to double the real size. and now, i can only wear huge pants and long clothing that can disguise this bandage from the eyes of the public. wahahaha. if you must know, i am skinless (well, at that particular spot) and now have to wait till the skin regrow and my leg will look (almost) normal again. can't wait for brand-new skin. it surely would feel like i have been reborn (not!).

what a tragedy. can't reveal much, or you'll faint upon seeing it. LOL

atlit malaysia

ye, baru selesai menonton piala All England Open 2009 yang bagaikan kertas conteng dikeronyok lantas dibuang ke tong sampah. perasaan membuak-buak dengan kekecewaan dek kekalahan DATUK lee chong wei kepada lin dan dari china. nak katakan kalah tipis, memang jauh panggang dari api lah. memang diketahui bahawa dalam 15 kali pertemuan mereka berdua (tak kira tourney apa) Lin Dan meragut kemenangan sebanyak 12 kali dan lee c.w. hanya menang 3 kali dengannya. tapi seorang rakyat malaysia sejati tidak akan nafi mempunyai segelumit harapan yang lee akan menang. sekali tengok, first set dah lemah. second set lagi la. dapat satu mata, bagi satu mata. dapat satu, bagi satu - tu motto baru dia ke? sampai lah akhirnya masa point ke 15 macam tu, Lin Dan dah sangat selesa, dengan 4 mata di hadapan, and time tu aku sedar yang tak mungkin untuk lee mengejarnya. bukan pesimis, tapi realistik. orang tu dah nak match point; masa tu mata ke 20, tinggal satu je lagi. tak kan lah nak harap dia buat silap je? tak mungkin.

yang aku nampak kelemahan lee: bila dia jatuh, lambat bangun. and he's a late bloomer. so dia ambil masa agak lama nak warm up. by the time dia dah heat up, opponent telah pun bersorak gembira dengan kemenangan dalam tangan. bubur dah jadi sup. time waits for no man. ombak pergi meninggalkan kerang. hahaha.

not only that, yesterday DATUK nicole ann david, KALAH kepada Natalie Grainger, an american in the final CIMB KL Open. one thing i noticed is that, she has this 'habit' of losing when it comes to national championships. how funny. i have no clue if it has anything to do with the prize money, as money is still money, but seriously, she's the world no.1 squash player in the world and she lost on her own turf more than anywhere else in the world. very interesting, nicole. maybe it's just tough luck kot, although im starting to think you have something up your sweaty sleeves.

talking about malaysian athletes. they all claim that they were given too little incentives and rewards. the black sheep when it comes to that. now the allowances has been raised, more incentives are given, and there are other rewards in accordance to the their performance and achievement. i.e. datukship. and i.e. both the datuks mentioned above.

when they have been given all these nice things and special treatments - kompang at arrivals at the klia, all the menteri coming down to greet them, not 'punishing' them by taking back the incentives if they suck at their game - then all they do is relax. every game that comes after that will be taken not so seriously as they feel superior and already good enough at whatever they're doing.

please la people, wake up. one thing our athletes lack - and surpass any other aspect as it is the most essential - patriotism and resilience. (oh wait, thats two things. haha nway.) so better do something guys. the malaysian football team has long been a disgrace to us.

somebody's got to clean up this mess. and it ain't gonna be me.

penantian = penyeksaan

betul kata orang, penantian itu satu penyeksaan. dah lebih dua jam dah ni menunggu. tapi nasib baik menunggu di tempat selesa (yakni bilik) dan berinternet. haha.

aku sudah lambat untuk kerja. haih. nak salah kan orang tu, dia yang bagi aku kerja ni, tapi dia juga yang boleh menyebabkan aku kehilangan kerja. another irony of life ;p

pagi tadi hantar liyana, dia nak pegi on a trip to cameron highlands with some of our friends. something that i kind of need myself. but its ok. the time will come for me lah soon. hope they bring back some tea and strawberries for me ;p

today, i want to reward myself with something i've longed for for a very long time:

to curl up in a book before i fall into deep slumber.. hehe. economical, simple, yet very very rewarding :)

one and a half weeks in one post

mode: definitely busy.

highlights:

1. my sisters' sports day was fantabulous. was held at the bukit jalil sports complex. izrin was the flyer for her rumah sukan and i couldnt believe my eyes seeing her cheer like an expert, given that this is her first attempt. thinking of cheer comp, girl? ;p

2. the short film awards at KLCC CC was a refreshing event. got to meet some cool personalities (i.e. ehem ehem, bunkface), and we breathed the same air and took the same escalator! hahah, loser gila! omg. we even stalked them at the end of the event. i am such a groupie. but i dont give a sh*t. they're cute and i like them ;p

3. another week of post-poned quizzes and presentations. i just want to get them done and over with! please!

4. jason mraz was the highlight of the week! i believe he's one elligible bachelor but not ever up for grabs. coz he's every girl's man. full report soon :)

5. helped fa move out. just the two of us, we managed the can-fill-one-whole-warehouse load of stuff! to level 3!! fa, Angel Face satu! LOL.

6. chilled with gfs. definitely trying the New Age next :) im so loving this!

7. -ve: MAJOR injury on right thigh caused by the dumbass exhaust of a bike.flesh exposed. right before mraz's show! like hadi said..no pain, no gain! yea right, this is almost fatal la dude :)) hahahaha (exaggerate)

i hope more great things will come my way. repeat, only great things. got too much bad chi nowadays. shooh negative aura, shooh!